so lately i havent really been on FA in awhile except to just fave art alot. other than that ive been depressed as fuck trying to get a job so i can buy things i want to buy and help pay bills. but as of late ive been procrastinating like fuck. because of my procrastination ive been making myself feel depressed and making myself feel like i dont deserve a job. but im trying my ass off applying for jobs constantly. thing is i want to get a job be able to get the money to pay for my own things i want to buy a new computer, buy new clothing i like and other things. i would also like to buy a nice computer which i really want to buy is this https://ironsidecomputers.com/series/fiend/ because i want to start streaming art at a better quality and have no issues. thing is tomorrow im going to throw my myself at the employers feet to try and show im willing do bathroom work for months before i get real work. so wish me luck as i try tomorrow my best to go get a job.