Why am I so infatuated with the thought of getting my own apartment?
I'm sure its common for people around my age (19 - 20s), seeing as they begin to live on their own and whatnot but I just
I legit cannot get the thought out of my mind of how I need to get a job, and start saving. I mean, I plan on living with my girlfriend, obviously, but we've both briefly talked about the idea of our mutual best friend moving in with us as well? We all get along very well, and we've all spent an insane amount of time together. I don't feel as anxious and I'm a lot less reclusive around them both than I used to be - a problem I still really struggle with today. I mean, Im in a good place now, I'm safe and well taken care of, don't get me wrong, but I'm so ready to be an adult. There's been so much that's held me back from being a mature adult and starting to take care of myself, that I'm finding myself in love with smaller ideas that are part of life, like going to work, going to the grocery store, or washing my (currently nonexistant) car. Is it because I didn't honestly think I'd stay alive this long, and now I'm seeing all the things I would have missed out on; no matter how small? I've always been one to love the small details in life, but now I can't get it out of my head. I'm worried its getting a little annoying to hear about / be around haha

Im just gonna pose this here to let it out, anywhere else it really wouldn't make sense to post it.