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Birthday #39
7 years ago
Sooo... yeah. It's May 18th. My day of birth. Which means I make 39 years today.
Just one year left 'til the big 4-0...
WELP...
Okay, okay, I shouldn't be feeling so intimidated about reaching such numbers and feel happy to have reached them in first place. I mean, I've left behind two of the worst years of my life (okay, 2016 was horrible for everybody, let's be fair there) and survived them, I consider it a feat to have gone through all that shit without having Game Over'ed myself (no kidding); although I always held the belief that sooner or later life would get fixed in a way or another.
Has it? Must admit that... yeah, it has. Mostly. I consider this last year a bittersweet one, although more sweet than bitter tho. On the good side, there have been many positive changes in my family and we're leaving a really bad time for us behind at long last. Things are slowly settling in a good way for us, giving us some much needed relief and better outlook in life.
On the bad side, said changes have affected me. There's been too many in a short time and some of them I wouldn't have believe they would happen if somebody had told me two years ago. Coupled with a lot of bottled stuff in my mind it has resulted in me developing some serious anxiety issues, which at its worst moment precipitated in me suffering a relapse of my case of epilepsy (I suffered an attack past November, had to spend a day at the hospital because I hit my head in it). I'm back in treatment for it, which has really left me really saddened because a couple of years ago I had been told I didn't need to continue it.
All that said, this is a birthday post, and I shouldn't sound so downcast. I'm not. As I've said things are looking better at long last, so I should focus on that instead. I held hope all these past years and it eventuallt worked out, I must keep going and working out to ensure all what is good in my life stays that way or gets even better. Maybe in a year from now I won't only celebrate my 40th anniversayr but also finally gotten a much desired stable job (really working hard on it!). So let's all cross fingers, okay?
And finally, thank you all again for being there. I wouldn't have done this far without the support of you all. I love you guys, the only thing I'd never be able to get over with is losing you. I hope as time passes and I get better of my anxiety I'll become as communicative as I was in the past. You guys deserve the effort.
In any case...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
Just one year left 'til the big 4-0...
WELP...
Okay, okay, I shouldn't be feeling so intimidated about reaching such numbers and feel happy to have reached them in first place. I mean, I've left behind two of the worst years of my life (okay, 2016 was horrible for everybody, let's be fair there) and survived them, I consider it a feat to have gone through all that shit without having Game Over'ed myself (no kidding); although I always held the belief that sooner or later life would get fixed in a way or another.
Has it? Must admit that... yeah, it has. Mostly. I consider this last year a bittersweet one, although more sweet than bitter tho. On the good side, there have been many positive changes in my family and we're leaving a really bad time for us behind at long last. Things are slowly settling in a good way for us, giving us some much needed relief and better outlook in life.
On the bad side, said changes have affected me. There's been too many in a short time and some of them I wouldn't have believe they would happen if somebody had told me two years ago. Coupled with a lot of bottled stuff in my mind it has resulted in me developing some serious anxiety issues, which at its worst moment precipitated in me suffering a relapse of my case of epilepsy (I suffered an attack past November, had to spend a day at the hospital because I hit my head in it). I'm back in treatment for it, which has really left me really saddened because a couple of years ago I had been told I didn't need to continue it.
All that said, this is a birthday post, and I shouldn't sound so downcast. I'm not. As I've said things are looking better at long last, so I should focus on that instead. I held hope all these past years and it eventuallt worked out, I must keep going and working out to ensure all what is good in my life stays that way or gets even better. Maybe in a year from now I won't only celebrate my 40th anniversayr but also finally gotten a much desired stable job (really working hard on it!). So let's all cross fingers, okay?
And finally, thank you all again for being there. I wouldn't have done this far without the support of you all. I love you guys, the only thing I'd never be able to get over with is losing you. I hope as time passes and I get better of my anxiety I'll become as communicative as I was in the past. You guys deserve the effort.
In any case...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
Also, 40 is sexy! (My husband turned 40 last year.)
Happy birthday! Hope things continue to be good for you!