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11 years ago
... than never.
Hello all, new and old watchers alike. I figure it's time I show my face again and explain a few things, like why my art has been dwindling lately.
Let's just get right into it;
Part of it has to do with my not producing as much of it as I used to for various reasons, or at least not as much of it that I can show around. I have a backlog on things I've done a while back, but somehow the motivation to upload that is illuding me. One main reason is that a lot of the stuff I have produced lately I'm either not allowed to upload because of NDAs I've signed, or I'm reluctant to upload, because I know myself for running incomplete projects into the ground as soon as I show them around (e.g. Company of Idiots, I'll address that in a moment).
A lot of my main universe is getting a design rework, both in the background and in the visual and it's taking a good amount of time to put it all into comprehensible formats. However, I am, admitedly, also incredibly lazy and hesitant on making things solid, because I've noticed my visual aesthetic seems to be a very fluid things in recent months <.<
My ability to concentrate has been lacking for the last year or so due to several issues, mostly real life, the most persistant being the tinitus I acquired at a rock concert last summer because I was an idiot. The other thing is that I haven't really had a moment of spiritual rest for the last half a year. Something's always come up and I'm finding myself at a loss for time to do something just for myself.
The dayjob isn't helping the matter. I've been on my feet constantly for the last two months. My only hope is that the new coworker we're getting is gonna pull his weight properly, but I don't expect my bosses to let off on the mental pressure. Just to set things straight, no, they're not harrassing me, but they're not pulling their weight at work, something I may have to address again if things don't improve.
As I mentioned before, I'm under NDAs (multiple), meaning I'm working on two separate projects that are unrelated to eachother, though they share at least one very general similarity in that they are sci-fi. That's about as much as I'm allowed to say at this point. One of them should be complete some time next year if the schedule holds up. The other is indefinite, so we'll see whether or not I'll get to share my contributions with you guys at any point in the near future.
My computer has also been acting up pretty bad. I'm working on the issue, but I'm currently writing from the laptop. The fact that the computer doesn't work straight is also one fo the reasons why it's difficult for me to immerse myself in my art as I used to, which brings me around to what I mentioned in my last upload; my dissatisfaction with my work.
A friend of mine brought up a valid theory about art skill and art observation skill, but I've been growing more and more dissatisfied with the work I've been producing lately, specifically my color and effect work and I'm currently at a loss for solutions to that problem.
I'm pretty sure I could probably get back into things as soon as the computer works again and I take some time just for myself, but until then I'll still be super scarce in terms of uploads.
Another thing that's thrown me off is the crimea crisis. This might come as a surprise to some of you, but remember that I live in Austria, that's only a countries worth away from Ukraine and the political situation has had me rather worried.
For various reasons it has led me to question a great deal of things, both about the world and myself. I don't really want to roll it all out here, and as much as I'll appreciate any concern, I've been talking to my confidante's enough that I'm at least mentally stable enough to keep going on a daily basis. Suffice it to say, I've had one of my last solid faiths in this world shaken and I had a bit of a hard recovery.
Questioning myself has also led me to question my "image" if you want and I've pretty much come to the conclusion that I will be retiring Antar as my official representative and fursona. He will most definitely remain my male lead, but I'm no longer sure I identify with him on a personal level or as an alter ego, especially after the rework I've been giving him in accordance with the new universe and the insights I've had about myself. He also has far too much (hi)story attached to him, so I'm currently in the process of figuring out what my new 'sona will look like. Something I can say with relative certainty is that he will be a si'itian with a build closer to my actual self and a new fur coat, but we'll see about that.
One last reason why I've been so scarce lately is that I have been loading myself down with too many things at a time, so I'm currently in the process of eliminating excess weight and cutting projects that are wearing on me without progress. Unfortunately this means letting go of things both you and I treasure.
It's not really a secret anymore, so I might as well make it official; Company of Idiots will not continue.
I've been dragging it along for far too long and there just hasn't been any progress on it whatsoever for the last year and I don't see a window of opportunity for me to start it up again any time soon. What I will do is upload what little material I have left over from back in the day though, so as not to hold out on you and then put it on the shelf.
I wouldn't have brought that downer without having a positive announcement to make to pick you guys up though. Last month I started sketching on the pages for the sequel to RESURGENCE. It's advancing at a slower pace than I'd want it to, but so is everything lately, so I'm not letting that throw me off.
I will start keeping track of the projects WIP on my front page via loading bars, so you guys know what's going on without me shouting journals every once in a while. This also includes commissions I hope to be taking on again after I've cleared the air a bit. Yes, I know I say that every damn time, we'll see if I can actually follow up on my promise this time around :b
I think that covers all the bases. If you guys have any questions left, you're welcome to ask here.
I hope you guys have been having a good time and that you'll continue enjoying the art I share with you.
Stay tuned and healthy and lots of hugs,
yours truly, iPoke
Hello all, new and old watchers alike. I figure it's time I show my face again and explain a few things, like why my art has been dwindling lately.
Let's just get right into it;
Part of it has to do with my not producing as much of it as I used to for various reasons, or at least not as much of it that I can show around. I have a backlog on things I've done a while back, but somehow the motivation to upload that is illuding me. One main reason is that a lot of the stuff I have produced lately I'm either not allowed to upload because of NDAs I've signed, or I'm reluctant to upload, because I know myself for running incomplete projects into the ground as soon as I show them around (e.g. Company of Idiots, I'll address that in a moment).
A lot of my main universe is getting a design rework, both in the background and in the visual and it's taking a good amount of time to put it all into comprehensible formats. However, I am, admitedly, also incredibly lazy and hesitant on making things solid, because I've noticed my visual aesthetic seems to be a very fluid things in recent months <.<
My ability to concentrate has been lacking for the last year or so due to several issues, mostly real life, the most persistant being the tinitus I acquired at a rock concert last summer because I was an idiot. The other thing is that I haven't really had a moment of spiritual rest for the last half a year. Something's always come up and I'm finding myself at a loss for time to do something just for myself.
The dayjob isn't helping the matter. I've been on my feet constantly for the last two months. My only hope is that the new coworker we're getting is gonna pull his weight properly, but I don't expect my bosses to let off on the mental pressure. Just to set things straight, no, they're not harrassing me, but they're not pulling their weight at work, something I may have to address again if things don't improve.
As I mentioned before, I'm under NDAs (multiple), meaning I'm working on two separate projects that are unrelated to eachother, though they share at least one very general similarity in that they are sci-fi. That's about as much as I'm allowed to say at this point. One of them should be complete some time next year if the schedule holds up. The other is indefinite, so we'll see whether or not I'll get to share my contributions with you guys at any point in the near future.
My computer has also been acting up pretty bad. I'm working on the issue, but I'm currently writing from the laptop. The fact that the computer doesn't work straight is also one fo the reasons why it's difficult for me to immerse myself in my art as I used to, which brings me around to what I mentioned in my last upload; my dissatisfaction with my work.
A friend of mine brought up a valid theory about art skill and art observation skill, but I've been growing more and more dissatisfied with the work I've been producing lately, specifically my color and effect work and I'm currently at a loss for solutions to that problem.
I'm pretty sure I could probably get back into things as soon as the computer works again and I take some time just for myself, but until then I'll still be super scarce in terms of uploads.
Another thing that's thrown me off is the crimea crisis. This might come as a surprise to some of you, but remember that I live in Austria, that's only a countries worth away from Ukraine and the political situation has had me rather worried.
For various reasons it has led me to question a great deal of things, both about the world and myself. I don't really want to roll it all out here, and as much as I'll appreciate any concern, I've been talking to my confidante's enough that I'm at least mentally stable enough to keep going on a daily basis. Suffice it to say, I've had one of my last solid faiths in this world shaken and I had a bit of a hard recovery.
Questioning myself has also led me to question my "image" if you want and I've pretty much come to the conclusion that I will be retiring Antar as my official representative and fursona. He will most definitely remain my male lead, but I'm no longer sure I identify with him on a personal level or as an alter ego, especially after the rework I've been giving him in accordance with the new universe and the insights I've had about myself. He also has far too much (hi)story attached to him, so I'm currently in the process of figuring out what my new 'sona will look like. Something I can say with relative certainty is that he will be a si'itian with a build closer to my actual self and a new fur coat, but we'll see about that.
One last reason why I've been so scarce lately is that I have been loading myself down with too many things at a time, so I'm currently in the process of eliminating excess weight and cutting projects that are wearing on me without progress. Unfortunately this means letting go of things both you and I treasure.
It's not really a secret anymore, so I might as well make it official; Company of Idiots will not continue.
I've been dragging it along for far too long and there just hasn't been any progress on it whatsoever for the last year and I don't see a window of opportunity for me to start it up again any time soon. What I will do is upload what little material I have left over from back in the day though, so as not to hold out on you and then put it on the shelf.
I wouldn't have brought that downer without having a positive announcement to make to pick you guys up though. Last month I started sketching on the pages for the sequel to RESURGENCE. It's advancing at a slower pace than I'd want it to, but so is everything lately, so I'm not letting that throw me off.
I will start keeping track of the projects WIP on my front page via loading bars, so you guys know what's going on without me shouting journals every once in a while. This also includes commissions I hope to be taking on again after I've cleared the air a bit. Yes, I know I say that every damn time, we'll see if I can actually follow up on my promise this time around :b
I think that covers all the bases. If you guys have any questions left, you're welcome to ask here.
I hope you guys have been having a good time and that you'll continue enjoying the art I share with you.
Stay tuned and healthy and lots of hugs,
yours truly, iPoke
either way will have to try and do a catch up or have a game or something *blows dust off his own 360*
I hope your work situation improves!
It sounds like your dangerously close to burnout bro, so I see stepping back some and taking stock as a good thing. It's a shame COI has to be shelved, but such is life.
Kinda curious what your new avatar will look like, but like everyone else, I'll find out when you've got it sorted out
Never forget, we're here to listen if you need to vent. Just make sure you put out the flamebait for the trolls
Just one thing. You probably can't make a picture so bad I won't like it unless you tried (and I might even like it if you tried).
And good luck with your work situation.
Balkan countries joining the EU is more upsetting IMHO... 'Free market' and 'Multiculturalism' will be the Union's doom.