There are some days when you feel nothing goes right, or that you don't deserve anything... some days where you feel an overwhelming depression come over you to the point of not feeling anything else... Today a car nearly hit me. They were going very slow. However, in that moment, the only thing I thought wasn't, "Oops, I should be more careful" or "You idiot, you almost hit me". It was "Why were you not going faster...?"

I don't' know why I make these journals. Though I suppose I have to give somewhat of an explanation as to why I won't be posting much for the next few days or so...I got fired...and I feel fucking stupid... it was my fault...I guess on the bright side is, I wasn't very good at the job anyway...it was only a matter of time before my stupidity overcame me and I made an inexcusable mistake...

If I do post anything, it'll just be me expressing sadness...I'm sorry if you don't like it...I'll post another journal when I feel some semblance of normality...or at least as normal as my mind is capable...