it's been a while since my last journal. it feels a lot like the world is constantly burning now, and i'm still having to go in to work because the big bosses have argued each lockdown that staying fully open is essential. which is quite anxiety-inducing. university have become harsher with their marking & assessments and won't listen to any student feedback. my family are all classed as extremely vulnerable, and i'm constantly scared about the health of my partners, my friends and myself.

i also suffer from several chronic mental illnesses and the support for mental illness is extremely low priority; as such, what i get is sparing and by locums while the regular staff have been reassigned. i'm on the waiting list for private healthcare once they start accepting new patients so hopefully something will come of that. i have cpn, psychology and psychiatry appointments all with locums next week... that's a huge emotional toll.

it's all been a bit much really. so i've started blogging for something to help. you can find it over here.

i've also been retreating more and more into my little side. it's not really any secret that i'm involved in the babyfur community, it's just something i've always had to sideline for brain or other reasons. so i've made a permanent account over at  clumsyspaniel and a twitter account i won't be deleting this time at clumsyspaniel. expect those to be my main hubs of activity for the next long while.

a mixed bag of an update really. i hope everyone's well and safe.