It can be difficult to be a positive thinker, but so far it seems to be working for me. Repetitive positive reinforcement. I have to train myself like a dog, but it works so whatever. "I am calm and collected." has become my new mantra of sorts, and what do you know, I feel very calm and collected. Cutting out the caffeine also helps I'm sure. Oh the things I will do to not have to go talk to any doctors. I have decent insurance and everything, it is just that people freak me out! I should stop and thank everyone who was kind enough to comment on my last journal. I am either up real high or way down low, you guys are always super nice to me and make me feel more secure.

Random bit of random news. My possibly oldest friend on planet earth found me on DA and sent me her number. Like we were friends as children and then I moved away and back and away again. We fall in and out of touch. Well I texted her today and found out that it was her birthday. She is one of those fabled "real friends" of legend who, even if you don't talk to or see each other for YEARS, when you do it is like you never stopped hanging out. How freaking lucky am I to have found a person like that? I don't deserve her or any of you, but for some reason ya'll sick with me. ♥

Art wise I have been doing more traditional stuff... Human related so I'm not sure how much this site particularly cares but for the sake of an update. I am going to push myself so hard to make character refs cuz shit. I NEED TO. I want to commission art from people. DO IT. SIT DOWN AND FREAKING DO IT. *shakes self*