Heyo~

I will be returning tomorrow. I will start working on some stuff today, not a lot but some.
Sorry for the mini-hiatus in the past week.

I can't say anything for sure yet until the medical examinations are over.
But basically working too much, having too much stress on me and not caring about myself didn't do me good.
It is very likely that I have serious heart problems; I will need a doctor's final word on that.

The bad thing about that is I would have to avoid stress at all cost; I'm a very stressing person always on the edge in life; never really I have had stress-less days; it became the norm to me very long ago. It comes with the lifestyle I'm living I guess.

The past days I had limb and lung edema; super dangerous condition; and often a side effect of heart problems as well. I was blown up like a water balloon. It would have been funny if it didn't hurt so much ^^"
I'm still not in the clear, but it started to go down nicely, and my chest doesn't hurt so much unless i lay down. That's a good start.

Absolute worst case I get a pacemaker; I'm definitely young and strong enough to not be affected by it too much as long as I don't run marathons.
I will only need some days off occasionally to take it easier.

Also I have been told so many times that if I worked less I could progress faster. If you work 90 hours a week you just slow down so much it will worth half. So I will try to balance it so I don't slow down with images to what I produced so far. I really hope it works and I can really be faster in smaller amounts of time.
If it doesn't, I will have to start refunding; I would feel terrible about that. I will try everything before I let that happen.


This is it for this update.
I will open notes later today if I still feel better, tomorrow morning the latest.

Thank you for the patience and support in the previous journal! (I know I didn't reply but I read all of them and they made my cry. You guys are too sweet.)