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Venting
9 years ago
I have several things going on right now, but luckily dealing with those PSYCHOPATHS I lived with before is no longer on that list. Lunar and I have moved out, have been moved out for a little bit, and are looking for jobs. It is a bit hard, especially with the lack of funds right now, but it's also a bit of a relief.
But, in order to finally get some more relief from what I've been storing away, I need to vent. And I am sorry if this annoys or offends some of you.
First off, I am very proud of my art, very proud of how much I have been improving since last year. I'd never drawn anything anthro before then. But, while I am very proud of my art, I am also very nervous to show people, and very self conscious about it. I see so many people getting wonderful commissions, and strive to be as good as some artists, but then I see people not putting my commissions that I made them up, have actually had a few requests to take my art of their characters down, and the most offensive? I saw this happen to a dear friend but never thought it would with me.
I made someone a piece of art, right before I moved, and apparently it was so NOT good enough, that they demanded a refund. I guess it's in their right, so I refunded them half, due to the fact that I had still wasted hours of my own time on their whims. But, seriously? At least I hadn't put it up.
So I've taken to doing adoptables lately, not just because of the self-conscious state I am in but also because of the second item on my list. My hands stiffening up continuously. My wrists tensing up and shooting pain all the way up my art while I type, draw, text, anything. Adoptables and refs are simply easier for me to complete, less pain. Still embarrassing though, seeing as how when I do lineart... It's fricking shaky.
Also... When you've commissioned someone six months ago and asked REPEATEDLY for updates, but only find you've been forgotten, is it wrong to be annoyed? Not even angered, just irked a small bit. Guilty for feeling that way, irked because it's happening, and sympathetic make up the whole pot of mixed up feelings for me.
Well, that's pretty much all I want to whine about tonight... Soon I'll have a few updates for you all.
But, in order to finally get some more relief from what I've been storing away, I need to vent. And I am sorry if this annoys or offends some of you.
First off, I am very proud of my art, very proud of how much I have been improving since last year. I'd never drawn anything anthro before then. But, while I am very proud of my art, I am also very nervous to show people, and very self conscious about it. I see so many people getting wonderful commissions, and strive to be as good as some artists, but then I see people not putting my commissions that I made them up, have actually had a few requests to take my art of their characters down, and the most offensive? I saw this happen to a dear friend but never thought it would with me.
I made someone a piece of art, right before I moved, and apparently it was so NOT good enough, that they demanded a refund. I guess it's in their right, so I refunded them half, due to the fact that I had still wasted hours of my own time on their whims. But, seriously? At least I hadn't put it up.
So I've taken to doing adoptables lately, not just because of the self-conscious state I am in but also because of the second item on my list. My hands stiffening up continuously. My wrists tensing up and shooting pain all the way up my art while I type, draw, text, anything. Adoptables and refs are simply easier for me to complete, less pain. Still embarrassing though, seeing as how when I do lineart... It's fricking shaky.
Also... When you've commissioned someone six months ago and asked REPEATEDLY for updates, but only find you've been forgotten, is it wrong to be annoyed? Not even angered, just irked a small bit. Guilty for feeling that way, irked because it's happening, and sympathetic make up the whole pot of mixed up feelings for me.
Well, that's pretty much all I want to whine about tonight... Soon I'll have a few updates for you all.
Azrealm
~azrealm
we all have rough times snow, and we are all here for you :)
