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5 years ago
this is a very negative journal entry.
everything sure is a shitshow huh? locked in the house for weeks on end, university up in the air, job under constant threat of furlough or even being laid off, no contact with my mental health support team until mid-july at the very earliest, complete isolation from everyone except one of my partners, everything worth looking forward to cancelled, severe mental illness relapse and the ever-present threat of severe illness + death looming. it's near impossible to stay positive. i don't have any positive words. it feels like every step, every little inch of progress i made over the past three years has come undone over the course of four months but particularly the past three weeks. there is likely another ten to go of this minimum. i don't know how i'll cope.
i'm also feeling increasingly distant from the furry fandom. i've met so many amazing, lovely people but i need to pull back my interaction for a while because over the past few weeks i've seen heavy support for cub porn creators and zoophiles. it's disgusting. there's no excuses. no non-offending bs, no no-contact bs, no but-it's-just-art bs, no wehh-drama-in-my-funspace bs. i didn't spend my teenage years being groomed by creepy anime men fetishishing cosplay girls to ignore or enable creepy animal people doing the same. i appreciate nobody can be glued to whatever the latest big thing happening is, especially when there's so much going on in the world, but actively defending these people is supporting them. it's gross. and i've seen more people than i'm comfortable with doing it lately. so i'm taking a step back so i don't burn out and become distant from the people i love who i met through furry.
feel free to dm me if you want my discord handle or my @ for my ~normie~ twitter where i have other interests and fandom stuff.
everything sure is a shitshow huh? locked in the house for weeks on end, university up in the air, job under constant threat of furlough or even being laid off, no contact with my mental health support team until mid-july at the very earliest, complete isolation from everyone except one of my partners, everything worth looking forward to cancelled, severe mental illness relapse and the ever-present threat of severe illness + death looming. it's near impossible to stay positive. i don't have any positive words. it feels like every step, every little inch of progress i made over the past three years has come undone over the course of four months but particularly the past three weeks. there is likely another ten to go of this minimum. i don't know how i'll cope.
i'm also feeling increasingly distant from the furry fandom. i've met so many amazing, lovely people but i need to pull back my interaction for a while because over the past few weeks i've seen heavy support for cub porn creators and zoophiles. it's disgusting. there's no excuses. no non-offending bs, no no-contact bs, no but-it's-just-art bs, no wehh-drama-in-my-funspace bs. i didn't spend my teenage years being groomed by creepy anime men fetishishing cosplay girls to ignore or enable creepy animal people doing the same. i appreciate nobody can be glued to whatever the latest big thing happening is, especially when there's so much going on in the world, but actively defending these people is supporting them. it's gross. and i've seen more people than i'm comfortable with doing it lately. so i'm taking a step back so i don't burn out and become distant from the people i love who i met through furry.
feel free to dm me if you want my discord handle or my @ for my ~normie~ twitter where i have other interests and fandom stuff.
