To all I loved
11 years ago
"Greetings everyone!" This is a new journal entry of mine, as I'm just letting you all know is all, that I'm still doing these journal's everyone, as this here journal states, I am trying to not role play on other people's journals, and submissions, or be constantly annoying, towards other peoples page, that is used for private IMs, for that matter. Although if, anyone wants me to, I will still rp with those, that I do care, a lot about meaning anyone who is family to me and my friends too, in anyway they want, without boundaries, as long as they don't mind it though.
who is my daddy, of which I do care allot about, bein the ultimate in awesome, to me of course, as I also care about,
too, as he is also one of my brother's too, who is very much the ultimate in special, as he is to me after all. Even with my son,
Who does not love me once again, even though I am forevermore, of course still, going to be keeping up, the father, and son loving relationship, along side with him no matter what. Just like I'm doing still, along with all of my other fellow cubs, that I take care of also. As from what he has said to a certain friend of his, or a certain someone, that he might know of also, as in the person, that is his online FA brother, that he may have in his FA life also, as apposed to me so far. Although, because of what was said to me, by the person, that I'm referring to actually, is that. On PePechu's page, that I'm referring to, which is as follows. It's all due to the fact that, in the past it, is been far too much, for him to deal with, as in keeping me as his daddy still, for so long. Even though, I do still love, my lill husky pup of mine, with all of my heart, as I am hoping, that one day, we will both be together, forevermore, at least some day, in the future hopefully. As I will still be caring for him, and loving him still, just like the son, that he is always been to me, many years ago, even when we first met each other, no matter what happens, to either one of us at all, I am still waiting, for that day to come to me, and him as well. So that's why, I'll never ever stop thinking about him, knowing that one day he'll be with me, soon enough on FA and so on. As for now, I'm still hoping that someday, he'll hopefully be able to unblock me, on his profile page of his, and then, give me a nice big hug also, in order to let me know, that he cares about me, so I can show him, that I love him also in return, just as well. As of right now though, I am forever forced to wait, for that very special day to arrive, for both me, and PePechu my son, to come back to me. Just like that very special day, from when we had both, found each other, as that was when I knew, that once it had happened back then, that we would both become father, and son, forevermore back then. Well enough of that everyone. I have one more thing, that I need to address, before ending this here journal everyone, is that, I can't even make a request, to save my life either for that matter, so what am I supposed to do about this at all people? So please, if anyone is reading this, please do help me out if anyone can ok? (Also one minor note here everyone, is that I may not be the best baby fur in this here community, as many of you already know by now, especially for those that I've already hurt so far, as I do realize that I myself am not very good with socializing either for that matter, knowin that there are plenty of people that do hate me for it as I don't blame them for this really, see I only wanna do my best in this community, as this is all I ever wish to do so far, even if it refers to me getting blocked or hated for how I act in what ever manner it may be though, but for me I can only try, I can only try.) (Also, I'm actually crying sometimes, deep inside of myself, why, because, I wish I was a better father as well as a cub too, in the babyfur fandom as well, but sometimes I feel as though, I'm a failure whenever I am, why, why am I such a failure, most of the time, can't there be hope for me, or somethin?)



To everyone that I have ever loved or have been a very good friend to me just as well. With those that were once my son's, daughter's, bro's, uncles, sister's, daughter's, father's, aunt's, friend's, mother's, grandma's, grandpa's and cousin's too. I am sorry to of ever found you all to begin with as I am very much sorry to Pepe to of ever found him and to of ever made him my first son, Wolfy the next one, acefox and so on for being my children furs to begin with in the first place. I am not giving up though on being a babyfur just incase there are those that still do care about me still pretty much though about me do still get the impression that I am as I am not and never ever will be no matter what period. As it's just that I feel so damaged in my life now because of all of the cub's and people that I've ever known for quite some time that are leaving me even more as we speak period. I've tried to be a good dad a good son etc... To everyone that I have ever met even though many of you may still pretty much still think pretty much differently still about me though which is why I'm pretty sure you all are going to be when reading this of course. As I really do not blame anyone of you for saying that to me to begin with though. However I still do pretty much still care for you all that have once did the same type of care to me too in the past. But now I just wish it was still the same just as before though. Because of how much pain I am getting because of all of this to begin with after all period. Now if anyone who doesn't want to be with me or for what have you because of what I've become or not talking to anyone of you all for quite some time just as well of course. Then I am very sorry for trying to be a father, a cousin, a son whatever I was to anyone whom I have ever been to anyone of you all that are reading this however to begin with period. As this is a hurting time for me because of all of the hurt that you are all giving to me back and forth it's really harsh and I hate this very much indeed. Believing that there were people of whom have once had allowed for me to care for them and then have them return the same and exact favor right back at me then that is all that I've ever wanted. Because as of right now at this very moment I am real sorry for doing so to begin with in the first place to everyone I've ever been friends to and loved also I am really sorry period.

Spring-the-husky
~spring-the-husky
I'm sorry to hear that things are difficult for you my friend, I hope that I was not one of the people here that drifted away from you

Macgyver
~macgyver
OP
Oh no not at all you ok.

Spring-the-husky
~spring-the-husky
Thank you, I was worried that I was, I'm doing alright my friend, how are you?

Macgyver
~macgyver
OP
Well semi ok, semi happy, semi sad I'm neutral actually with mixed feelings to tell you the truth.

Spring-the-husky
~spring-the-husky
Ahh I see, if you want to, you can note me

Macgyver
~macgyver
OP
TY so much.

Spring-the-husky
~spring-the-husky
You're more than welcome^^

Macgyver
~macgyver
OP
kisses.

Spring-the-husky
~spring-the-husky
*blushes hard and kisses you back*

Macgyver
~macgyver
OP
smiles more.

Spring-the-husky
~spring-the-husky
*giggles and wraps my paws around your shoulders embracing you warmly as I murmur softly* hehe very nice indeed

Macgyver
~macgyver
OP
you too.

Spring-the-husky
~spring-the-husky
Hehe thank you

Macgyver
~macgyver
OP
No thank you.

Spring-the-husky
~spring-the-husky
I'm just doing what I do best, look out for someone

Macgyver
~macgyver
OP
Awww well you do it well then.

SuzanneR
~suzanner
I am sorry things are difficult for you. *hugs* I hope you find what you are looking for.

Macgyver
~macgyver
OP
TY so much.

yahtzee
~yahtzee
We all have our struggles in life, its just a matter of how well we can cope with it. As crazy busy as my schedule is, I don't always have the chance to get online everyday, or I'm taking some time to to come up with a well thought-out rp scenario. You have your hands full taking care of each of us. I know that its no easy task. I see that when my reply was delayed in being read.... figuring its probably got lost in the flood of notes into your inbox. (such as my last note to you, sent a week ago)

Macgyver
~macgyver
OP
I still love you anyways son.

yahtzee
~yahtzee
I love you too. *hugs* I re-post my last note to your inbox.

Macgyver
~macgyver
OP
yaaay good boy.