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A real June-Ky month?
5 years ago
Just need to vent somethings now…
June… has been okay, I guess…
May ended with… horrible news…
June started off shaky start, but seem to be more stable for me and most others I know…
Finally got my tax return… but due to know many struggling artists around this time, it was barely enough to help most of them with SOME of their needs….
Power Rangers really pulled off a lot this month. Finishing the Team up comic with Teen Age Mutant Ninja Turtles, as well as the BIG dino-generation team up in Beast Morphers.
The Supreme Court finally passing law FOR LGBT protection was a major claim this month for Pride Month…
New Pokemon dub on Netlfix and the Expansion to Sword/Shield came out recently too.
Weather finally allowed me to go swimming in our pool after being coop up inside of the house, and only leaving for work for months…
Kamen Rider and Super Sentai are supposed to be back on track this week.
That’s pretty much all the good stuff that I can list off. Would list off some of the bad ones… but there is TOO much of that…
Been feeling in a personal funk though…
Worrying about cash for upcoming things has me worried that I can’t seem to enjoy commissioning as much…. That and commissioning has become harder recently…
Not to say artists don’t have the right or deserve to set their prices, but I have notice that it a lot of rates have gone up for a lot of them. It just seems you need to put away a good some to see come color pieces done… there is also the problem of scheduling.
A LOT of artists I know seem to be either pulling demanding dayjobs, which mean they have to squeeze commission work to a slower pace… and I end up being sideline for some time. Either because I am low-tier thus low priority, or too complex and need to be bench while the simpler stuff gets done...
There is also the problem of scheduling to get ANY commissions at all recently…. A LOT of artists seem to only be open for limited slots… which fill up within minutes of being open… which sucks to me because I’m either at work when this happens, or I am on a too tight of a budget when the window opens. I have also notice more artists jumping ship to Twitter for commission slots… which sucks because unless I visit the artist regularly, I won’t get the proper notice of when they open… either that by chance I get a proper notice about it by random chance…
All of this really bums me out. I have so many ideas, but hardly the time or talent to really flesh them out or give them proper form, and compared to few years ago, it seems harder now to get anything done… even if means to hire OTHER people to do it… and while I am co-running a Patreon page myself, I need to commission some decent comic artists to reel in viewers. Sadly, the ones I am use to have become too expansive or busy for the work I need on a regular schedule… same can be said for the ones I request just for my hobbies…
And this has me notice. I really do seem like a dud-hit. Most while most of the commissions pieces I ask for get the better numbers in views and favorites apart from my own drawings… nobody really comments on them. Comment prove that what I did had some REAL impact to degree with people. Views and faves are so easy with a simple click, but to ACTUALLY write a personal reaction to something actually takes EFFORT to do.
Same can be said about Twitter. I have notice some posts I make, mostly from other media, get A LOT of hits… but then other follow ups don’t seem to attract just as much… Hell. I can keep better track of my account’s notifications of my post than most of my own retweets and likes…
Not only that, but it has been harder to either make some new friends or hang out more with old onces, since so many of them seem busy. While I do get chances to actually talk and hang out with a few, and I do appreciate greatly for that considering all the crazy stuff going on right now. I am amaze how, I have notice I spend A LOT of my free time waiting for them to come to me while they are out doing A LOT things.
All of this has made me realize that I let myself get lazy and I need to do for myself in general if I want be proud of myself. Ican’t wait for others do something. I need to do myself! Even if I failed at it, be it a meme or drawing, I still need to put my own effort into it! Otherwise, I will still be in the same crummy place, if not get worst at it over all… and I have notice I am LONG way to go before I can enjoy my own work…
While it seems like something new adds to my hefty weight of disappoint I haven having in everything recently. I am still trying to do more to try to enjoy life, either enjoying small things or trying to bring joy others. So I maybe down for now…. I WILL raise above it and come back stronger! And so far, June has been a welcoming some decent turn arounds.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBATdiLpafo
June… has been okay, I guess…
May ended with… horrible news…
June started off shaky start, but seem to be more stable for me and most others I know…
Finally got my tax return… but due to know many struggling artists around this time, it was barely enough to help most of them with SOME of their needs….
Power Rangers really pulled off a lot this month. Finishing the Team up comic with Teen Age Mutant Ninja Turtles, as well as the BIG dino-generation team up in Beast Morphers.
The Supreme Court finally passing law FOR LGBT protection was a major claim this month for Pride Month…
New Pokemon dub on Netlfix and the Expansion to Sword/Shield came out recently too.
Weather finally allowed me to go swimming in our pool after being coop up inside of the house, and only leaving for work for months…
Kamen Rider and Super Sentai are supposed to be back on track this week.
That’s pretty much all the good stuff that I can list off. Would list off some of the bad ones… but there is TOO much of that…
Been feeling in a personal funk though…
Worrying about cash for upcoming things has me worried that I can’t seem to enjoy commissioning as much…. That and commissioning has become harder recently…
Not to say artists don’t have the right or deserve to set their prices, but I have notice that it a lot of rates have gone up for a lot of them. It just seems you need to put away a good some to see come color pieces done… there is also the problem of scheduling.
A LOT of artists I know seem to be either pulling demanding dayjobs, which mean they have to squeeze commission work to a slower pace… and I end up being sideline for some time. Either because I am low-tier thus low priority, or too complex and need to be bench while the simpler stuff gets done...
There is also the problem of scheduling to get ANY commissions at all recently…. A LOT of artists seem to only be open for limited slots… which fill up within minutes of being open… which sucks to me because I’m either at work when this happens, or I am on a too tight of a budget when the window opens. I have also notice more artists jumping ship to Twitter for commission slots… which sucks because unless I visit the artist regularly, I won’t get the proper notice of when they open… either that by chance I get a proper notice about it by random chance…
All of this really bums me out. I have so many ideas, but hardly the time or talent to really flesh them out or give them proper form, and compared to few years ago, it seems harder now to get anything done… even if means to hire OTHER people to do it… and while I am co-running a Patreon page myself, I need to commission some decent comic artists to reel in viewers. Sadly, the ones I am use to have become too expansive or busy for the work I need on a regular schedule… same can be said for the ones I request just for my hobbies…
And this has me notice. I really do seem like a dud-hit. Most while most of the commissions pieces I ask for get the better numbers in views and favorites apart from my own drawings… nobody really comments on them. Comment prove that what I did had some REAL impact to degree with people. Views and faves are so easy with a simple click, but to ACTUALLY write a personal reaction to something actually takes EFFORT to do.
Same can be said about Twitter. I have notice some posts I make, mostly from other media, get A LOT of hits… but then other follow ups don’t seem to attract just as much… Hell. I can keep better track of my account’s notifications of my post than most of my own retweets and likes…
Not only that, but it has been harder to either make some new friends or hang out more with old onces, since so many of them seem busy. While I do get chances to actually talk and hang out with a few, and I do appreciate greatly for that considering all the crazy stuff going on right now. I am amaze how, I have notice I spend A LOT of my free time waiting for them to come to me while they are out doing A LOT things.
All of this has made me realize that I let myself get lazy and I need to do for myself in general if I want be proud of myself. Ican’t wait for others do something. I need to do myself! Even if I failed at it, be it a meme or drawing, I still need to put my own effort into it! Otherwise, I will still be in the same crummy place, if not get worst at it over all… and I have notice I am LONG way to go before I can enjoy my own work…
While it seems like something new adds to my hefty weight of disappoint I haven having in everything recently. I am still trying to do more to try to enjoy life, either enjoying small things or trying to bring joy others. So I maybe down for now…. I WILL raise above it and come back stronger! And so far, June has been a welcoming some decent turn arounds.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBATdiLpafo
