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I started Hormone treatment! (FTM trans, testosterone)
11 years ago
I've been on The hormone treatment for a little over 2 weeks now and it's going awesome. Sure I'm going through a second puberty and getting a zitty face but my voice is already changing. Dr. Martin in London Ont has a completely unique method for prescribing hormone treatment to transgender people. Not only does he prescribe the HRT, but he also prescribes something called Suprefact. It affects the pituitary gland in a way where it stops it from releasing estrogen. So he could perscribe me a higher dose of testosterone then they would normally start people on because normally the body would convert the extra testosterone into estrogen. This also means my transition would happen a LOT faster and i would only have 1 more 'shark week'!
The downside? It's frigging expensive.
Well, i could mostly afford it until i started getting CRAZY moodswings and tonnes of stress so they put me on some mood-steadying medication.
aka: antidepressants
I think i feel them kicking in ish? they told me it;d take a couple weeks for them to work because they gave me a very low dose but it's been 5 days and i feel... funny. You could say i feel nothing at all. I'm less stressed out but i feel like a robot. Not necessarily in a bad way, in a beep-boop-all-i-do-is-compute kinda way. Which is better then crazy/ irritated then upset then elated then depressed then angry then just being a bitch for no reason then having panic attacks at work because the store is FULL. OF. PEOPLE. etc.
Now I feel perfectly ok. and that's it. Beep boop.
Anyways. The point is that I can't afford both medication and hormone treatment. All I have is a part time job. I'm going to look in my drug coverage through my work but none of it is covered by OHIP.
Costs:
Delatestryl (Testoserone): $76.56
Suprefact (estrogen suppressor): $108.33
Fluoxetine (prozac) : $53.94
Total: $238.83
AKA: way too much for my part-time lazy butt can afford
Plus, due to my mood swings/anxiety I've had the past few weeks, I'm afraid i might lose my job. In a sense I feel like that might be best. I don't want to feel like my work has to cater to me like i have a disability, though I positively LOVE working there, maybe to regain my mental stability I should take some time off work. (if it comes to losing it, I'm not going to quit.)
Also on that note, my hormone treatment and meds WOULD be covered if i was on welfare. Right now I'm working 20-30 hours a week and after my rent/expenses i actually have as much money as someone on welfare would. It's dumb. But to me work gives me a purpose, and it feels like I'm going somewhere in my life.
This way i could slowly start chipping away at my credit card debt and the loans i have from people. Which is only like $250+$900... but still it would be nice if i had a surplus in money instead of debt.
SO, I'm definately going to open up for commissions soon. Maybe just paintings and such and not so much digital things (I kind of don't like doing digital stuff if it takes more than one sitting to get it done)
anyways. Thats whats going on in my life
It's pretty alright I think. Lots of people have much worse, I'm actually feeling alright with my situation. I'm getting help for my problems and even though i haven't been checked by a psychiatrist just yet to see with wrong with me, I feel like I'm getting somewhere and improving on myself. At least now I have confidence that can function in society without the fear and anxiety of not being capable.
How are you guys doing? anything going on? :3
The downside? It's frigging expensive.
Well, i could mostly afford it until i started getting CRAZY moodswings and tonnes of stress so they put me on some mood-steadying medication.
aka: antidepressants
I think i feel them kicking in ish? they told me it;d take a couple weeks for them to work because they gave me a very low dose but it's been 5 days and i feel... funny. You could say i feel nothing at all. I'm less stressed out but i feel like a robot. Not necessarily in a bad way, in a beep-boop-all-i-do-is-compute kinda way. Which is better then crazy/ irritated then upset then elated then depressed then angry then just being a bitch for no reason then having panic attacks at work because the store is FULL. OF. PEOPLE. etc.
Now I feel perfectly ok. and that's it. Beep boop.
Anyways. The point is that I can't afford both medication and hormone treatment. All I have is a part time job. I'm going to look in my drug coverage through my work but none of it is covered by OHIP.
Costs:
Delatestryl (Testoserone): $76.56
Suprefact (estrogen suppressor): $108.33
Fluoxetine (prozac) : $53.94
Total: $238.83
AKA: way too much for my part-time lazy butt can afford
Plus, due to my mood swings/anxiety I've had the past few weeks, I'm afraid i might lose my job. In a sense I feel like that might be best. I don't want to feel like my work has to cater to me like i have a disability, though I positively LOVE working there, maybe to regain my mental stability I should take some time off work. (if it comes to losing it, I'm not going to quit.)
Also on that note, my hormone treatment and meds WOULD be covered if i was on welfare. Right now I'm working 20-30 hours a week and after my rent/expenses i actually have as much money as someone on welfare would. It's dumb. But to me work gives me a purpose, and it feels like I'm going somewhere in my life.
This way i could slowly start chipping away at my credit card debt and the loans i have from people. Which is only like $250+$900... but still it would be nice if i had a surplus in money instead of debt.
SO, I'm definately going to open up for commissions soon. Maybe just paintings and such and not so much digital things (I kind of don't like doing digital stuff if it takes more than one sitting to get it done)
anyways. Thats whats going on in my life
It's pretty alright I think. Lots of people have much worse, I'm actually feeling alright with my situation. I'm getting help for my problems and even though i haven't been checked by a psychiatrist just yet to see with wrong with me, I feel like I'm getting somewhere and improving on myself. At least now I have confidence that can function in society without the fear and anxiety of not being capable.
How are you guys doing? anything going on? :3
Best of luck with the treatment! :)
Again, congratulations -hugs tight- and go for tea!!! ^^ trust me, they do wonders without any side effects. The magic of traditional home remedies.
but im on prozac for more reasons than just depression, i have really bad mood swings
but yea, the hormones are super great! c: