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JE 6 The Sudden Stop
9 years ago
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The Sudden Stop
April 27, 2015 - March 21, 2016
10 months and 23 days to be exact. That is the total amount of time I spent working at the job I used to have. Yeah, you guys. This past Saturday was my last day of work.
I got laid off.
It's the news where our campaign found it necessary to lay off people because of business purposes. Yeah, that news came with the fact that there would be six people that needed to be laid off. Unfortunately, I was the fourth person to be let go. To clarify, it wasn't a termination, it was an end of contract. Honestly, the news didn't come as a surprise. I had suspicions that I was being eyed for the chopping block and it eventually came to light when my boss gave me the papers confirming everything.
Am I sad?
Not really. I hated the place, down to the very core. I've always made this clear in my past journals and even to a point my boss was aware of it. Sure, I was responsible enough to do my job--I'm not stupid--but my heart wasn't in it. It never was. That's why three months in I started job hunting in the first place. They were great people, my coworkers and even my boss, but really, the environment and the circumstances where we met were truly less than ideal. I was in an environment that really wasn't just my cup of tea. Too much talking, and frankly too much focus on numbers rather than what the person was doing.
The job itself felt robotic. Day in, day out, it was the same thing, and I never felt like I was growing, in terms of my professional career. If anything, it stagnated, going backwards even--losing important lessons I learned in college that will greatly help me down the line for simpler mind numbing details that I honestly could care less about.
Sure, that sounds harsh--you may say "you should've been grateful that you had a job to begin with". Don't get me wrong, I am. Having a job is far better than not having one; a lot of people would clamor to have a job than be homeless. And that logic is very sound, I can't argue with that; that's been the very same logic I've been telling myself endlessly just to keep me going throughout the entire time I was working there.
But for a brief moment, put yourself in my shoes.
I studied Computer Science for four years of my life. Bending over backwards just to pass my subjects and have good grades and all that. Studied everything I can and was a very positive and very nice person, having big dreams and never ending drive to achieve those dreams. Then juxtapose that idea with the notion of being in a job that felt like you weren't going anywhere. Sure, you could aim for promotions, but when you're a technical person who went through all that trouble of studying hardcore CALCULUS just to sit in front of a computer and handle very simple Excel files and basically do matching type sort of tests and call that a job, well, it just feels wrong.
I felt like I was insulting myself. Going through all that trouble and in the end, just doing that, it didn't add up. I felt like I was wasting my time, my life and my sanity. And I sure as hell wasn't getting any closer to my dreams of living abroad in the US. Having "BPO Agent" on your resume isn't exactly appealing to foreign recruiters than, say, "Software Programmer".
So while it is bittersweet to leave that job (more sweet than bitter, border lining good riddance), it did have good points, and those points are very good.
I'm definitely not the same person as when the first time I came into that workplace. I learned a lot of things; untold lessons best taught by experience rather than being told as stories by friends. I learned stuff about myself. Gone is the naivety, replaced with a bit of knowledge that will arm me for the future to come. I know now that I'm a person who prefers to have small company rather than a truckload of people with different personalities. Mine just shrivels up and dies because it is easily overcome by more fluid personalities. I'm a rougher person who takes time and is best not forced.
Lessons like that help me see what I lack in, and while I cannot changed who I am as a person wholesomely, I can however, change parts of me to help me adapt and overcome my weakness. I'm not going to turn into a social butterfly, but I will at least be better in dealing with people, and that, regardless of how you look at it, is a step in the right direction.
So reality, where does that leave me? Jobless and broke?
Well, more or less, yes, but for a limited time only. One of the main reasons why I opted to go rather than stay (my boss told me I could be reassigned to a different campaign if I wanted, though I declined) is that the job hunt seems to be nearing its end. After months of searching, it all boiled down to HTech saving the day.
The very same company who started the madness of the job hunt, was the one who would end it. Life, you can never truly understand how it works.
Granted, I'm being optimistic here. I haven't signed the contract yet, but prospects have never been brighter throughout my entire life. If it weren't for Easter coming along, I would be having my medical tests as part of the HR stuff I have to deal with, but since there is Easter, the HR (told to me by my classmate who already works there) has found it convenient to just move things to April. So at best, I could be working at HTech by the beginning of the month of April.
It's been a long and arduous journey.
I am so glad that I can finally close this chapter of my life and move on to bigger, better, brighter things, slowly getting closer to achieving my dreams.
April 27, 2015 - March 21, 2016
10 months and 23 days to be exact. That is the total amount of time I spent working at the job I used to have. Yeah, you guys. This past Saturday was my last day of work.
I got laid off.
It's the news where our campaign found it necessary to lay off people because of business purposes. Yeah, that news came with the fact that there would be six people that needed to be laid off. Unfortunately, I was the fourth person to be let go. To clarify, it wasn't a termination, it was an end of contract. Honestly, the news didn't come as a surprise. I had suspicions that I was being eyed for the chopping block and it eventually came to light when my boss gave me the papers confirming everything.
Am I sad?
Not really. I hated the place, down to the very core. I've always made this clear in my past journals and even to a point my boss was aware of it. Sure, I was responsible enough to do my job--I'm not stupid--but my heart wasn't in it. It never was. That's why three months in I started job hunting in the first place. They were great people, my coworkers and even my boss, but really, the environment and the circumstances where we met were truly less than ideal. I was in an environment that really wasn't just my cup of tea. Too much talking, and frankly too much focus on numbers rather than what the person was doing.
The job itself felt robotic. Day in, day out, it was the same thing, and I never felt like I was growing, in terms of my professional career. If anything, it stagnated, going backwards even--losing important lessons I learned in college that will greatly help me down the line for simpler mind numbing details that I honestly could care less about.
Sure, that sounds harsh--you may say "you should've been grateful that you had a job to begin with". Don't get me wrong, I am. Having a job is far better than not having one; a lot of people would clamor to have a job than be homeless. And that logic is very sound, I can't argue with that; that's been the very same logic I've been telling myself endlessly just to keep me going throughout the entire time I was working there.
But for a brief moment, put yourself in my shoes.
I studied Computer Science for four years of my life. Bending over backwards just to pass my subjects and have good grades and all that. Studied everything I can and was a very positive and very nice person, having big dreams and never ending drive to achieve those dreams. Then juxtapose that idea with the notion of being in a job that felt like you weren't going anywhere. Sure, you could aim for promotions, but when you're a technical person who went through all that trouble of studying hardcore CALCULUS just to sit in front of a computer and handle very simple Excel files and basically do matching type sort of tests and call that a job, well, it just feels wrong.
I felt like I was insulting myself. Going through all that trouble and in the end, just doing that, it didn't add up. I felt like I was wasting my time, my life and my sanity. And I sure as hell wasn't getting any closer to my dreams of living abroad in the US. Having "BPO Agent" on your resume isn't exactly appealing to foreign recruiters than, say, "Software Programmer".
So while it is bittersweet to leave that job (more sweet than bitter, border lining good riddance), it did have good points, and those points are very good.
I'm definitely not the same person as when the first time I came into that workplace. I learned a lot of things; untold lessons best taught by experience rather than being told as stories by friends. I learned stuff about myself. Gone is the naivety, replaced with a bit of knowledge that will arm me for the future to come. I know now that I'm a person who prefers to have small company rather than a truckload of people with different personalities. Mine just shrivels up and dies because it is easily overcome by more fluid personalities. I'm a rougher person who takes time and is best not forced.
Lessons like that help me see what I lack in, and while I cannot changed who I am as a person wholesomely, I can however, change parts of me to help me adapt and overcome my weakness. I'm not going to turn into a social butterfly, but I will at least be better in dealing with people, and that, regardless of how you look at it, is a step in the right direction.
So reality, where does that leave me? Jobless and broke?
Well, more or less, yes, but for a limited time only. One of the main reasons why I opted to go rather than stay (my boss told me I could be reassigned to a different campaign if I wanted, though I declined) is that the job hunt seems to be nearing its end. After months of searching, it all boiled down to HTech saving the day.
The very same company who started the madness of the job hunt, was the one who would end it. Life, you can never truly understand how it works.
Granted, I'm being optimistic here. I haven't signed the contract yet, but prospects have never been brighter throughout my entire life. If it weren't for Easter coming along, I would be having my medical tests as part of the HR stuff I have to deal with, but since there is Easter, the HR (told to me by my classmate who already works there) has found it convenient to just move things to April. So at best, I could be working at HTech by the beginning of the month of April.
It's been a long and arduous journey.
I am so glad that I can finally close this chapter of my life and move on to bigger, better, brighter things, slowly getting closer to achieving my dreams.
And here's hoping that things really do come full-circle with HTech, and that you put all this behind you, bar the lessons you learned.
Those are always worth keeping, for better or for worse, because they define you as a person.
*Hugs*