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6 years ago
Eeeyo folks hows everyone doing?? Just a journal to summerize life and whats been going arround with me. Could be a long one so read, don't read it's all good.
Short version it's all good and well.
Sooooo where to begin?? Overal am doing owkay. Work is ..a tad hard these days but am maneging. Colleauge of mine is a dad of 3 kids and he gets some sort of parrent leave to help arround the house and keep an eye on them. I can understand 3 kids is a load of work but honestly my parents managed just fine with the 2 of us without it. So yea more work for me and one other to try and do. Plus he is also making a lot more mistakes that we have to put time into to correct aswel. Still it's doable.
Yet lately i feel no more hmm dedication or devotion to it anymore. Like when i whas younger i whas like , ooh i gotta have to work , do my best , be my best etc etc. Now am like , aah another day of work, lets see how i will live the day. I whas so eager to work and help people. Now it's more eh it pays the bills. It's also not that i whant it to change. I earn but in my eyes not enough but don't ask for a raize. It's decent enough and am not in financial trouble or anything , just whant some extra to perhaps have some extra's Yet i don't whant to work harder for it. I god mad respect for my boss and the work he does and things after workhours, it's like he doesen't stop working even after all the kids are out and is a grandparent himself and all but danget sometimes he's just so... boss like.
Now am like ,why do i have to start earlier if i only get paid transport pay thats way lower yet have to put up 8h of work someplace else etc etc all those things. Recently i just think they should be happy i still even show up and do my slow ass need to work harder stuff.
However i feel sooooo tired these days it's making me think i just go see a doc whats up with me. Like shure i don't do mutch before ,ya know , game and draw a little but now.... i just sloutch on my chair and watch youtube of people pointing out all the recent bad stuff game companies are producing or doing. Even in the weekends i hardly have the energy to game or do other things. Perhaps i need to sleep in a few days. I got this auto clock of me with work, sleep at 11 , wake up before 6:30 or closebye. Meaby a few more hours would get me back with some juice.
It's also that there are some days i get up and feel, ah it's going to be one of those days again. Just wonna get thrue it and sleep it off. Nothing is interesting or doable , just...eurgh.
Hmmm for the rest of it, well all is good realy. Nothing to worry about ,altouuuugh i am comming to that feeling that our grandparents aren't gonig to last long anymore so am trying to prepare me a bit for it. It's going to be horrible but thats life.
Turning 36 in a while so yay me for being still alive for it.
Gaming whiseeeee ...eeeeaaaah dunno i don't feel that drive anymore like i used to. Wow whas my life a few years ago, just spending so mutch to lvl , gear up , raid ,etc. Now.... eh plus classic is comming on my b-day buuuuut am so used to the wow now am not shure i'll enjoy the classic. Meaby start over and join a guild again.
Other games can't seem to enthrall me or keep me hooked aswel. I got witcher 3 and all but don't feel the need to quest.
I am playing satisfactory now and then , it's a fun one but am currently stuck trying to get the nuclear power up plus there is more to come and i am already at my limit to craft all the things in there. I suck at building and planning.
Mostly i just game to get like the daily xp or bonus things on stuff like Heartstone and Heroes of the storm. I did found out some card arts is done by artists here so i love seeing that.
Art whise, same like the games, no drive for it anymore altough i still itch to make some kinky creations i just don't feel the drive or juice for it. Am already slacking off and had time off to do something buuut nada. So far am just enjoying the art pieces all you lovely people create. Blender has recently upgraded so i need to stick some time into learning on how it all works and am not shure if it stayed somewhat to same for having models exported itno sfm so i gotta look into that aswel. PLUS well i made the animations with making images and put them in belnder to make a smoothy animation so thats also going to need some work to look into..... that i am not doing since am so ....lame.
Tablet whise am still looking into it as i hardly ever used a tablet and the ones that you can draw on seems way better but alas also costs more. So while i whant to try it ,am also thinking , if i buy it i need to work with it becouse if i don't i just threw out x ammount of finances for nothing but seeing how unmotivated i am sometimes ( mostly) i fear thats going to happen.
I also realy whant to comment on the pieces i recieve to admire but alas due to the tiredness or lack of energy i just put it out for other days but that keeps on extending. So sorry for that yall.
Seems windows 7 is going out aswel so i gott upgrade to 10 unfortunally sooo i've been thinking of either getting a new pc since this one is 5-6y old , all my disks are pretty full ( thank you steam ) and jist looking at characters in overwatch is making it beep aswel as just alking arround in satsifactory so yea my 1y old grafics card aint pulling it anymore. If my future games that i whant to play are cyberpunk and outer worlds ...+ subverse. am guessing i reheeheeheheeheahly need a new one. Plus a new screen. Am always been the type that seas ,well if it still works why replace it but if it's neccesary it needs to be done.
Mmmmmh guess thats about it. Still i realy would like to meet up with a young gall to have a days worth of good tickling session with her. Hopefully not when am 80.
Short version it's all good and well.
Sooooo where to begin?? Overal am doing owkay. Work is ..a tad hard these days but am maneging. Colleauge of mine is a dad of 3 kids and he gets some sort of parrent leave to help arround the house and keep an eye on them. I can understand 3 kids is a load of work but honestly my parents managed just fine with the 2 of us without it. So yea more work for me and one other to try and do. Plus he is also making a lot more mistakes that we have to put time into to correct aswel. Still it's doable.
Yet lately i feel no more hmm dedication or devotion to it anymore. Like when i whas younger i whas like , ooh i gotta have to work , do my best , be my best etc etc. Now am like , aah another day of work, lets see how i will live the day. I whas so eager to work and help people. Now it's more eh it pays the bills. It's also not that i whant it to change. I earn but in my eyes not enough but don't ask for a raize. It's decent enough and am not in financial trouble or anything , just whant some extra to perhaps have some extra's Yet i don't whant to work harder for it. I god mad respect for my boss and the work he does and things after workhours, it's like he doesen't stop working even after all the kids are out and is a grandparent himself and all but danget sometimes he's just so... boss like.
Now am like ,why do i have to start earlier if i only get paid transport pay thats way lower yet have to put up 8h of work someplace else etc etc all those things. Recently i just think they should be happy i still even show up and do my slow ass need to work harder stuff.
However i feel sooooo tired these days it's making me think i just go see a doc whats up with me. Like shure i don't do mutch before ,ya know , game and draw a little but now.... i just sloutch on my chair and watch youtube of people pointing out all the recent bad stuff game companies are producing or doing. Even in the weekends i hardly have the energy to game or do other things. Perhaps i need to sleep in a few days. I got this auto clock of me with work, sleep at 11 , wake up before 6:30 or closebye. Meaby a few more hours would get me back with some juice.
It's also that there are some days i get up and feel, ah it's going to be one of those days again. Just wonna get thrue it and sleep it off. Nothing is interesting or doable , just...eurgh.
Hmmm for the rest of it, well all is good realy. Nothing to worry about ,altouuuugh i am comming to that feeling that our grandparents aren't gonig to last long anymore so am trying to prepare me a bit for it. It's going to be horrible but thats life.
Turning 36 in a while so yay me for being still alive for it.
Gaming whiseeeee ...eeeeaaaah dunno i don't feel that drive anymore like i used to. Wow whas my life a few years ago, just spending so mutch to lvl , gear up , raid ,etc. Now.... eh plus classic is comming on my b-day buuuuut am so used to the wow now am not shure i'll enjoy the classic. Meaby start over and join a guild again.
Other games can't seem to enthrall me or keep me hooked aswel. I got witcher 3 and all but don't feel the need to quest.
I am playing satisfactory now and then , it's a fun one but am currently stuck trying to get the nuclear power up plus there is more to come and i am already at my limit to craft all the things in there. I suck at building and planning.
Mostly i just game to get like the daily xp or bonus things on stuff like Heartstone and Heroes of the storm. I did found out some card arts is done by artists here so i love seeing that.
Art whise, same like the games, no drive for it anymore altough i still itch to make some kinky creations i just don't feel the drive or juice for it. Am already slacking off and had time off to do something buuut nada. So far am just enjoying the art pieces all you lovely people create. Blender has recently upgraded so i need to stick some time into learning on how it all works and am not shure if it stayed somewhat to same for having models exported itno sfm so i gotta look into that aswel. PLUS well i made the animations with making images and put them in belnder to make a smoothy animation so thats also going to need some work to look into..... that i am not doing since am so ....lame.
Tablet whise am still looking into it as i hardly ever used a tablet and the ones that you can draw on seems way better but alas also costs more. So while i whant to try it ,am also thinking , if i buy it i need to work with it becouse if i don't i just threw out x ammount of finances for nothing but seeing how unmotivated i am sometimes ( mostly) i fear thats going to happen.
I also realy whant to comment on the pieces i recieve to admire but alas due to the tiredness or lack of energy i just put it out for other days but that keeps on extending. So sorry for that yall.
Seems windows 7 is going out aswel so i gott upgrade to 10 unfortunally sooo i've been thinking of either getting a new pc since this one is 5-6y old , all my disks are pretty full ( thank you steam ) and jist looking at characters in overwatch is making it beep aswel as just alking arround in satsifactory so yea my 1y old grafics card aint pulling it anymore. If my future games that i whant to play are cyberpunk and outer worlds ...+ subverse. am guessing i reheeheeheheeheahly need a new one. Plus a new screen. Am always been the type that seas ,well if it still works why replace it but if it's neccesary it needs to be done.
Mmmmmh guess thats about it. Still i realy would like to meet up with a young gall to have a days worth of good tickling session with her. Hopefully not when am 80.
But over all glad your at least making it bye :3
Keep hanging in there the best you can.
Oh i will no worries there.
Good to hear. *hugs*
That's spooky. You basically described 90% of my work life. The only thing different is that it's not actually possible for others to create more work for me a good portion of the time, yet I still get blamed for it all anyway when mistakes happen.