trying really hard to not slip into depression and habits relating to it, like secluding myself and not talking to people. but many of the friends i want to talk to dont have time for me lately. and it irratates me more than it should that i HAVE to be the one to start a conversation, or sugest something to do only to have plans not work out 5+ times in a row. at home everyone just sits on their computers and the most social interaction i get out of one of them is binge watching a still running anime from 100 or so episodes behind current, idk really how many, while he talks to everyone else on sl so hes not really being social with me at all, while the other just wants one sided sexual favors and never returns any. least my more distant friends have more viable excuses for becoming more distant in terms of our friendships, but why are my roommates makeing me feel like im living alone? with the others, it normally boils down to a busy work schedule. with them its basically they'd rather talk to anyone else. starting to get that vibe from alot of people.

-sigh- on a more postive note i am trying to quit soda, nearly down to one a day. when at work i got free refills and i went through maybe 3-6 32 ounce cups of soda a day. now its 1, or 2 if im trying to stay up. hope to soon quit altogether, drinking water, flavor mixes with caffiene for water, and green tea.