Once again I find myself in wanting curious and confused wondering why I'm still here living in this forsaken life I call my own pretty much every single person I've ever known or met with my condition is dead a long time ago dead not recent and here I am nearly 27 years old I must have a purpose here and it is unclear but I definitely am supposed to be alive for the first time in a couple of years I am as healthy as I can possibly be I have had no sickness in almost a year and though I may be in pain my life is yet to be over I still enjoy too many things to give up to quit stop I shall remain an observer until I can decipher my destiny my purpose in this world my life will remain enjoying what company I can and dreaming of things I wish I could of done