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Why I'll soon be posting NSFW art (personal journal)
8 years ago
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First, I know some of you will see that title and say "What are you on about, you've been posting art featuring giant tits for a year now." But hold on, it's about to get worse. :P
As my oldest fans will know, when I joined the fandom in 2009 and made my fursona, I was the most innocent guy you'd ever met, and stayed that way for quite a while. I took pride in my character being clean. For about four or five years all I commissioned was cute adorable innocent stuff.
Then I very gradually began to get more risque stuff. Underwear, big boobed girls, sexy poses and so on. Never porn or even very lewd, but certainly risque. Then I got into breast growth and that's been a major theme of my art for the last year or two. So I've basically been veeery gradually working my way towards adult art. But I was always worried about crossing that line because I can't go back after that, and it feels like losing my innocence somehow, even though I lost it about three years ago if I'm honest
I guess I was afraid of spoiling my reputation. I built my entire character and fursona and online reputation as being clean, SFW, tame, cute, cuddly, innocent. Because when i first joined the fandom that's what I was, I had no interest in sex, I was asexual.
Only eight years later I'm slowly realising that I'm probably a very shy heterosexual rather than an asexual, because I'm certainly very attracted to boobs and the female form. But I'm still not sexual, at least not IRL, where I only cuddle with close friends at most. Roleplay and furry art is a different story, I express my adult side there, and I've been doing it a lot more lately, hence why I'm now wondering whether to be more open about it.
Bottom line is that I've decided not to be so embarrassed about what turns me on, and to start posting some of the adult commissions I've secretly obtained, which I got because I wanted to experiment with certain themes but was too afraid of spoiling my reputation to post them.
For instance, this account is mine: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/nutjob I invented that character and claimed that account (I didn't make it, it was a dead account I took over thanks to help from an admin friend) because I had started to suspect that I had a fetish for hyper underwear bulges, and I wanted to get some art of it to confirm this. Turns out yes, I do enjoy it! Not sure why I was so terrified to admit that on FA of all places, but there it is. Oh, and I wouldn't bother watching that account because now that I've surrendered to the idea of using Aussie for my hyper themed art, I have no need for that character nor account anymore, he's just a piece of history now.
So now that that's out, I'm soon going to upload some other adult commissions I've secretly commissioned. It might come as a slight shock to see them all tumble out at once, but rest assured I'm not going to turn into some smut lord only commissioning and posting hyper sneppid art. I still very much love to commission cute toony stuff and I'll still do that, there'll just very occasionally be something more adult mixed with it. But hey, I'll of course be marking those submissions as adult, and those that really don't want to see them will have their filters on, so I'm not sure what I'm pre-apologising for. I've always maintained that if you don't like a piece of art, don't look at it, so I should be pushing that same advice now.
And yes, I might even start writing some adult-themed stories. Don't get too excited though, my backlog of already ongoing stories hasn't gone anywhere, it might be years before I get around to it. Although I just remembered I have one or two gift stories I can post now. Stay tuned.
Thanks for reading this overly long explanation for why I, a furry, have (horror of horrors) sexual interests. I really don't know why it took me this long to just stand up and admit that. Thank you to all my friends who encouraged me to take this position and put up with a lot of whining from me on this topic while I oh so gradually came to this point. Your willingness to listen and offer advice shows just how good a friend you are, cheers mates. :)
As my oldest fans will know, when I joined the fandom in 2009 and made my fursona, I was the most innocent guy you'd ever met, and stayed that way for quite a while. I took pride in my character being clean. For about four or five years all I commissioned was cute adorable innocent stuff.
Then I very gradually began to get more risque stuff. Underwear, big boobed girls, sexy poses and so on. Never porn or even very lewd, but certainly risque. Then I got into breast growth and that's been a major theme of my art for the last year or two. So I've basically been veeery gradually working my way towards adult art. But I was always worried about crossing that line because I can't go back after that, and it feels like losing my innocence somehow, even though I lost it about three years ago if I'm honest
I guess I was afraid of spoiling my reputation. I built my entire character and fursona and online reputation as being clean, SFW, tame, cute, cuddly, innocent. Because when i first joined the fandom that's what I was, I had no interest in sex, I was asexual.
Only eight years later I'm slowly realising that I'm probably a very shy heterosexual rather than an asexual, because I'm certainly very attracted to boobs and the female form. But I'm still not sexual, at least not IRL, where I only cuddle with close friends at most. Roleplay and furry art is a different story, I express my adult side there, and I've been doing it a lot more lately, hence why I'm now wondering whether to be more open about it.
Bottom line is that I've decided not to be so embarrassed about what turns me on, and to start posting some of the adult commissions I've secretly obtained, which I got because I wanted to experiment with certain themes but was too afraid of spoiling my reputation to post them.
For instance, this account is mine: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/nutjob I invented that character and claimed that account (I didn't make it, it was a dead account I took over thanks to help from an admin friend) because I had started to suspect that I had a fetish for hyper underwear bulges, and I wanted to get some art of it to confirm this. Turns out yes, I do enjoy it! Not sure why I was so terrified to admit that on FA of all places, but there it is. Oh, and I wouldn't bother watching that account because now that I've surrendered to the idea of using Aussie for my hyper themed art, I have no need for that character nor account anymore, he's just a piece of history now.
So now that that's out, I'm soon going to upload some other adult commissions I've secretly commissioned. It might come as a slight shock to see them all tumble out at once, but rest assured I'm not going to turn into some smut lord only commissioning and posting hyper sneppid art. I still very much love to commission cute toony stuff and I'll still do that, there'll just very occasionally be something more adult mixed with it. But hey, I'll of course be marking those submissions as adult, and those that really don't want to see them will have their filters on, so I'm not sure what I'm pre-apologising for. I've always maintained that if you don't like a piece of art, don't look at it, so I should be pushing that same advice now.
And yes, I might even start writing some adult-themed stories. Don't get too excited though, my backlog of already ongoing stories hasn't gone anywhere, it might be years before I get around to it. Although I just remembered I have one or two gift stories I can post now. Stay tuned.
Thanks for reading this overly long explanation for why I, a furry, have (horror of horrors) sexual interests. I really don't know why it took me this long to just stand up and admit that. Thank you to all my friends who encouraged me to take this position and put up with a lot of whining from me on this topic while I oh so gradually came to this point. Your willingness to listen and offer advice shows just how good a friend you are, cheers mates. :)
Thanks for the support!
Four years later and your chance is finally drawing near~ *sniggers*
Just kidding, I already knew that :3 but good luck/job on finally deciding that you'll be getting/posting more adult themed things than what you've got already. Would that mean more fetish stuff? or like are you going to start with the generic "furries in sex poses" kinda stuff? or are you going to swim into the middle of the pool and do more fetishy stuff of the stuff you already have? Either way, stay out of the dark corners of FA, and watch your bits and bops... there are some nuts out there who like when things to pop... (shitty rhyme... I know...)
Playin' around aside, it has already been said but yeah, ya grew up n' accepted yer interests. The nice thing that comes with bein' into what yer into n' not worried about sharin' it is you'll definitely feel a lot more comfortable now.
I've since posted some erotic stories that I've penned on my account. I've found the self expression very helpful even though I'm not much of an author. So far I am keeping my fursona clean I could do a new character just for naughty stuff but I will have to see.
Keeping your fursona clean and making another character for being naughty is exactly what I did. But that character never felt like me as a result, just felt like I was paying for art of a friend who didn't exist and couldn't say thank you :P So I gave up that.
I am glad that we are both being more open about ourselves, these days. You're right: I guess that we both grew up. I hope that I helped you as much as you helped me, in that regard. Personally, I know that I might never have opened up about myself, if it were not for friends like you. So, thanks, again. ^.^
I'm looking forward to seeing more of your artwork. If you are open to exploring your more adult side, perhaps we can talk about getting you a late birthday commission. It's been a while since we've gotten one together, and I haven't gotten anything since FurDU. Let me know, if you're interested!
Hoping you're well, and looking forward to talking to you more often,
~Vivi c:
I think we certainly helped each other in our own slow way, certainly took us both long enough x3
Noooo, no birthday commissions, pretty sure you've gotten me enough, besides you're not exactly rolling in dough with that farming job up north. Save up man, you've earned it. Hope you're doing okay up there and it's not too hot (though it'll only get hotter I'm afraid)
It makes alot of sense mate, totally get it. So long as you are happy and comfortable with it then thats all that matters.
You will always be an adorable fluff tail and always welcome for hugs!
Keep being awesome dude.