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update: my dog is sick/close to the rainbow bridge
6 years ago
I forget to update FA most the time for personal life updates most the time.
I've been on hiatus for a few months due to exams and so on coming up like most people who follow my other sites are aware. as well as personal stressors that prevented me from drawing ad being more "distant" From my art. as tbh. I've been burnt out for a good while. I'm getting back on my feet. but sadly I've had some extremely sad news come my way. on Friday night my dog suffered from a stroke. the vet says he has a brain tumor. we can afford meds to help him till it gets too hard on him and the strokes come back and he is actually suffering. we were unsure if the medications would help. but they are. thankfully. he's back to himself for the time being. he isn't in any pain right now and hopefully won't be. but the long and short of it to pull the band-aid off for you guys is he is passing away. we don't know how long we have. we just know it's not going to be a super long time we have him in our lives left. so personally I want to spend time with my boy. he's the best dog I've ever owned frankly the only one I was ever able to call fully mine and my family's.
-story time about my pupper some things that make him so special to me-
warning some sentimental personal shit about my childhood, growing up and simply how he became so important to me and honestly why he means so much to me. stop here if you don't want more then an update I guess. I just wanted to be open about more personal stuff to me :3
this dog has been through thick and thin with me. frankly the word mans best friend isn't enough to describe him as. he's family to the furthest extent of the word. so this happening isn't easy on me in the least. or my family for that matter and he's provided huge amounts of support to my father through the years and the rest of my family mentally and just well kept us happy and kept us going. he's kept us together and helped us all through some extremely hard times. I owe this dog well a lot. he's 13. for a collie mix, this is a rather good age to make it too. we adopted him when he was 3 from NS, CAD and then brought him HOME with us. on a very long car ride (with lots of breaks for him and our sakes) but he was so well behaved then. and in the weeks prior to bonding with me and my sister. we met him through my aunt. who had him given to her by her son who couldn't care for him at the time (personal family reasons). but she was a full-time nurse, her husband works out west and she simply wanted to see him where he could be happy. well, we were out east for the summer she noticed how well I bonded with the dog and my sister too (who beforehand was terrified of dogs). my aunt knew he was good for us. without us knowing they arranged for us to adopt and bring him home with us that summer. this time in our lives my family was going through some really tough times and just all having a hard time dealing with things. when me and my sister found out sam was coming home with us. it brightened our lives. hugely. Sam we found out was coming home with us the NIGHT we left Ns for the summer. we had packed our car to go home with Oddly lots of space? then we had a detour. In which my mom surprised us that we were getting to have him come home with us. sadly before we left ns a storm hit and we had to go spend the nights at my grans. learning how terrified sam was of thunder at the time as before my aunt and her son owned him he had been an abused rescue. but the next afternoon we set off to his new home.
it was a long car ride. prob one of the hardest drives back from ns we've had. oddly not due to him in the LEAST. he was sooo well behaved. just was very traffic filled ride home and a hot one. but once we got home he was SO happy. he went about our hole yard running and playing with us. but once we unpacked the car he hopped RIGHT back in. wanting to go for a car ride! thus where we learned HE loved driving. just adored it. to this day he still does. then the rest of the summer we spent playing and being with him. honestly healing a hole in our family's hearts caused by the tempory loss of my father who had been wrongfully accused and sent away (he was proven to be innocent thou in the following months) but in the time my father was wrongfully put in a cell they gave him horrific care. causing his current disability which affected him a lot taking away most simple joys in his life. taking away many of the things he loved about himself and doing in life. but ill get more into how Sam helped my dad in a moment. but well he was gone. my family was harassed, abandoned and honestly treated EXTREMELY badly. which affected my whole family harshly. me and my sister and brother a lot mentally. my brother was older and better understood what was going on thou so he was affected but knew how to deal with such things. I and my sis didn't overly understand. i "knew" but I didn't fully get it and why. my sister is younger by 3 years was extremely out of the loop. so we needed help and just healing. Sam and our cats became part of our lives at this time. my parents agreed and my grandparents at the time all agreed we needed something. they proved to be the perfect addition to help our coop and at the same time expanding our family and putting a positive thing in your lives at the time. we rescued and had our pets find us that hard hard year. Sam was one of those pets. Astro and oreo our beloved cats were too. Oreo passed away just over a year ago (rest in peace my little one). but Sam was the dog that came into our lives that summer. and honestly, he played a huge part in our healing. he gave us something to bond with, connect with and care for together rather than hide away and become distant (which I tended to do as a child to deal with my undiagnosed depression at the time). so honestly. he was more than just a NEW pet or addition to the family. but he was family. he was a saving grace. he helped us heal hugely. which is one of the things that made this dog so meaningful to me personally. he helped me through one of the most confusing parts of my childhood. where I was EXTREMELY lost and hurting. and that's how the summer started. I ranted into a few things there thou. for some more "background details" for some to understand more about why and how he helped me deal with this stuff going on at that time in my life.
but he did much more than that. the first year we owned sam. he helped all my family. he really helped my mother who dearly missed my father. giving her company when me, my sister and brother where all at school. but also when my dad came home. my dad came home end of fall-ish? my dad had been through a lot. was now disabled. and dealing with false accusations against him. as well a small town and all I live in. no one really "forgives" or thinks nicely of someone even if the stuff was false. or admitted being false by the accusers (they lied for attention and a YEAR later admitted this in court under oath). so to say the least. my town wasn't the most loving or kind. they shunned us. gives us a VERY hard time. even after things were proven innocent. an event like this hurts someone. I know my dad was dealing with a fair bit. I can't speak for him here on how he felt or what was going on in his mind. but I know hed lost ALOT and had very little left at the time. but when he came home. there was someone new for him. Sammy. this dog and him. god, they bonded so so fast. a month into them knowing each other you would think Sam had been living off his hip from birth. this dog really helped him. I have to say that from my view he saved my dad. my dad also saved him in his own way. my dad helped him forget all the abuse from his past. and in return. my dog sam he helped him heal and recover and reconnect with us as a family. I normally don't talk in this regard or about family. but I really saw him help so soooo much. and I think it's valuable to mention how he really helped here. as well as tbh. sams best friend and favorite human in the world is def my dad. XD they are best friends.
so through all this, he helped my family. this was the start of my family's connection with our pupper. he bonded and helped us all so much. through what I feel was the hardest part of my young childhood. so I wanted to go into how our first few months with sam where. so this hugely was how he came into my family. we were in a hard spot in life without my dad briefly. he pulled us through. when my dad was back he honestly helped us be us again and rebound and heal what was wrongfully broken by someone's simple lies. and he helped us heal. which clearly bonded him EXTREMELY close to my whole family.
but over the years since then. he's prob been one of the best dogs I've ever had. I've briefly had friends dogs and so on in my life or partners pets in my life. but sam. he's special to me. over the years to come, he helped me face a lot of loss and personal tragic events that came into my life. this was the one that simply bonded us before. but he became my best friend over the years. he was my biking partner as he would run alongside me in his younger years. my hiking pal. the pupper who loved to go out with me. who loved car rides. but most of all wanted to just spend time with me and my family as much as possible. which we all have for years. the sheer amount he's done for me is remarkable. the cute stories I could go on endlessly about. the adventures he and I have been on. there is so many I couldn't choose what to tell you guys. it started as a bit of hope for me about 10 years ago when I was really struggling and it turned into a reason for me to keep pushing in my life. I couldn't ask for any better being to call a best friend. thus why all of this hurts so much. losing him will be losing a chuck of me. a big chunk. he's been a part of my life for so long. I can't imagine not having him be part of it anymore in nothing more them memories. so honestly. I wanna be there for him for every moment I can be right now. he was fine and in great health last week to what we know. and in mere moments so much changed. I know I need to focus on him. because he has always focused on us. so I am. but I know this also comes with a lot of pain afterward. he's my Sampson, my Sammy, my finagian, my boy, my silly sam and so many other names we call him by. so knowing he's close to his rainbow bridge. it pains me a great deal. but I will be by his side till it comes to pass. and I will hold on to my memories for all my life and hold him close to my heart dearly all of mine till we met again. but for now, I am spending all the time I have with him as best as I can. I love sam and he's the best family member I could ask for to come into my life. so I wanted to share a bit more of my personal life here as it holds a lot of importance to me because he honestly does for me. so I wanted to speak of him now. I likely will again on my more personal websites ie. facebook, telegram and such. but I thought you guys deserved some heartfelt stuff about him too.
if you read this all! welcome to some more personal mushy stuff about me. some of this was hard af to type. but it really is just how he came to be important to me and why he means so much to me. but overall just more about why and how he came into my life and what made him so special to start with to me. there is much more I could say but id be writing a few novels if I did that. but I decided to get a bit more emotional and in depth then I normally do about something important to me in my life being my pupper. who regretfully has limited time with me left. but I am going to cherish it. but heh. I'm emotional and wanted to share personal stuff here for once. as well. I want people to be able to see why he means what he does to me. he's the best dog I know in my life and remains that way. just wanted to share some stuff I guess. so for those who read thankyou.
I've been on hiatus for a few months due to exams and so on coming up like most people who follow my other sites are aware. as well as personal stressors that prevented me from drawing ad being more "distant" From my art. as tbh. I've been burnt out for a good while. I'm getting back on my feet. but sadly I've had some extremely sad news come my way. on Friday night my dog suffered from a stroke. the vet says he has a brain tumor. we can afford meds to help him till it gets too hard on him and the strokes come back and he is actually suffering. we were unsure if the medications would help. but they are. thankfully. he's back to himself for the time being. he isn't in any pain right now and hopefully won't be. but the long and short of it to pull the band-aid off for you guys is he is passing away. we don't know how long we have. we just know it's not going to be a super long time we have him in our lives left. so personally I want to spend time with my boy. he's the best dog I've ever owned frankly the only one I was ever able to call fully mine and my family's.
-story time about my pupper some things that make him so special to me-
warning some sentimental personal shit about my childhood, growing up and simply how he became so important to me and honestly why he means so much to me. stop here if you don't want more then an update I guess. I just wanted to be open about more personal stuff to me :3
this dog has been through thick and thin with me. frankly the word mans best friend isn't enough to describe him as. he's family to the furthest extent of the word. so this happening isn't easy on me in the least. or my family for that matter and he's provided huge amounts of support to my father through the years and the rest of my family mentally and just well kept us happy and kept us going. he's kept us together and helped us all through some extremely hard times. I owe this dog well a lot. he's 13. for a collie mix, this is a rather good age to make it too. we adopted him when he was 3 from NS, CAD and then brought him HOME with us. on a very long car ride (with lots of breaks for him and our sakes) but he was so well behaved then. and in the weeks prior to bonding with me and my sister. we met him through my aunt. who had him given to her by her son who couldn't care for him at the time (personal family reasons). but she was a full-time nurse, her husband works out west and she simply wanted to see him where he could be happy. well, we were out east for the summer she noticed how well I bonded with the dog and my sister too (who beforehand was terrified of dogs). my aunt knew he was good for us. without us knowing they arranged for us to adopt and bring him home with us that summer. this time in our lives my family was going through some really tough times and just all having a hard time dealing with things. when me and my sister found out sam was coming home with us. it brightened our lives. hugely. Sam we found out was coming home with us the NIGHT we left Ns for the summer. we had packed our car to go home with Oddly lots of space? then we had a detour. In which my mom surprised us that we were getting to have him come home with us. sadly before we left ns a storm hit and we had to go spend the nights at my grans. learning how terrified sam was of thunder at the time as before my aunt and her son owned him he had been an abused rescue. but the next afternoon we set off to his new home.
it was a long car ride. prob one of the hardest drives back from ns we've had. oddly not due to him in the LEAST. he was sooo well behaved. just was very traffic filled ride home and a hot one. but once we got home he was SO happy. he went about our hole yard running and playing with us. but once we unpacked the car he hopped RIGHT back in. wanting to go for a car ride! thus where we learned HE loved driving. just adored it. to this day he still does. then the rest of the summer we spent playing and being with him. honestly healing a hole in our family's hearts caused by the tempory loss of my father who had been wrongfully accused and sent away (he was proven to be innocent thou in the following months) but in the time my father was wrongfully put in a cell they gave him horrific care. causing his current disability which affected him a lot taking away most simple joys in his life. taking away many of the things he loved about himself and doing in life. but ill get more into how Sam helped my dad in a moment. but well he was gone. my family was harassed, abandoned and honestly treated EXTREMELY badly. which affected my whole family harshly. me and my sister and brother a lot mentally. my brother was older and better understood what was going on thou so he was affected but knew how to deal with such things. I and my sis didn't overly understand. i "knew" but I didn't fully get it and why. my sister is younger by 3 years was extremely out of the loop. so we needed help and just healing. Sam and our cats became part of our lives at this time. my parents agreed and my grandparents at the time all agreed we needed something. they proved to be the perfect addition to help our coop and at the same time expanding our family and putting a positive thing in your lives at the time. we rescued and had our pets find us that hard hard year. Sam was one of those pets. Astro and oreo our beloved cats were too. Oreo passed away just over a year ago (rest in peace my little one). but Sam was the dog that came into our lives that summer. and honestly, he played a huge part in our healing. he gave us something to bond with, connect with and care for together rather than hide away and become distant (which I tended to do as a child to deal with my undiagnosed depression at the time). so honestly. he was more than just a NEW pet or addition to the family. but he was family. he was a saving grace. he helped us heal hugely. which is one of the things that made this dog so meaningful to me personally. he helped me through one of the most confusing parts of my childhood. where I was EXTREMELY lost and hurting. and that's how the summer started. I ranted into a few things there thou. for some more "background details" for some to understand more about why and how he helped me deal with this stuff going on at that time in my life.
but he did much more than that. the first year we owned sam. he helped all my family. he really helped my mother who dearly missed my father. giving her company when me, my sister and brother where all at school. but also when my dad came home. my dad came home end of fall-ish? my dad had been through a lot. was now disabled. and dealing with false accusations against him. as well a small town and all I live in. no one really "forgives" or thinks nicely of someone even if the stuff was false. or admitted being false by the accusers (they lied for attention and a YEAR later admitted this in court under oath). so to say the least. my town wasn't the most loving or kind. they shunned us. gives us a VERY hard time. even after things were proven innocent. an event like this hurts someone. I know my dad was dealing with a fair bit. I can't speak for him here on how he felt or what was going on in his mind. but I know hed lost ALOT and had very little left at the time. but when he came home. there was someone new for him. Sammy. this dog and him. god, they bonded so so fast. a month into them knowing each other you would think Sam had been living off his hip from birth. this dog really helped him. I have to say that from my view he saved my dad. my dad also saved him in his own way. my dad helped him forget all the abuse from his past. and in return. my dog sam he helped him heal and recover and reconnect with us as a family. I normally don't talk in this regard or about family. but I really saw him help so soooo much. and I think it's valuable to mention how he really helped here. as well as tbh. sams best friend and favorite human in the world is def my dad. XD they are best friends.
so through all this, he helped my family. this was the start of my family's connection with our pupper. he bonded and helped us all so much. through what I feel was the hardest part of my young childhood. so I wanted to go into how our first few months with sam where. so this hugely was how he came into my family. we were in a hard spot in life without my dad briefly. he pulled us through. when my dad was back he honestly helped us be us again and rebound and heal what was wrongfully broken by someone's simple lies. and he helped us heal. which clearly bonded him EXTREMELY close to my whole family.
but over the years since then. he's prob been one of the best dogs I've ever had. I've briefly had friends dogs and so on in my life or partners pets in my life. but sam. he's special to me. over the years to come, he helped me face a lot of loss and personal tragic events that came into my life. this was the one that simply bonded us before. but he became my best friend over the years. he was my biking partner as he would run alongside me in his younger years. my hiking pal. the pupper who loved to go out with me. who loved car rides. but most of all wanted to just spend time with me and my family as much as possible. which we all have for years. the sheer amount he's done for me is remarkable. the cute stories I could go on endlessly about. the adventures he and I have been on. there is so many I couldn't choose what to tell you guys. it started as a bit of hope for me about 10 years ago when I was really struggling and it turned into a reason for me to keep pushing in my life. I couldn't ask for any better being to call a best friend. thus why all of this hurts so much. losing him will be losing a chuck of me. a big chunk. he's been a part of my life for so long. I can't imagine not having him be part of it anymore in nothing more them memories. so honestly. I wanna be there for him for every moment I can be right now. he was fine and in great health last week to what we know. and in mere moments so much changed. I know I need to focus on him. because he has always focused on us. so I am. but I know this also comes with a lot of pain afterward. he's my Sampson, my Sammy, my finagian, my boy, my silly sam and so many other names we call him by. so knowing he's close to his rainbow bridge. it pains me a great deal. but I will be by his side till it comes to pass. and I will hold on to my memories for all my life and hold him close to my heart dearly all of mine till we met again. but for now, I am spending all the time I have with him as best as I can. I love sam and he's the best family member I could ask for to come into my life. so I wanted to share a bit more of my personal life here as it holds a lot of importance to me because he honestly does for me. so I wanted to speak of him now. I likely will again on my more personal websites ie. facebook, telegram and such. but I thought you guys deserved some heartfelt stuff about him too.
if you read this all! welcome to some more personal mushy stuff about me. some of this was hard af to type. but it really is just how he came to be important to me and why he means so much to me. but overall just more about why and how he came into my life and what made him so special to start with to me. there is much more I could say but id be writing a few novels if I did that. but I decided to get a bit more emotional and in depth then I normally do about something important to me in my life being my pupper. who regretfully has limited time with me left. but I am going to cherish it. but heh. I'm emotional and wanted to share personal stuff here for once. as well. I want people to be able to see why he means what he does to me. he's the best dog I know in my life and remains that way. just wanted to share some stuff I guess. so for those who read thankyou.
