It's days like this
where i can't help myself from wondering what everyone's life would be like if i just wasn't in the way

beck would no longer have someone to bitch about to the neightbors and get everyone to hate me for some fucking reason

brenden would have a lot less stress with trying to avoid me

his dad wouldn't have to owe me a bunch of money

don wouldn't have to put up with my crazy shit

chris wouldn't feel obligated to be around me

and i wouldn't have to be here, living like this.


I wonder how each person would first that i was gone, if i did dissapear

beck would probably just right an angry letter on the whiteboard about how i'm not doing the dishes a week after i'm gone

chris probably woudln't have anything to do next weekend, even if he does decide to hang out with me again

My seccond life friends probably would assume i'm caught up in RL stuff and forget about me when i never go online again

maybe months later jess would ask me for more money i guess. idk. as sad as that sounds it's probably true

Don probably would notice first though. and he's probably doing to kick down my door and pester me about this journal in:

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nevermind. he never checks FA anyways