i think i've realized that i am just totally broken. there's something deeply wrong with me and i need to fix it. and that's become so obvious with what i'm going through right now. so i think i'm leaving school. it kinda sucks but having this option has been the first and only thing that's made me feel good in an entire week. i could function in my classes, but it's not worth it if i have to feel like i'm on the verge of suicide every night.