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One more update, in other news.
4 years ago
In better news, definitely feeling a surge in creativity, even as the world crumbles around me.
I'd like to think this year will be...productive, at the very least. This year could be anything and if its going to turn out miserable I'll at least do what I can for my personal work.
The main reason for this post is that I have never liked leaving things on a sour note so here's something good for a change:I'm NOT giving up anytime soon.
It would be easy, so easy for me to just throw in the towel and be done with this material existence, there are days I truly want to see it end.
But there are even more days where I want to be around long enough to see what happens cause just 'maybe' there's still a part for me to play in this big drama that is planet Earth.
I'm tired, no fatigued is a more appropriate word...I'm struggling to find any sort of energy on a daily basis and as a result, my work (personal and creative) have suffered at times.
However, each bit of suffering is a motivation to do better and improve, to evolve beyond the status quo of what is expected and leave room for surprises.
I'm hoping to continue to inspire and surprise with my workings this year in ways I failed to do for the past 4 (in which time I did very little music, only around 3 songs for that matter).
So will 2021 be everyone's 'year' finally? I wouldn't count on it but I don't mean that in a bad way. I simply mean that if you expect something, consistently, you're setting yourself up for disappointment. I'm expecting nothing in particular whatsoever so that whatever ends up happening this year will remain a surprise.
And yeah, sure, 2020 sucked but I've had worse years than 2020. If you think 2020 was the 'worst year ever' just cause of a global pandemic then I'm sorry to inform you but covid won't be the last global pandemic you're likely to see in your lifetime. But enough on that, there's worst shit to stress over out there, don't let yourself become so accustomed to pain and worry that you forget to have fun in the process. If you don't know what to do then by all means just do something, anything, different from the routine, then you will find meaningful connections and motivations that will pull you out of a bad 'loop'.
Anyway, enough on all that for now, more to come in time. Please see my previous journals for the full context of what i'm going through right now, I don't feel like bringing it up again. Take care all
I'd like to think this year will be...productive, at the very least. This year could be anything and if its going to turn out miserable I'll at least do what I can for my personal work.
The main reason for this post is that I have never liked leaving things on a sour note so here's something good for a change:I'm NOT giving up anytime soon.
It would be easy, so easy for me to just throw in the towel and be done with this material existence, there are days I truly want to see it end.
But there are even more days where I want to be around long enough to see what happens cause just 'maybe' there's still a part for me to play in this big drama that is planet Earth.
I'm tired, no fatigued is a more appropriate word...I'm struggling to find any sort of energy on a daily basis and as a result, my work (personal and creative) have suffered at times.
However, each bit of suffering is a motivation to do better and improve, to evolve beyond the status quo of what is expected and leave room for surprises.
I'm hoping to continue to inspire and surprise with my workings this year in ways I failed to do for the past 4 (in which time I did very little music, only around 3 songs for that matter).
So will 2021 be everyone's 'year' finally? I wouldn't count on it but I don't mean that in a bad way. I simply mean that if you expect something, consistently, you're setting yourself up for disappointment. I'm expecting nothing in particular whatsoever so that whatever ends up happening this year will remain a surprise.
And yeah, sure, 2020 sucked but I've had worse years than 2020. If you think 2020 was the 'worst year ever' just cause of a global pandemic then I'm sorry to inform you but covid won't be the last global pandemic you're likely to see in your lifetime. But enough on that, there's worst shit to stress over out there, don't let yourself become so accustomed to pain and worry that you forget to have fun in the process. If you don't know what to do then by all means just do something, anything, different from the routine, then you will find meaningful connections and motivations that will pull you out of a bad 'loop'.
Anyway, enough on all that for now, more to come in time. Please see my previous journals for the full context of what i'm going through right now, I don't feel like bringing it up again. Take care all
