Okay....so here it is. Someone who I see as a dear friend is not doing so well right now, and she's very upset. I tried to make her feel better, and we ended up getting into an argument. I'm not going to go into the details, all I'm going to say is that my trying to cheer her up miserably and totally backfired. Oh yeah....It backfired....Big time.
So the thing is, she got the most upset that I have ever seen her, and I think she got upset because she didn't understand how I was feeling or expressing myself when I typed what I did through the first couple of posts, and then she let me (undeservedly or not) have it. Oh man, she let me have the whole damn tank-brigade-load! I had never seen the girl that upset in my life. All the more reason for me to never try to make someone feel better ever again. I don't want to be talked to like I committed genocide again...since it seems to happen to me all the time.
I think I'll just stick to being a quiet loner again, I think I was happier when I was like that. I didn't have to worry about hurting people's feelings, or getting blocked on a messenger or E-mail service, or getting called names and being sworn at like a United States Marine getting ready to blow shit up....which seems to be increasingly simple to do these days. I would say that my Asperger's Syndrome is to blame, but she had something to say (that I really didn't want to hear her and wish I hadn't heard) about people with that disorder. By then she had only told me about her situational problems, when I mentioned my A.S. to her she REALLY got pissed. What she told me was dark...I mean DARK, man. Maybe she'll forgive me...*pff* yeah, MAY-BE! And maybe I'll become the next emperor of fuckin' China while we're walking in La-La Land.

I am sorry for upsetting her, regardless of how it actually happened. I don't care if she doesn't care, I just hope she knows it. And if she's reading this....Oh Gods, please don't kill me?