Ok it has been 6 months since I made a journal and I just can't put this off anymore. So in the past I had plans to get art of my ocs monthly, but shortly after that journal was posted I was terminated from my job because I stood up to a manager who was refusing to serve a customer and the management decided to give me the boot without talking to me.

I also went to the Salt Lake City Video game Championship regional for pokemon and sadly the training from December to April didn't pay off as I had a lack of sleep working on my friends team the night before and I couldn't think or concentrate during the tourney and ended 75th out of 135. Afterwards I looked over my team, bud didn't change anything and went for the midseason showdown tourney the next day I made 10th out of 90 (lost my opportunity to make top 8 going into the final round because of crits). My team consisted of Goodra, Kartana, Snorlax, Tapu Lele, Driftblim, and Arcanine

After VGC ended however I fell into a bit of a depression and a big reason for that was alot of people online, especially FA were making me feel like we were only friends because I had money to spend constantly on art commissions and it especially hurt when people wouldn't even care. It was emotionally hard to have those people you are super close to get up and stop talking to you because your empty is a bit empty.

OK! Now the big one of this journal

So the day after the eclipse, I got home from my new job and my folks wanted to talk to me. They told me they didn't think they could "Afford me" anymore and decided to raise the price on rent to $500 a month and whether the internet is on or not was entirely up to their decision. The day after I came home to the internet off for i don't know what reason and trying to talk to my family proved not to work since they wouldn't talk to me. Sooooo

I left home

I am staying at my friend's game shop in the basement. Sad to say I got put into a tough spot since I donated alot of money to help a couple of friends out who were in a tough bind and trust me I would do it again, but I barely have enough to get food and because of my new jobs weird paying schedule, I can't get any tell the 7th. I don't think I have enough to make it to the 7th and it is especially not easy since now I am riding 15 miles on a bike from work and back to the shop. I am going to keep Commissions low and not go as ham as I wish I could since my checks are about $500-$600 a paycheck (I am really looking into getting a new art tablet since the one I ordered awhile ago says it was delivered, but it never was and they won't send a new one unless I return the one they sent :<). Hopefully with it I can get my love for drawing back and even use the commission money to get art or even a nice meal out on the town. But until then I am going to be pretty selective with what I commission since I am on my own now.

I hate to ask, but if anyone has even a small amount they can donate it would mean alot to me. I have shelter and internet, but I don't have the money for food until the 7th and I am trying my best to make what I have last, but I just don't see how I can. If you can donate then my paypal is: Speclava@gmail.com, but don't worry if you can't/don't want to and please don't if your struggling with your own bills :3


Ok and very last thing is that I have mostly been using ToyHou.se for all my uploading since I have been working super hard on my ocs. Including a new fairy/Fire form for spectre which I can't help but adore. If you'd like to see all my ocs and the art work everyone did for them you can check it out here: http://toyhou.se/Spectrepaw/characters?page=1