I always thought that i could never felt more happier to be in a relationship with someone. From the very start that i become a relationship i had a really nice and long conversation that i could carry on throughout the hours of day and night. Months has passed where i had to struggle on focusing with life of college, club activities, work, and a loving boyfriend to attend to. Moments of time has passed were i have seem to noticed that my boyfriend has stopped a conversation every time i wanted to talk to him. Suddenly that attention from him started to fade away as i realized that he has no longer have feelings for me at all as he grew attached to someone else. All i ever loved turned away making it into hatred and sadness corrupted my mind for awhile as i started to become undone not knowing what the mistakes that i caused him to drive himself away from me. I wish i know what i would've done to prevent from that mistake to happen, if only i could understand how he felt about me. Maybe i just don't deserve to be happy at all, maybe i just don't deserve to be love like how everyone else treats their loved ones with love. I could only love myself and respect myself for who i am, but if i could have someone accepts my daily life of what i am then I can live my life happily as i can ever be from this nightmare i'm having.