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MFF 2015 Wrap up
10 years ago
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MFF 2015 was a roller coaster ride for me alot of highs and some lows.
When I first entered the con floor. I don't know what went through my mind. All I know it was completely blank. Like my whole entire thinking process was non existent. I found a couple of friends really quickly but I didn't run into them until later. There was so much going on and I had no idea what to do. What made it feel worse was I didn't necessarily had a group to hang out with. When I tried to meet some people I felt pushed away. I've come to realized some times people aren't everything what they seem to be online. Saturday was a bit better I got to hang out with Leila Spaniel, albi , roxy and Allie. But one thing that I couldn't get over no matter how hard I tried to get my mind off of it. Was finding out a person that I didn't particularly wanted to be around after what was said at a local anime con was in the same room as me. That scared me mostly because honestly I don't know if this person has been going around causing problems trying to make my life hell. But I realized this person was scared of the same thing about me. honestly I felt really down. We were scared of each other all this time and we didn't even realize it. After talking to ino and trying my best to hold back the tears. I felt even more lost like I just wanted to stay in the room and cry myself to sleep. Trust me I never want to be an enemy and I was very hard on myself because I was being feared. It was very difficult to gain back my courage to go back to the con floor in mobi the next day. I honestly felt my con experience was horrible. I called my mom on saturday night and the one thing she told me just struck me so deep. Saying "You have a big heart.But sometimes you have to show pride for yourself for people to realize you have that big of a heart." When i looked at the face of mobi I felt something in me wanting to give it another go. And I did and I had such a wonderful experience everyone loved Mobi. My mind was clear and I was going around hugging people and enjoying the con for what it is.
I basically expected way to much and got upset. But I'll be at mff next year but looking at it in a different light. And being a better performer and person
When I first entered the con floor. I don't know what went through my mind. All I know it was completely blank. Like my whole entire thinking process was non existent. I found a couple of friends really quickly but I didn't run into them until later. There was so much going on and I had no idea what to do. What made it feel worse was I didn't necessarily had a group to hang out with. When I tried to meet some people I felt pushed away. I've come to realized some times people aren't everything what they seem to be online. Saturday was a bit better I got to hang out with Leila Spaniel, albi , roxy and Allie. But one thing that I couldn't get over no matter how hard I tried to get my mind off of it. Was finding out a person that I didn't particularly wanted to be around after what was said at a local anime con was in the same room as me. That scared me mostly because honestly I don't know if this person has been going around causing problems trying to make my life hell. But I realized this person was scared of the same thing about me. honestly I felt really down. We were scared of each other all this time and we didn't even realize it. After talking to ino and trying my best to hold back the tears. I felt even more lost like I just wanted to stay in the room and cry myself to sleep. Trust me I never want to be an enemy and I was very hard on myself because I was being feared. It was very difficult to gain back my courage to go back to the con floor in mobi the next day. I honestly felt my con experience was horrible. I called my mom on saturday night and the one thing she told me just struck me so deep. Saying "You have a big heart.But sometimes you have to show pride for yourself for people to realize you have that big of a heart." When i looked at the face of mobi I felt something in me wanting to give it another go. And I did and I had such a wonderful experience everyone loved Mobi. My mind was clear and I was going around hugging people and enjoying the con for what it is.
I basically expected way to much and got upset. But I'll be at mff next year but looking at it in a different light. And being a better performer and person
*hugs*
I am happy to see that as your weekend progressed, while you had trials and tribulations, that you were able to overcome them and come out of it stronger and better.
Next time you have a con you're going to, definitely look me up. I keep busy during the days vending, but we can definitely have an adventure after hours ^.^