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8 years ago
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2017 is winding down and I get more than a little introspective this time of year. It hasn't been a very nice one by any means. There has been all too many good people passing away, stars, musicians, and notables. A lot of my life was filled with their presence and now they are gone with nothing left but memories. Even more devastating is those who were closer to us. Gene Catlow, Takaza, Rapid T. Rabbit, James Firefox, Cobalt the Fox, Pandr Pandafox, and others. Even the Funday Pawpet Show is no more.
I'm dealing with two demons partly because of this, Loneliness and depression. Pandr was a close friend who I had taken in when he lost his home and was practically blind with cataracts. I found an organization who operated on his eyes and gave him back his sight. I helped him to get Social Security Disability and to get a mobile home in the same park as me.
He wasn't the best at watching his glucose levels and several times I had to call EMS to pull him back from death. He loved his cats and Smudge was his favorite. He swore me to adopt Smudge long before he passed away. In many repects we both grieved his loss. Smudge is doing well and has slowly accepted me as his new 'daddy'
Myself? I have friends but none that are physically close to me. The nearest one I know is about 110 miles from here. It's hard to dine alone or think of things to do and have no one to share them with. Cons are few and far between. Even then, I've only been to one this year because I was in the hospital at the time. It isn't fun to be by yourself and not have anyone coming to visit. No balloons, no plushies, no get-well cards, just the boredom being broken up by nurses coming in to give you pills, shots, and taking vitals. And coming home with no one to greet you is joyless too.
Don't get me wrong, I do have quite a few friends but long distance relationships are not a good substitute for having someone sitting across the table from you whether they are laughing or arguing.
I'm slowly getting through this though. I need to get out more when I get in better shape, but that is another story.
I'm dealing with two demons partly because of this, Loneliness and depression. Pandr was a close friend who I had taken in when he lost his home and was practically blind with cataracts. I found an organization who operated on his eyes and gave him back his sight. I helped him to get Social Security Disability and to get a mobile home in the same park as me.
He wasn't the best at watching his glucose levels and several times I had to call EMS to pull him back from death. He loved his cats and Smudge was his favorite. He swore me to adopt Smudge long before he passed away. In many repects we both grieved his loss. Smudge is doing well and has slowly accepted me as his new 'daddy'
Myself? I have friends but none that are physically close to me. The nearest one I know is about 110 miles from here. It's hard to dine alone or think of things to do and have no one to share them with. Cons are few and far between. Even then, I've only been to one this year because I was in the hospital at the time. It isn't fun to be by yourself and not have anyone coming to visit. No balloons, no plushies, no get-well cards, just the boredom being broken up by nurses coming in to give you pills, shots, and taking vitals. And coming home with no one to greet you is joyless too.
Don't get me wrong, I do have quite a few friends but long distance relationships are not a good substitute for having someone sitting across the table from you whether they are laughing or arguing.
I'm slowly getting through this though. I need to get out more when I get in better shape, but that is another story.
Sunfire
~sunfire
I can relate to much of what you have said. I battle similar demons. This month always brings the reality of it all to the front burner.
Loupy Lupine
~loupylupine
*hugs* I know how lonely it can be to have no-one close to share things with.
