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Who or What am I?
7 years ago
I been thinking for sometime and I never really been able to put words to it until now. I always wanted to know. Who or what am I?
I mean sure a lot of you tink i am a pretty nice guy but why? What am I doing to cause this when I myself cant see it.
This has haunted me for a very long time and I never found and answer. So I guess i should ask others what they think of me and why think this way of me.
Even asking my mate this question and gotten her answer as well. The most common answer I get is that I am nice. I am a kind person. But is that all I really am?
Just a kind person that has no traces, no skills, no special anything? just an "average Joe"? I guess that really what bothers me the most.
That I am just some guy that feels he getting by because other pitty me or because I am a nice guy. but is that all I really am. If so why do I feel so bad all the time then?
If you know me by now you of course know I am abit of of a hard ass on myself. I take all my failures personally and hold on to them.
I am very hard on myself because I feel i should be. Personally I am not sure what to do or think lately.
I have so many unfinished ideas and stories and pictures to go with them I couldn't even count them all. I have started each one of them and yet failed to get much further.
So I ask of you all. Why do you all look up to me and see me as a nice/great person for when I dont have the skills to do anything at all.
What do you all see in me? Please let me know so maybe I can start looking and figuring this out. I do want to do my writing again but I just need to know how or where to go again.
I mean sure a lot of you tink i am a pretty nice guy but why? What am I doing to cause this when I myself cant see it.
This has haunted me for a very long time and I never found and answer. So I guess i should ask others what they think of me and why think this way of me.
Even asking my mate this question and gotten her answer as well. The most common answer I get is that I am nice. I am a kind person. But is that all I really am?
Just a kind person that has no traces, no skills, no special anything? just an "average Joe"? I guess that really what bothers me the most.
That I am just some guy that feels he getting by because other pitty me or because I am a nice guy. but is that all I really am. If so why do I feel so bad all the time then?
If you know me by now you of course know I am abit of of a hard ass on myself. I take all my failures personally and hold on to them.
I am very hard on myself because I feel i should be. Personally I am not sure what to do or think lately.
I have so many unfinished ideas and stories and pictures to go with them I couldn't even count them all. I have started each one of them and yet failed to get much further.
So I ask of you all. Why do you all look up to me and see me as a nice/great person for when I dont have the skills to do anything at all.
What do you all see in me? Please let me know so maybe I can start looking and figuring this out. I do want to do my writing again but I just need to know how or where to go again.
Personally, and if I'm being honest; I can only see one flaw in you, your english. Sure, it gets a tad annoying at certain times when I saw you made a lot of grammatical errors in one chat text, but we're all human, everyone had been in that point some time in their life.
What I see in you lies within your heart; so pure and untainted, your kindness and cheerfulness is what brought all these people you know to become your friends. I personally had been complaining to you too many times, but you know what? You never give up, you always try to cheer up all the people around you. When someone is fighting, you pushed aside all your fears and willingly stepping between them to stop it. You're fun to chat with, never cease to keep the mood up and brighten my day.
So please, stop thinking about this and move on. You’re a great person, but nobody is perfect. Perhaps you can’t complete one of your many projects now, but there’s still tomorrow, there is no deadline as long as the person you’re working with don’t mind or you didn’t set one.
I’m sorry if my words hurt you or only making you feel worse, this is the only thing I can do, from the bottom of my heart. What kind of brother I would be if I didn’t back you up at times like this?