i no noone will read this or care...

im going through some things right now and im rily depressed latly..a year ago we found out my stepfather did something to my sister before he married my mom witch was 10 or so years ago so from what i understand theres nothing we can do about it we just lost an extended family member we are also selling the house between that and the divorce proses and stuff my moms super stressed...and im autistic and i also feed off others emotions i tend to feel what others feel on top of this we have 60 days to move now unless the buyer backs out of the close out date again putting the house back on the market. as for me i was already in a bad place i still am im prity damn lost in life and having not grown up with friends i have none im close to that i i can call over to hold me or anything no diaper buddies or cuddle buddies....sigh on-line i have a lot of good friends ive met a few at least. idk where im rily going with all this i guess i just need to rant or something.. iv liked diapers all my life sense befor potty training its a part of who i am they are comforting an comfy too and yea i use em its fun nothing wrong with that they help with my stress..i may seem like a confident person on-line but im not...i wish i was a skilled artist iv tried ever sense i was in 6th grade but i have no real talent for it..i like to play vidio games a lot but depression seems to be making it hard for me to even want to do that too lately.. id like to go back to the happy kid i once was before i was a teen becus the past 15 years i dont think iv been myself and ive lost whoever the rel me is or was going to be my stepfather basically manipulated us the whol time he wasn't rily a bad guy or so i thought nerly started calling him dad at one point but thankfully never did ...i supose right now i just need a friend or to to diaper up with or take me out for a fun time but gently brake down some of my walls..and im mean rily gently i dont do well with a lot of pushing and peer pressure i need a fur family and i dont mean just on-line but in person....but im scared of ppl

i went through and corrected as much spelling as i could while its all i know english has never made sence to me and from what my physiologist has told me this is comin in autistic kids and adults