MY stb-ex husband is making life difficult again =( They claim I'm making 15k a yr when i made a grand total of -drum roll- $630 just last yr. If i could afford a lawyer I would. I spent all that money on gas, food, and my sons things =/ It's not that I'm not trying to find a job , Ive got to work around my partners schedule, work around visits, dr appts ... by the time thats all said and done i have 3-4 days a month i can work without hiring a sitter and briar being here ... Then thinking about the days i COULD work with hiring a sitter, it almost not be worth it as the money i would make would go nearly 70% to a sitter and the rest into needed expenses (dr, food,diapers)

I have no problem helping with expense for my kids (thats not the issue) I love my kids and they deserve the best. I Just can't afford it =( I cant afford $300+ in child support. I cant afford the gas to see my girls, I cant afford to go to school or even have a way to go back to school. Not to mention i shouldn't stop going to therapy with the issues standing with my ex =(

AND to make things a tad worse... In less then 2 days I will be going to court , my abuser in the same room, with my support system miles away during the time ill need them most. I just can't do this right now. I need to get my head straight and calm this panic