I feel like something is lodged in my throat for awhile, even thought I have no trouble drinking or swallowing. Out of curiosity, I googled this symptom and it turns out it may be something called Globus Pharyngeus, which is either a phantom feeling of something stuck in your throat, or something deep in your throat has a minor inflammation. One of the common causes to this is anxiety or stress (psychological disorder may cause it too, but I don't think I have that).

Knowing that my year long condition may have caused the manifestation of this physical symptom gave me this slight sense of relief. I am not relieved because this symptom is minor, but because my extended period of anxiety is getting worse and starting to manifest in physical forms. This could mean if my stress continue, other symptoms may appear, leading to a decline in my physical health, which may eventually lead to something serious, in which case I can refuse treatment and die.

Aside from carbon monoxide poisoning, a self induced or naturally caused illness is another way I've been planning to die, by just refusing treatment if the condition is terminal. Being self aware of my anxiety or depression or whatever doesn't seem to help make me healthier, it just makes me a high functional anxious blob of walking meat.