So, It has been a while eh? Not sure who even would read this anyway, but, I figure I would at least leave something. 2021 has not been a great year for me honestly. Between Breaking up with my GF, ruining yet another good friendship, deeply hurting another friend, losing my job, Being hospitalized twice due to Suicide attempts, facing $10,000 if medical bills, and I am potentially going to be homeless by December. I just... I don't have that kind of money, I don't have much of a support circle anymore, I don't have a lot of anything anymore. I just... I don't know really what to do, or even if I should do anything. I am just so tired, I haven't been sleeping well, i haven't been eating, it's like my body is even screaming for me to just stop and die already. I do not make the greatest life choices... but, I am honestly I am questioning if I made the right choice 3 years ago in not finishing what I started in that admittedly disgusting bathroom stall.