Hey all I know it been a while since I last chatted with anyone I had a lot going in in the last few years. Moved away from my old home to a new home. Living with my mate elementalwolf. We got engaged one day soon I will ask her to merry me. Overall things have been looking pretty up. That was until COIVD destroyed our nation economy and we lost soo many love ones and close friends. I never had the experience of being caught in any of this mess until... well as must of you guys know by now... My mate is sick and has COIVD. She got it somehow while on vacation with her sisters in California. It was pretty serious that she was rushed to the hospital for fainting and having a fever of over 103. She was submitted in and they also found she has kidney and bladder infection as well as liquid in the lungs AKA pneumonia. her oxygen levels were down to 30% and I started to have a panic attack while at work. I had to stop what I was doing for a an hour or more to try and regather my thoughts and finish the day. This all happen this pass week and it been really rough not hearing from her or saying or doing anything to or with her. Her family also now has COIVD as well and they are having some issue too. 2 sisters have a fever, 2 others are mostly okish. there father has no taste and they are all having some form of a cough or another. They oxygen levels are pretty good last I heard from one of ele's sisters but as of today she also started to have a high fever and we might lost contact with them as well. Ele has been sedated for sometime now and every day that passes that i not heard from her makes me that much more worried and scared and causes my panic attacks and sadness and depression to set in. The last update i got on ele was that yes she is still sedated, her oxygen levels have increased to 90% (with a breathing tube down her throat but still good at least) and as of yesterday up to 99% after the blood transfusion she had done. Her iron level is so low and her blood is so thin they needed to get more oxygen rushing in to help keep her stable. Currently that is how she is sedated but stable. My mind has been all over the place and both with fear and joy, happiness and sadness. Most of which because I can't even go see her right now because she has COIVD and so does her family. I am hopeless stuck and only have to watch her suffer and bare this burden herself with her family.. This feeling.. It heartbreaking. Watching the love of my life go through the toughest point in her life right now and I can't even be there to help her.. Sigh.. I don't ask much but I do ask if you want to spread the word around or even want to help you always just direct message me on FA here or on discord itself. Cynder Drone#1030 is the name. Right now I need distractions in my life to try and get my mind of the hopelessness of not being able to do anything and just wait. Every part of me is scared and fearing the worst but I can't let that overwhelm me with doubt. She stronger then this virus and stubborn as even. I only hope that when she comes out of this (And she will) that she has no long term side effects from this. The second she get back here in my arms I am taking some personally time. Some time away from work no matter if they pay me or not I need to be here with her when she comes back. Bills will come and add up but I will somehow figure a way to pay for everything and take care of her all at the same time. I only ask that you tell others if you are reading it this far. I have a lot of free time after work or effectively doing nothing. So feel free to poke me if you would. Trust me you won't be bothering me and I could use the distraction. I am not one for region either but if you pray please pray for my mate. I don't even care what region or form it is in. All I ask is you keep her in your thoughts if you do. Other then this I think that all I got here. I hope to talk to her one day soon again but I fear it might not come for at least another week or so and maybe another 3 weeks or more before she will be back home... Sigh... Let hope it is not that long and thank you all who have read this.