Hello everybunny. It's been far too long. These past two years have really kicked my ass and it's been a struggle. After my last update about what was going on the year didn't stop dishing it out, unfortunately. The stress from being my grandmother's caretaker (Who is still kicking btw Idek how..) caused my papa to have a heart attack. Thankfully he survived but we almost lost him and it was very scary. I've had to help pick up the slack for them along with my mom. My grandmother's abuse only continues to get worse and I'm not sure of how much more I can take. I have an offer to move in with some friends but there are a few things I have to take care of first and I'm still worried about what will happen to my papa if I leave. Worst of all I lost my li'l brother to a fatal car accident. It was about a week before his 25 birthday. I still can't believe he's gone. I never thought the first close family death I would ever have to see was my younger brother's. My only sibling. I'm coping with the help of friends but some days are worse than others.

Having to do my work so slowly has been killing me. Stopping me from doing what I love most but worst of all making you guys wait and fucking wait for your commissions. I have never taken this long to provide my work before but everything that's been happening has taken over. There were times I would force myself even when I was in a bad place and I just couldn't do it. It would come out so bad and no matter what I have not and will NOT ever give bad or half-assed art. I refuse. If it's not up to my standards then it's not happening. Even if it takes a long time I promise you guys I will always give you my best or beyond. I have been able to get out some pieces but a few weeks ago I was actually able to find my inspiration again and have been banging out some pretty nice stuff. I'm writing this during a break from drawing commissions right now. If one positive comes out of this I promise your comms are gonna be better quality than what they would have been. 2018 and 2019 have been frankly fucking nightmares but being able to draw again has really helped me cope and I feel happier than I have in a while.

It's still a struggle but I'm really trying to pull myself up and get back to living my life. I've still been working on my anxiety and going out when I can so that's really great. Now that I've started working again I wanted to give you guys an update. It will probably still be slow but I will be getting out art more frequently and finishing my list of commissions. I really can't apologize enough and I hope with all of my heart ya'll can forgive me or at least don't hate my guts. I really had no control of these events but I will say that I did drop the ball when it came to updating you guys about your commissions. That was my fucking bad and I admit that. I just didn't want to do anything when I wasn't helping around at home. I just wanted to lay in bed and distract myself from everything.

You guys have always been so kind and supportive of me and I've met some of the greatest people on here and on Twitter. You guys straight up leave me comments that make me fucking cry with happiness. I never wanted to let any of you down. My purpose for doing commissions is to bring ya'll happiness with my art. That's my greatest joy in life. _{Except for bunnies but ya know..}

I hope you guys have been doing alright I really miss the shit out of you. I gotta update my page a bit haha.

ALSO! To everyone who inquired about commissions I am not open right now but I have your notes saved and when I start up again I will let you guys be the first to know!!!! Thank you to everyone who is actually interested in getting art from me I will cry again don't fucking test me. ♥♥♥♥