It finally hit our household. Out of us all I was the only one that had a 'negative' test result though I displayed so many of the symptoms. We're doing better but low energy is the worst.
The one to be noted is that my mom is currently hospitalized and on a ventilator. Due to pneumonia she was struggling very hard to breathe and a couple of days after being at the hospital, with her struggling to calm her breathing back down on her own, they decided the best route was intubation/ventilator. My mom was coherent when this happened and consented to the whole thing but it is still very scary when you know things can be very serious, that words like life support and not being able to see her for at least 20 days if not longer...... She had been on 100% oxygen for several days. I was updated today that she has now been weaned down to 60% which is great in comparison.

I try to focus on my own healing but my nerves are so rattled at the thought of losing my mom so easily to this. I want her to make it out of this so that we can go do things together. I want to be able to discuss stuff that never even crossed my mind until this point. Everybody tells me not to blame myself for her getting it as there is no telling where it came from, but the guilt is there. My mom literally goes nowhere other than the grocery store to pick up groceries and medications for herself and my oldest sister.


I don't even know when I'm supposed to go back to work, they were all so vague about it. Nobody has really called to ask how I'm doing, what they need from me, etc. I don't understand this.