So.... The more time passes , the more i feel like life aint worth it.

No one is interested in fixing the past since all you need to do is a find a new hole to put your dick in, so why make an effort If theres a bump on the road?

Everyone seems to take my kindness for granted or that its impossible to make mistakes.its unacceptable for me to hurt and tell them they've hurted me or to ask for forgiveness if i made a mistake.

even less acceptable to ask stuff i lended to exs back. It apparently makes me an asshole to install back my own games with licenses i lended to an ex because it stops them from updating the software anymore.

Long distance relationships kinda sucks... Never any time to see someone... Well, you cant really see them either...

Landlord is an ass, im stuck with rats since October... So this appartement is unliveable, i need to move. Held off the rent to force the landlord to take care of the rat problem. So he "sues" me for not paying. Need to sue him for negligence get him to pay me back all the rent since the beginning of the rat problems and pay for my move.... Fun times ahead. Oh and dog got poisoned with rat poison yet rats themselves are unaffected.

And i feel I'm losing touch with friends since everyone has their own life and their own issues, less and less time to hang out. But thats all part of growing up, getting a life, bills to pay and so on.

On the plus side, i manage to make overtime at work like crazy! The more time i work, the less time I'm left in my own suicidal thoughts... So give me even more work!

An other plus note... I made chocolate chips banana bread... This is awsome