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At some point... I am going to die.
6 years ago
**Edit:**
I'm sorry about this journal, I'm trying to work on a way to curtail these extreme mood swings and self-destructive outburst. More info in my latest journal for more information:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9184769/
Please by patient with me, and I'm sorry for all the trouble and for everyone I hurt *Hugs you all*
**Edit end**
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For a while now, I've known my time remaining on this earth is limited. Not due to any diseases or anything... It simply is the fruit of my deteriorating mental state. This thing... This demon in my mind... Its gonna get me someday. I know it, I know I only have a few more years to live.
I'm just not gonna be able to fight it off forever... It keeps getting stronger and sooner or later, its gonna get me. I'm fully convinced, within the next few years... I'm going to commit suicide. I don't want to... But I know that's how its gonna end... I just know it.
I just wanna say, when I finally do it... I am sorry to everyone I hurt. I love each and everyone of you deeply... But this thing is just stronger than me. I have to make my peace... At some point, its gonna win over me and I'm gonna end up doing the unthinkable.
I just wish I have had more time. Listen everyone, I'm sorry. I hope you will all remember me positively when it finally comes to it.
***
I'm sorry about this journal, I'm trying to work on a way to curtail these extreme mood swings and self-destructive outburst. More info in my latest journal for more information:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9184769/
Please by patient with me, and I'm sorry for all the trouble and for everyone I hurt *Hugs you all*
**Edit end**
***
For a while now, I've known my time remaining on this earth is limited. Not due to any diseases or anything... It simply is the fruit of my deteriorating mental state. This thing... This demon in my mind... Its gonna get me someday. I know it, I know I only have a few more years to live.
I'm just not gonna be able to fight it off forever... It keeps getting stronger and sooner or later, its gonna get me. I'm fully convinced, within the next few years... I'm going to commit suicide. I don't want to... But I know that's how its gonna end... I just know it.
I just wanna say, when I finally do it... I am sorry to everyone I hurt. I love each and everyone of you deeply... But this thing is just stronger than me. I have to make my peace... At some point, its gonna win over me and I'm gonna end up doing the unthinkable.
I just wish I have had more time. Listen everyone, I'm sorry. I hope you will all remember me positively when it finally comes to it.
***
Sincerely,
The Cheshire Cat's Master
There is ALWAYS a way to fight it though, trust me, bud. Suicide is NEVER the answer and wont solve anything except cause more pain. If you need someone to talk to, my telegram is "Freakinglombax". Stay strong, bud. We are all in this together. <3
We are all here to help.
I Won't say that i would know what youre personally going thru... but sometimes i can realy relate to your thoughs there.
Those days when you have no power left to deal with shit andyou just want peace or just want it to be the end since you cantdeal with it anymore.
I Would always say, that you should not give up, that you should always fight and never surrender, never let this evil win over you.
But then again i Barelyknow what you might going thru every day... o..o
I Would help if i'm not so far away here and havnt had my own severe problems to deal with. I Think you could need some RL company that does nice stuffs with you or just some chill stuffs like spending time a a nice cafe and having some conversation, some small nice little things that end up brighten the day overall.
Never Give up Friend!
*Hugs*
Thank you very much friend, those kind words mean a lot to me **Hugs again** Also, I just wanna say, you can always come talk to me whenever you're feeling down or wanna vent or anything really :3
You're welcome ;)
As Jekt said, suicide is never a solution.
You're an awesome artist and seems to be a good person as well. Think about all the people the people close to you and fans you would hurt if anything ever happened to you.
If you ever feel like talking or venting to someone, feel free to poke me.
Stay safe.