I feel like I done so much to make others happy. But in the end, doing so, people expect more out of it. I like making friends happy when I can. But there comes a time I can't always do so. I feel at times use, abuse of my kindness. I just can't see why my so called friends think I don't do enough. When I am down and out they could care less. I am tired of it. I do my best to make them feel better. But in the end it's not enough. At times I feel like a low class side friend when they don't have any of the main people hang with. But when those people are about. I am left in the dark while they have a good time with those friends.

I don't know what to do anymore at times. But oh well. I just need to keep busy and finds new ways to keep myself happy for me. I like to think for others a lot. But I think it's time I stop thinking for others and worry about me. What I want now.

Sorry if I sound like I am whining but meh. I'll feel better sooner or later.