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4 years ago
why is it im blocked on twitter by ppl ive never talked to in the abdl/babyfurr community's. ppl i admire one of witch id love to commission sometime. it hurts getting blocked for seemingly no reason by someone youve never interacted with. did i upset someone and they went and put me on some sort of list in revenge? im a nice person i dont do drugs though i support weed even though ive never smoked it myself. im no pedophile and wish every misfortune imaginable short of death on my ex stepfather for what he did to my sister. is it because of an artists i fallow? is it a misunderstanding in a comment i made on something? ppl misunderstand me all the time, im autistic and i cn sometimes ramble on a bit when i make a comment or when i vent.... is it my poor spelling? or my political views? witch is all politicians are shitty ppl they all make both good and bad choices for this contry.
is it because im into vore? cus that would be a dumb reason. i feel like its most like something i said in a comment someplace or some artist i fallow.. i wouldn't follow someone if i thought they where actually into kids. and i wont take someone's word that someone is a pedo without proof and liking cub porn to me dose not count as being a pedo but that's just me
being a part of both the furry and abdl community there are stereotypes on both community's where outsiders thing furrys are into kids and same for us abdls/babyfurrs i brought up concerns about this with my therapist once or twice as ive always been open with her. i told her ive dwelled on how we furry and littles alike because like any other furry or abdl ive been called a pedo and even a zoophile by outsiders who just take one look at a furry or abdl profile pic and automatically judge me without getting to know me. and i bright up fantasy ive had sense i was a teenager with my therapist too and i straight up asked am i a pedo because im an abdl and furry and have wired fantasies from my teen years that haven't gon away and she told me im not and that im worrying over nothing. that my anxiety is causing me to overthink about it all and dwell on it and second guess myself all the time. i even asked her if she thought my stepfather had done anything with other kids like his own biological daughter's and she said its quite possible but pedophiles have tiypes in most cases a pedophile likes a specific hair type or something like that. if that's the case then the only thing that stopped him from doing anything to me is probably that hes straight plus i was older and i probably would have killed or seriously injurd him...i like to think of myself as a pacifist but... honestly you never truly know what your capable of or how you would react to something until that moment comes. to this day im still question what would poses someone to do something to a kid.. i do understand in a lot of cases the pedo is likly a victim themselves back when they where yung or they had some other trauma and abuse that twisted there mind. but as far as i know my stepfather never went through anything like that unless something happened when he was serving in the navy during desert storm
i think its stupid to block someone you've never interacted with unless they are actually a truly toxic person, like that one racoon starts with a D, that's always getting talked about on twitter or Ryan Hill or anyone who supports FurryVally and there leader.
ive been through a lot of crap the past several years sense we found out what my stepfather did to my sister and things went from bad to worse each year after with my moms loneliness and depression along with her grieving over three family member that passed in that time and bullying she was receiving at work her self confidence is gone she got scammed serval times making everything that much worse. and the whole time i somehow without braking down myself was in a way her pillar of strength. but eventually even i wasn't enough once she lost her job just before this covid19 shit hit the fan. and all through this time my mom would thank me for everything i did to help her like cooking dinner a few nights a week cus by the time she got home from work she was to tierd to make anything other than toast or a bowl of cereal.. and something about her thanking me just made me feel bad it was draining. hear i was silently suffering being her pillar when i had no-one i could call to pick me up and hang out and vent and just decompress.
im sorry i went off droning on i always end up doing this ones i start venting i find it hard to stop and my thoughts just keep pouring out of my fingertips...
im kinda tempted to look up weather im on someone's stupid list for some reason. but im scared of what i might find and its not like i could do anything about it. but it just really hurts to find ppl you admire or want to commission have you blocked without ever having talked or interacted before.
is it because im into vore? cus that would be a dumb reason. i feel like its most like something i said in a comment someplace or some artist i fallow.. i wouldn't follow someone if i thought they where actually into kids. and i wont take someone's word that someone is a pedo without proof and liking cub porn to me dose not count as being a pedo but that's just me
being a part of both the furry and abdl community there are stereotypes on both community's where outsiders thing furrys are into kids and same for us abdls/babyfurrs i brought up concerns about this with my therapist once or twice as ive always been open with her. i told her ive dwelled on how we furry and littles alike because like any other furry or abdl ive been called a pedo and even a zoophile by outsiders who just take one look at a furry or abdl profile pic and automatically judge me without getting to know me. and i bright up fantasy ive had sense i was a teenager with my therapist too and i straight up asked am i a pedo because im an abdl and furry and have wired fantasies from my teen years that haven't gon away and she told me im not and that im worrying over nothing. that my anxiety is causing me to overthink about it all and dwell on it and second guess myself all the time. i even asked her if she thought my stepfather had done anything with other kids like his own biological daughter's and she said its quite possible but pedophiles have tiypes in most cases a pedophile likes a specific hair type or something like that. if that's the case then the only thing that stopped him from doing anything to me is probably that hes straight plus i was older and i probably would have killed or seriously injurd him...i like to think of myself as a pacifist but... honestly you never truly know what your capable of or how you would react to something until that moment comes. to this day im still question what would poses someone to do something to a kid.. i do understand in a lot of cases the pedo is likly a victim themselves back when they where yung or they had some other trauma and abuse that twisted there mind. but as far as i know my stepfather never went through anything like that unless something happened when he was serving in the navy during desert storm
i think its stupid to block someone you've never interacted with unless they are actually a truly toxic person, like that one racoon starts with a D, that's always getting talked about on twitter or Ryan Hill or anyone who supports FurryVally and there leader.
ive been through a lot of crap the past several years sense we found out what my stepfather did to my sister and things went from bad to worse each year after with my moms loneliness and depression along with her grieving over three family member that passed in that time and bullying she was receiving at work her self confidence is gone she got scammed serval times making everything that much worse. and the whole time i somehow without braking down myself was in a way her pillar of strength. but eventually even i wasn't enough once she lost her job just before this covid19 shit hit the fan. and all through this time my mom would thank me for everything i did to help her like cooking dinner a few nights a week cus by the time she got home from work she was to tierd to make anything other than toast or a bowl of cereal.. and something about her thanking me just made me feel bad it was draining. hear i was silently suffering being her pillar when i had no-one i could call to pick me up and hang out and vent and just decompress.
im sorry i went off droning on i always end up doing this ones i start venting i find it hard to stop and my thoughts just keep pouring out of my fingertips...
im kinda tempted to look up weather im on someone's stupid list for some reason. but im scared of what i might find and its not like i could do anything about it. but it just really hurts to find ppl you admire or want to commission have you blocked without ever having talked or interacted before.
