That moment when you figure out that the only way you can advance your career with your employer is by going mobile, and risking/having to leave everything/everyone you know and love behind to go someplace else in the world to do the job you do... and you start to hate it because of that fact, but unfortunately because you're a jack of all trades master of none you really have no choice but to do so.

Spent my whole life in New England, know my way around, know a ton of people and have many friends (I think they are friends anyway, it's always a gray area since seems I'm the one always asking if people wanna hang out, but no one asks me the same. perhaps I don't have any real friends anymore.. sounds about right), and all of my family is here, besides up in Canada and Nova Scotia. Really don't know what to think, I mean, heading out to Mid-East for work, getting my load out for 'just in case' purposes, and w/e happens happens.. could be fun, but meh, depresses me knowing that i can only grow if I do something like that.

At least its a dry heat.