Trying to adapt myself to this seriously overloaded job and horrible clients for over 6 months, but it's getting harder and harder now. I'm transferred to a new unit due to my high performance. I was promised a promotion if I can handle the works here--- most notorious unit in this hellish company. Even those who works almost 16 hr (no shit!) and 6 days a week see this unit as shit hole.

After so many people quit this unit only got 2 people including me in this company which owned over 4000 employee. This enterprise was at the edge of collapse and I thought I could hold the tide and stand strong. I was wrong.

I'm overwhelmed by incredibly uneducated and rude clients (hard to believe someone woks over 8 years still know nothing about the product and procedure), extremely hard case to solve with no resource, at least 14 work hours daily (even have to work after back home). My work load is about 5 times compared to my colleagues in different unit who enter this company with me. The worst things are that the promotion is probably a lie due to the terrible financial situation my company is, and I'm very underpaid ( My company cancelled many bonus no matter how high our performance is so I can only have basic salary ).

I've suffered insomnia, stomach ache, body ache and depression for months. I tried to find a new job but the environment is very bad after the Corona virus breakout. So far I can't find a suitable new job and I can't take the risk--- I'm 33y now and not as popular as I was in my 20s. If I quit now I could be jobless for half or one year until find an ideal job. I'm really stuck and my mental health is bad. My depression comes back and makes it harder for me to maintain regular life.

Sorry for all these negative thoughts but I need to let them out. Now I still can't sleep at 4:20 am while type this journal. Any way, I'll upload some commissions after abandoned my accounts for months. Maybe it can makes me feel better....