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To my active watchers
7 years ago
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I really wish you could purge your watch list. It rankles my lowkey ocd that my watch list is probably 40% inactive XD.
So this is to everyone who is active, who lurks and waits, just to appreciate, buy, favorite, voyeur, be inspired, ect.
I have a tendency to feel like things should be more lively, like active journals and lots of comments make an artist. I admittedly get caught way up in the popularity contest sometimes, not in a negative way mind you I never begrudge anyone their activity level I simply have a tendency to set it as a bar/goal.
Then I have to sit back and remember that is not me. I am quiet, I lurk, I go for lengths of time where I need to recharge my batteries from even online social interaction. I am private <as you can see while I talk about myself XD>
So why should the people who choose to follow me be the exact opposite?
I love you guys, quiet pandas or ADHD weasels that you might be. <3. I love that you give me my space, not once has anyone ever begrudged me it other than the occasional quiet check to make sure Im ok <I totes am>.
I love that my discord and my FA are almost extensions of my actual personality. Bursts of occasional life and excitement with quiet, peaceful downtimes inbetween.
I love that, like old friends people can pick up conversations in my discord like there hasnt been days of quiet inbetween and sometimes members come and go and simply just lurk to enjoy watching other people share art and converse without feeling the need to become involved.
I really am, totally ok and in love with it. Is it a little weird that it makes me feel like its a virtual extension of a safe space? No pressure to participate, but you can -be- there.
I will continue to try to bring in a larger watcher base, host a few more raffles, get a little more of the bursts of life going on, just because thats better for my financial situation. >.>... but I think, after the recent soul searching of this last quiet stretch, I am less inclined to set my bar in relation to the popularity of others.
So this is to everyone who is active, who lurks and waits, just to appreciate, buy, favorite, voyeur, be inspired, ect.
I have a tendency to feel like things should be more lively, like active journals and lots of comments make an artist. I admittedly get caught way up in the popularity contest sometimes, not in a negative way mind you I never begrudge anyone their activity level I simply have a tendency to set it as a bar/goal.
Then I have to sit back and remember that is not me. I am quiet, I lurk, I go for lengths of time where I need to recharge my batteries from even online social interaction. I am private <as you can see while I talk about myself XD>
So why should the people who choose to follow me be the exact opposite?
I love you guys, quiet pandas or ADHD weasels that you might be. <3. I love that you give me my space, not once has anyone ever begrudged me it other than the occasional quiet check to make sure Im ok <I totes am>.
I love that my discord and my FA are almost extensions of my actual personality. Bursts of occasional life and excitement with quiet, peaceful downtimes inbetween.
I love that, like old friends people can pick up conversations in my discord like there hasnt been days of quiet inbetween and sometimes members come and go and simply just lurk to enjoy watching other people share art and converse without feeling the need to become involved.
I really am, totally ok and in love with it. Is it a little weird that it makes me feel like its a virtual extension of a safe space? No pressure to participate, but you can -be- there.
I will continue to try to bring in a larger watcher base, host a few more raffles, get a little more of the bursts of life going on, just because thats better for my financial situation. >.>... but I think, after the recent soul searching of this last quiet stretch, I am less inclined to set my bar in relation to the popularity of others.
I am sorry you've been having a rough patch though, hopefully it passes swiftly . I very much understand the need to reduce the incoming/outgoing stimulus whenever you're not optimal emotionally.