Zoinks! My last Journal was at the very end of 2020... It's been a while, hasn't it? ;^_^ And what a depressing Journal that was, too. ;>_>

I've had so much happen before and after that Journal mind you. Stressful, vindictive, and emotionally crippling times to start. Add an accidental dark moment or two, and suffice to say, I've been fucked in the heart and head ever since... The pandemic that was COVID-19 didn't help much either (that's not to say that that pandemic's gone mind you). Then, slowly but surely, the times picked up. Signs of hope. Reasons to look forward to new days. Ways to cope with stress if not eliminate it. And then one roller coaster after another that's been upping and downing all emotions, stress levels, and health (more so mental health). So many lessons learned, so many lessons I can't understand but am desperately trying to, and so many lessons I have yet to learn.

Strap in, my faithful follower. This Journal's gonna be a doozy.

And before you say, "Oh, just give me the 'Too Long, Didn't Read' (TLDR) version, please, I ain't got time for that shizz," screw off. In real life, there aren't any TLDRs. I've read all of yours. Now read mine. lol

That being said, to start off... There is one chapter of my life that I will briefly touch upon. For now. I can always do a separate Journal of that another day, but not today... I had this best friend. For all intents and purposes, let's call them... "Leah." Seven years we lasted as BFFs. Started off amazing. Then one development happened after another. Mostly at their end. They became... A different person. And not for the better. There was nothing I could do but be supportive. And even that's apparently a no-no. There was a falling-out, then a reunion, then another falling-out, then another reunion, and then finally a brash and vindictive falling-out on their end over something they blew way out of proportion. Took something too personally and made me feel lower than rat excrement. I was left... Broken. Helpless. Depressed to all Hell. A shell of a man with no hope anymore. Always questioning my own self-worth.

Like I said, I'll have to reveal more to give better context. But I'm not in that mindset right now. Not just yet.

Just know that I was quite a distant loner throughout that heartbreak and mental period of picking up pieces here and there. I'm thankful to God I had another best friend (who shall remain nameless) helping me through the stress and being there for me, cheering me up each day. Little bits and pieces of conversation helped. Arigatou! :’3 Also special shout-out to Dan Ocelot and NyrtrixWolfie for being the best recently-and-officially-engaged couple appearing out of nowhere and introducing me to Minecraft: Java where silly game modes aplenty were available. X3 I love you all very much even if we don't speak as frequently now. You're still on my mind. All my good friends are.

So when would things turn around for this ninja lion?

Well... It began when it was announced that Furnal Equinox was back on! Hellz to the yeah! Even though COVID-19 was still ever-present at the time, it seemed manageable enough for all to work around and go despite knowing all the risks. Myself included. Unsurprisingly, even I, myself, contracted the pandemic leaving the con. But I couldn't be more proud of my fandom and friends reaching out and being supportive rather than labelling each other as monsters for exposing ourselves to COVID-19 and contracting shit or being idiots. 'Cause we were all technically idiots. We all went there. We knew what would happen. But dammit all if it wasn't worth seeing everyone in-person again. Giving hugs all around and not only seeing old friends but making plenty of new ones. After all, almost all of us going there acquired at least three vaccines upon going there, so the symptoms weren't as sucky. In my case, I had a terrible stuffy nose and a lingering cough. And though it spread to Mom and my older brother who took care of me, we all recovered just fine. Had no vaccines had been taken... Well... I'd likely not even be here. Perish the thought though! Among the many highlights that con, I was apparently popular on TikTok. Turned out that one guy giving me a high-paw was famous musician Papa Roach. Which is funny when you consider that 1) I wasn't on TikTok at the time and 2) I had no freakin' clue who Papa Roach was! Or still is! XD lol Also I made friends with (big shout-out to sarge)! He knew the right words to say to me during the Dead Dog Dance when he saw I was almost about to break down in tears seeing as how the weekend went so fast. :'3 To look forward to and be in the mindset for the next con. And he invited me to VRChat and to give it a try, guaranteeing that I'd love it.

So I did try it (one month after the con since I wanted to be sure I was healthy enough after COVID-19, lol). And two days into playing VRChat... I fell in love with the game and wanted my own headset and everything. TwT lol I know I've said stuff about how it's the not the same as IRL cons and meet-ups - and I'm still a firm believer in that - but I now honestly see why VRChat is so popular and how immersive and social one can be with it. In fact, it's been through VRChat itself that I came across many brand-new friends that I didn't even know that I needed in my life but am truly thankful that I do have them! :'3 Each one more unique than the last! I'll get to them later! X3 But I can't thank enough for getting me into the experience! Matter of fact, he's footed vouchers for me to be part of Furality, VRChat's online furry convention!

However the many hours of staying up way late into the night talking with said friends of mine took a toll on Mom and my older brother who had an intervention of sorts with me to share how pissed off they were about essentially me having friends to talk with before we all decided on an hour to settle on where I could lower my voice to a hoarse whisper so that the brother - whose bedroom was right above where my computer station was at our late Grandma's place (being the basement) - can sleep. You can guess how much that sucks having to have done that for a while - and still doing that even now - always being careful when midnight is around. X( But even then, before or after midnight, it doesn't change that my experience on there was severely hindered due to having a poor-quality all-around PC that had very minimal performance. Eight gigabytes of RAM with very limited storage. I suffered quite a lot with crowded instances, sudden slowdowns, and latency hiccups constantly. It didn't help that we had crappy rural Internet service.

But those closest friends of mine, lemme tell you... I've never had such online friends like them before. And I have yet to meet them all IRL. But, well, I must've done something right in my many days of hanging with them, sharing jokes and stories and secrets and life's hardships and whatnot... 'Cause they've all reached out to me in their own special ways.

Thanks to StarSkunk, Rubicante, , AliceJellyfish, , and the entire staff of Game Show Night's Discord group, I have a place to take part in game shows for real where I can demonstrate my passion for certain shows by hosting them or test my own skills or luck by becoming a contestant on them! I must also thank Flummel88 and TheEpicAnnouncer as well for taking part and getting me hype for said games!

Thanks to , I learned that it's okay to have time to yourself if you really need it. Plus hard as it is sometimes, I must appreciate the games I play with an open mind and try any and all I'm into at least once. I also learned that Elden Ring is batshit insane, and everything in it wants to kill me. ;;;O_O

Thanks to Kitsunegolem and Sakura Icemane (formerly Sigma Vataris/Laughing Howl/NytroBladewing), I've been exposed to new games and deep lores to really appreciate and sink my teeth into, truly grasping how creative and engaging said games are! They're both such relatable and down-to-earth angels... Granted, they are both absolute demons of chaos in UNO, but aside from that, they're both awesome. XD lol Also big thanks to Kitsune for being there for a few vents here and there and offering some kernels of real-life experiences that help me feel like I'm not a lost cause and encouraging me that true friends are there for one another always. And big thanks to Sakura especially for going even further as far as helping me be more exposed to VR in general by supplying me with actual money via PayPal that have gone towards multiple PC parts and a genuine Meta Quest 2 headset which has helped immerse me immensely in the game! :D

Thanks to Saros Eclipse, I have a greater respect for avali and am grateful for any and all movies - classic and modern - that I've never been exposed to until now. I'm neither Siskel nor Ebert, but I enjoy reviewing whatever I end up checking out and appreciate the many facts surrounding said movies. I also have a greater admiration for furs of long, productive histories and am honored to be in the presence of one of many pioneers that paved the way for the virtual reality experience that we've come to love today! I consider him part of my family with all his wisdom, love, and experience! And his knockout Dad puns. XP

Thanks to (a.k.a. Azure, Aleph, Alephmon), (a.k.a. Epsi/Epsiluna, Alephmon's wife), (formerly ), KuroXanos (a.k.a. Kuromon), Zoomlightbulbs, and the entirety of the Digimon Freelancers, I've developed a rekindling appreciation and slowly-growing love for the Digimon franchise all over again! Special shout-outs to Alephmon especially for being an outstanding best friend with his knowledge of all things technical and helping me learn the ins and outs of my new custom PC and bringing me reasons to laugh and enjoy everything the world around me has to offer! Also another big shout-out to Epsi for her lessons and support in all things art! And an extra shout-out to Kuromon for his design expertise for my personal Digimon OC avatar in VRChat! I don't know where I'd be without any of you. ;w;

As a matter of fact, one way or another, most of the above-mentioned names - if not all of them - have contributed in some way towards me getting the long-overdue custom PC upgrade as well as my very own Meta Quest 2 so that I may fully immerse myself and embrace everything VRChat has to offer. And now I can see my best friends in sharp quality and bright, pretty colours! :3 lol I am eternally grateful to you! I hope to repay such kindness to you however I can! ;///w///;

Also I wanna give a special thank-you to Alto Paco for optimizing my Digi-sona avatar so that it can be seen even by Questies, too! Your incredible modelling talents and your insightful expertise are matched by your gentle nature and your kind and sweet personality! Arigatou, onee-chan! ^///w///^

There would be one other person I'd thank, exceeeept they turned out to be rather creepy, forward, and highly defensive when trying to get me to stay their friend (made it even more awkward as he kept following me at FE knowing full well that he had a trail of complaints a mile long from both IRL and on VRChat going into the con). I'm no cartoon hedgehog, but LEO SEZ: be careful who you befriend online.

No, rather, I'll speak of someone else (this one I will talk about). Not to bring any further bad memories to the table, but one other thing that's happened in my absence is the rise and fall of another friendship with me and a well-known bondage artist on FA, munchkinlovaxp/wondersparks/Colton. You might have noticed that there was something drawn by him that I re-posted (which they allowed before) but suddenly had taken down without any warning. That's because there was another clean drawing I had received from him during when I had freshly been fighting depression and didn't think to reply to them right away with my usual positive "critiquing" of such drawings. In fact, I was quite beside myself mentally and also busy with other matters IRL that I didn't think to get back to him for three months. ;>_< But when I did, he avoided me as a friend altogether. Inevitably, once I did ask, "what's up?" politely, he rudely told me that I'm an accident for not getting back immediately, saying my reasons for being depressed were invalid and to take everything down. "Not even a fucking thumbs-up, motherfucker." Well, suffice to say, I was taken aback and was hurt once again, but as I've come to realize between him and that best friend of seven years, feelings don't have a place in society or online anymore. So I quietly removed the drawings, DM'd them a literal thumbs-up emoji, and blocked them. It's what they would've wanted. That and maybe my severed head on a pike, but hey, one out of two ain't bad. As for the real Colton that I remember, if you're reading this, I hope you are calm. I hope you have matured. I hope your drawings continue to bring joy to others as they have to me. I hope to capture even half your talent when drawing such scintillating bondage material. But always know. That attitude will not get you far. It won't get you any respect. FA doesn't owe you anything. Your followers don't owe you anything. You have to earn it. And everyone's going through their own hardships that may change or fuck them up inside to not be as talkative. It happens. Believe me, it happens. Not once was I asked how I was doing even when that other drawing was done for me. Did you ever stop to think there was something wrong with me and ask? No. You didn't. I've checked in on you. Not once was I asked if anything was the matter. Not even a "thumbs-up." But you're a smart lad. And I know you'll understand this eventually. And on that day, you'll thank me. Until then, don't even talk to me.

But while we're on the subject of bad stuff, as good as things have been going for me socially online, it still didn't make a difference with our current situation in the real world. We were forced by our jerk-ass relatives to leave our late Grandma's house and needed somewhere to call home. Grandma had passed at the age of 93 in 2021. Natural causes. It was tough for all of us. Even tougher when we wouldn't even be paid back for all the expenditures we invested into all the medical supplies for Grandma. Complete opposite of what Mom had hoped for. Relatives pulled fast ones on us, and so we had to vacate. Fast-forwarding to our new place, our late Grandma's therapy cat - a grey tabby cat named Mommy Cat - died about a week before last Christmas. Natural causes as well. We couldn't afford vet bills for her anymore even with her having gone blind towards the end. So we gave her end-of-life care as well. Once again tough on all of us. But I've made my peace with them both. They're not suffering anymore.

Rewinding back to us trying to find a new place, we ended up finding one. And thanks to the GoFundMe I had posted, we were able to afford first and last month's rent for it. But it was a duplex. With many building concerns that violated bylaws when we pointed it out to them behind the corrupt landlords' backs. And those landlords were piiiissed. lol But last April, we were fortunate to land ourselves into another house. An end-unit town house that we can't really afford but are barely managing to and is still certainly a million times better than the last house. However Mom's annoyed with a few things about house number three, from the sump pump running constantly to having to wait forever for hot water (which apparently connected to the heater/AC) to the contractors not getting around to putting up a fence in the backyard like they promised us. To be fair, she had every right to complain as far as the sump pump issue; we did have a flood in the basement that would have damaged everything had I not have put down my older brother's gym mats all over the floor. lol But I digress. We're likely gonna move again in the future to somewhere else that we can't pay for. Greeeeat. ;uwu

In the world of art, I've been slowly but surely pushing myself more and more to try new things. Through and especially, they've supported me and encouraged me with inspiration and art tips to further my craft! To actually use images on Google as references! And through their help, they've gotten me to see that while I still have a ways to go with stuff like anatomy and proportions and perspective among other things (again, where do I even start!? TwT), I've sure as shit come so far from where I am now! :'D So far in fact that... I think it's time to start offering commissions! :3c If for no other reason, just to give myself some support on the side, especially if I ever wanna work on being on my own and affording things for myself. X'3 That said, while I've successfully completed my first-ever sketch page commission, I'm stiiiill gonna need some re-working on price lists for whatever I'm able to do before finalizing everything! Just hang in there a little longer! >w< Thank you very much, Alephmon & Epsi! ¡Les quiero muchoooo! ^////w////^

Heck, it's because of them and and Zoomlightbulbs that they helped rekindle my love for Digimon all over again! X3 A love that I never knew I needed in my life! ^w^ I even have a new Digimon sona as a result! Be on the lookout on this account for my Rookie Digi-ninja lion, Nekozukimon! :D Hell, I owe a lot to them and the Freelancers. They pulled me out of that terrible darkness from 2020 and 2021. When I befriended all of them after trying out VRChat, I began to smile all over again. When I was broken, Alephmon and Epsi alone gave me back my reason to believe. They pulled me out of the darkness. I'm truly blessed to have them in my life! ;///w///;

All in all, it's been a Hell of a shitstorm of both good and bad in the time between my last journal and this one (and even a bit earlier). And because of all of this, I'm so backlogged on art re-posting and con photo posting, not to mention having to write descriptions for allllllllllllllll of them. Hell, I still haven't gotten back into that yet! That's a task I feel like I'll have no time to invest in, especially with the crap we're dealing with right now. T_T Even if I did, I wouldn't even know or remember where the Hell to begin. Like, do I just post anything super-recent and then try to piece things together in bunches later on? If so, how useful is PostyBirb? I hear that's a thing, but nobody's truly walked me through it (I learn better by doing rather than "crash courses"). I've thought of just making a new page for myself altogether, but I have way too many friends on this account to just go and make a new one. ;@w@ Granted there are still some reminders of what made me depressed before. But the much-earlier stuff still makes me happy. So I'm gonna push through and stay right here. Besides I'd for sure give you a warning if I ever did make such a new account and deem this one "archived."

How about that? You made it to the end. At least, I hope you did. lol If you legitimately read all of this from start to finish, then you've truly earned my commendations. And if you understand where I'm coming with everything and support me, you have my undying gratitude, and I'm forever grateful.

I love you. You are awesome, and you should feel awesome.

...I'm not suicidal, but...

I don't want to exist anymore.

I made her leave 'cause I'm an accident...

I looked up to her...

I prayed for her...

I...

I wish I were dead.

Bad news... One of my awesome friends, , has been tested positive for the dreaded COVID-19. That means she must now self-isolate for some time. And that could very well mean the same for her mate, !

But you can help out by buying art commissions from her right this second (especially on the grounds that possibly testing positive as well could mean her not being able to go to work)!

Go check out 's latest Journal right this second for all the details.

Please! I beg of you! Those wonderful kitties need your aid! Buy stuff from them! Spread the word! Whatever will help! Go help and right now!

Trust me... in these times right now, every little bit can and will help.

Obviously that last journal was packed with depression, and I know that's not what you watch me for; I don't even have depression as far as I know (even that one other specialist that directed me to my CBT therapist said he'd plaster my forehead with a giant "NORMAL" stamp if he had one), but it's pretty obvious that things have been depressing and unlike me at all. So just to lighten some of the mood, and while I'm still trying to make sense of everything, here's some old Family Feud footage featuring Ray Combs as host and an underappreciated family that make me laugh every time. And one of them even takes over as host at one point! XP



Also I wouldn't mind some questions being sent my way on my CuriousCat page; gets pretty lonesome trying to answer those "Daily Questions" from the website itself. Come send me some questions today, and let's get chatting!

https://curiouscat.me/Leo_Nekozuki

And in the meantime, big shout-outs and thanks to those that still think of me and go out of their way to cheer me up and help make my days as of late better than worse, including for that adorable gift and for her delicious cookies. X3

I've been to a Blue Jays game and checked out Avengers: Endgame last month. I've still been checking out random videos on YouTube and checking out Vines that make me laugh. And in terms of Telegram, I'm trying to warm up to it again for at least one or two good friends that are talking to me and keeping tabs on me.

And normally, I'd make posts about that kind of stuff, especially if it puts me in a good mood.

But...

I just can't bring myself to do much other than engorge myself in phone games and YouTube. Why? 'Cause something else is killing me inside. It's like I'm not myself anymore. Haven't been that way in so fucking long. Probably longer than what happened in 2016 as much as I fear thinking it.

I'm still in-and-out with trying to get my thoughts together before I even focus on anything FE2019-related (let alone older artwork I've gotten from others that badly, badly, badly need to be re-posted). There's stuff I need to address - due to certain things coming up and certain things I can't avoid seeing - but... I just can't fucking focus anymore. Even when I try to, heavily upsetting and angry thoughts stir up, and I have to distract myself with YouTube. I've never been this miserable in my life. Never. I can hold conversations and be happy physically on the outside like I've always been, but I miss being content inside. Like I was all the time before last summer. And it's been impossible for me to sleep for the past couple of nights (though that's more so 'cause I'm now finding myself going to bed at 4:00am which is dangerous and ridiculous for me, but even that's 'cause of the stress and distractions keeping me up). Those "certain events" that happened to me have hurt me big-time. And it's like I still have to be punished for it. Basically... I'm not doing good. Certain others are doing well off. In one case, they're well off 'cause of me and my retarded emotions and actions due to misinterpreting something was hopeless; now it's even more hopeless for me. Long story.

Y'know how it is when you've been content all your life - even if not happy but sure as Hell doing all right - and then something serious going heavily against you fucks with your mind to no end? To the point where it's like you're always aware of your heartbeats and blood pressure and can't stop panicking and hoping that things could just go in your favor with the current shitty situation you have no control over? It's been fucking depressing.

I'm alive, and I'm here, but things are getting worse and worse for me despite how I may appear in comments as of late. Not just for my health and sanity but life at the house with Grandma and everybody else. Since last summer, it's like God's decided to make me a punching bag to constantly stab and is loving every second of it with my reactions and tears and struggles to get my thoughts and feelings out.

...

Something tells me that I'm not worthy of prayers. But if you love me, please pray for me.

I'll go ahead and post a happier journal for you now.

If you have me as a friend on Telegram, you may have noticed that I haven't been on there for the past couple of days straight recently.

I haven't died. I'm hanging in there. And I'm sure as Hell not abandoning Telegram 'cause it's too much fun (got Stickers for days; still would love to have or even make Stickers of my own character{s} someday). lol

Let's just say I'm trying to calm down and make sense a few personal things that have thrown me in for a loop. And even once I get that settled, I've got to get to work on all my FE2019 photo descriptions which I know I'm waaaaaaaay behind on. ;@_@

Just please keep a good thought and prayer for me and my emotions and that I can hopefully stay focused with certain things.

Hope your day's going all right in the meantime.

UPDATE (as of 09/04/19 at 10:00pm): Still not really in a mood to be as frequent on Telegram as I'd want to be, but that said, I will check messages once every other day or so. See how I feel like. Don't take it too personally if I don't reply to you right away or at all unless I'm needed for something that's urgent. So yeah. I'll still be reading, but I'm still sorting things out emotionally, so I may not be talky as much or at all, depending on my mood. Just let me do my own thing at my own pace, m'kay? M'kay.

Heeeeeeeey, it's been a while, eh?

First off, I'm well aware I have no FE2019 photos uploaded to yet. Please bear with me as I ended up taking quite a crap-ton of pics at the con this year and therefore had a lot of best-of-the-best photos to touch up. And even though all the touching-up is completed, I still have to write up description after description for all of them. God help me. lol I know that it's very daunting, and the progress is glacier-slow. But the thing is I love writing up fun/silly descriptions for such photos, and I don't want to just throw everything online with no context or "backstory." lol Rest assured that I'm still working on them all as fast as I can, and they will get done when they get done ASAP. On top of that, some photos you'll find on my FA, some you'll find on my Twitter, and some you'll find on both at once! So keep an eye out!

Secondly, I'm well aware that I haven't sat down and put up a post-FE2019 journal yet. That is so unlike me. Believe me. Lots have been happening (which I will explain in a moment or so), and I haven't been able to sit down and really focus on writing anything down knowing that I have all the photos to work on and still have to deal with some important life stuff at Grandma's house here in Innisfil. For that matter, by time I do have anything posted, you'll likely grow bored of missing FE2019 and want to move past that on, but please hold out a little longer. I'm doing my best to sharing so much that had happened at the con as soon as possible.

And more importantly - and this is deeply personal for me - I've come to apologize profusely for my lack of vocal activity as far as my own artwork and comments/journals and such. Suffice to say... these last few months have fucked me over in ways you cannot imagine. Mentally and emotionally. While I've been deemed physically all right and healthy, my mind refuses to let up on playing tricks on me or forcing me to repeat truths and hindsights over and over again to me. At the risk of being too personal with my life and what's been affecting me as of late, I'm gonna try and sum up (almost) everything to the best of my abilities... In a separate journal entry (or would it be safer to just Note you with my woes to spare any public venting and as long as you're super-trustworthy?). As deeply personal and painful as it is, though, I'll explain what had transpired to make me feel such torment - leaving out (almost all) actual names to protect any innocents in the process and thereafter refer to them by singular letters - to the point where I've more or less gone deadly silent on FA (and even on other platforms and IM's).

Right now, though, I don't wanna suck the fun out of a yearly FA summary journal that you always enjoy so much. lol

Now then! Six years on FA! Jeez, have I really been on here that long? Amazing how much time flies when you're having fun!

First off, if you're some of the few watchers that are new to my page or were already watching me to begin with, thank you so very much for taking time out to chill with me and enjoy my slow but fun growth as a furry artist, depictions of my characters by other artists, exceedingly-long journal ramblings about anything and everything in my life, and all other sorts of stuff! Feel free to hit me up with a shout or a Note! Plus thank you for checking me out on Twitter! I try my best to post as often as I can, but it's hard sometimes! lol And thank you for wanting to shoot the breeze with me or build up on our already awesome friendship via Instant Messengers! Or if you haven't done so yet and would like to, you can find me on Telegram, Skype, and even Discord a bit! And though I still have yet to gain profound notoriety like other artists/fursonalities pageviews-wise, numbers cannot compare to how wonderful you are to me! I'm happy to brighten your day even if it's just with a simple hug, joke, or whatever else!

It still sucks, sadly, that my happiness in the furry world doesn't exactly change how things are with us up in Innisfil (and with me regarding personal matters). Grandma's getting much worse now to the point where she's on palliative care, and Mom's aching all over helping Grandma. It sucks for Mom being a full-time caregiver 15 hours a day with no pay; very stressful what she puts up with from Grandma alone. And even with my help, it's still pretty trying and stressful for her. But I do whatever I can to bring Mom's spirits up, even if it's through so much as helping around the house; I'm glad to be Mom's source of sanity. lol

But when I haven't been helping Mom, I've been constantly watching YouTube, playing online games (though that hasn't been the case since last August), chatting with friends way late into the night, or trying to improve with my furry artwork (even though that, too, has ground to a halt since essentially last June due to stress [among other things like tablet driver issues])! Still got a ways to go with improvement, but it's always cool learning new things even if little bits at a time (still wish I could be faster, though, lol)! Either way, though, since FE2019 has passed, touching-up photos and writing descriptions for nearly all 180 of them has been way too tedious and daunting to get done quickly. Good luck, me. lol

Still haven't gotten back into exercising as much as I did that other year yet unfortunately. But given our life circumstances up here, none of us have the luxury to do anything anymore other than tend to Grandma as she slowly dies. I really wanna get back into exercising again and bulk up. I hate having all that progress go to shit.

At this point in time, I'd love to deeply thank all the unbelievably amazing and super-talented artists I've encountered and befriended - both on FA and at conventions - who have drawn my characters. It's always a real thrill to see my characters in your awesome art style! I appreciate everything you've had time to draw for me, and I continue to look forward to more of your super special awesome artwork, whether I'm featured in it or not. I just wish I were rich and had PayPal (or something more safe and secure) to buy more commissions from you and not just have to wait till a convention and pay you in-person. I hope we continue to keep in touch and chat, too. Plus if I've written backstories on artwork you've given me - and if you've read them - I hope you've enjoyed reading them as much as I did writing them as the art styles and pictures somehow just bring out the creative writing side of me to life and make something out of it.

Once again, being on FA for yet another year has been wonderful. And having said that, I continue to learn and pick up on some social situations and lessons along the way. Now that another year of being on FA is in the books, let me see what I've learned...

1) People change, and they'll change in ways that'll hurt you far more than you can imagine. And depending how much you love them, it'll hurt big-time. And it hurts to still be friends with them knowing there's nothing you can do other than be a "great guy" or "family" to them.

2) Sometimes, you need to step back and compare how good of a friend you're being to someone you're already good friends with and how they're being that way for you. And if things tend to side one way heavily, something isn't right. And it's not fair for you to put in all the effort and feelings for someone who suddenly doesn't feel that way for you anymore, even more so if you're still friends with them.

3) Fans, new friends, and even admirers reveal themselves when you least expect them, and they'll make you feel real good about yourself if they love what you do (and especially if they have all the empathy in the world for you).

4) As once wrote, drawing hand-paws makes up 90% of the artist community struggle.

5) I still have a lot of images that still need backstories written and deserve to be written sooner! But writing short stories for any submission I post - be they photos or re-posts of requests/commissions - takes up a huge chunk of time. But almost all the time I do that, I feel I've done a good job with what I've written in those descriptions as evidenced by the wonderful comments and replies I receive. That said, I think that if something deserves a long backstory - but I have no time to write it at the moment - I should just write "BACKSTORY PENDING" or something and come back to it later. 'Course my only concern is if I end up forgetting it later, then what!? Once again, I sadly haven't put that into practice yet.

Once again, you have my undying gratitude for sticking with me, and I'll do my best to continue growing as a furry artist as well as bring other things to the table that you might enjoy seeing from me or reading from me.

Feedback and notes are always welcome. I'd love to have a chat on Skype (theincrediblekman), Telegram (@leonekozuki), or even Discord (Leo Nekozuki#4719)! And if you're ever in the mood for some gamin', ask me to a Sm4sh Bros. match or two on the WiiU (K-MANisAWESOME). Yes, I said WiiU; I sadly don't have a Nintendo Switch or a copy of Super Smash Bros. Ultimate yet. You can also play TF2 with me (Leo_The_Ninja_Lion), though that fucking scam tainted the whole experience for me (I hope I can ever afford to buy everything back from scratch again and fast). There's also Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Links on my mobile phone that you can play me on (Duelist ID: 764-024-999). Go ahead and add me on my PS4, too (Leo_Nekozuki).

Hell, I wouldn't mind seeing any of my FA friends outside of FA; Innisfil can get pretty lonely, y'know!

Thanks for another fun-filled year on FA! Here's to a happy and (hopefully) healthy year - more importantly, a safe, successful, and non-stressful year - on FA as well (hopefully more successful than last year)!

Stay awesome,

Leo Nekozuki
Furry Fandom's Aspiring Ninja Lion

*****

C'mon, hurry, you're gonna be late for the minor statistics!

PROFILE STATS

By my calculations, as of today at 4:20pm (BLAZE IT!), I have 591 furries watching me (just about a 20% increase [if my math's correct] from last year's value of 493) while I'm watching 2300 of them (that's a 24% increase from last year's value of 1850). And of these furry watchers of mine, 's my 1^st watcher, 's my 100^th watcher, 's my 200^th watcher, 's my 300^th watcher, 's my 400^th watcher, and 's my 500^th watcher (I still haven't forgotten about making you a commemorative piece for that, dude!). I've had my profile page viewed over 21,000 times (roughly 5000 more since last year), and I have given nearly 8300 comments and still received roughly over 7000 comments each (quite the conversationalist I am, eh? ).

SUBMISSION STATS

In terms of the submissions I've posted, the most-viewed file I have is still my last "up-to-date" character concept of my fursona that I drew back in 2011 with 1400 views. The submission with the most favorites is now 's request drawing for me of Leona Mika bound underwater a la Aladdin (accompanied with my own short story) which is on 47 "Favorites" lists. And the title for the most commented-on submission still belongs to my initial coloured character concept of my fursona that I made back in 2010 which still has 34 comments (including my own comments).

I've already posted this on Twitter, but allow me to ask here as well...

Out of interest, if I wanted to look into getting another fursuit for myself in the future, are there any fursuit makers in the GTA whose prices/quality I can check out?

As a first-time buyer of a fursuit, I had no knowledge of the do's and don'ts to go off of as far as getting fursuits. I basically went for it.

That said, these are the things I would find out for myself before signing any contracts next time...

1) When starting off with my DTD, I would tell the fursuit builder whether it's too tight or loose on me.

2) If I'm quoted on USD prices, and the buyer tells me that material was paid for in CAD, would I be reimbursed?

3) I would find out the geographics of where it's being made, enabling fittings throughout the manufacturing stage.

4) I would make sure that that suit would be tailored to me and not modified or pieced together to correct any imperfections.

Like I said, though it wasn't a terrible experience or a terrible fursuit overall, I now feel that it could've been a better experience.

So if there's another maker in the GTA that I could look into - and they have a website - I'd gladly research them.

I can be flexible around their schedule to meet with them regularly during the WIP to ensure optimal fitting measurements and comfort and even pick up the finished product at their end. I would be as thorough and detailed with any and all questions and concerns I'd have with them, too.

Thank you for your attention to the matter. Any and all help into discovering more fursuit makers in the GTA would be very much appreciated.

All right, well... Good news. I'm back into Steam once again. I'm able to play my games and all that good stuff.

But...

The damage has already been done and then some. If I didn't know any better, I'd say the so-called "verified" Fraud Prevention guy was a fraud himself. He got away with all the fucking tradeable and marketable items. Everything I've paid for. Two Unusuals, all my Stranges, and all but one Taunt. Lots of money and metal invested in all of them... Gone. I got fuckin' robbed. Scammed. Double-crossed. Fucked in the ass without lube, whatever you wanna call it.

I just can't fucking believe this. That's two scammers in my life now. And while Steam Support went out of their way to help me with getting back into my account again, I sincerely doubt they'll help me retrieve my stuff on account of me being a total fucking accident of a dumbass that probably should've been aborted 'cause of the insane amounts of retardation residing within.

*sighs in anger and breathes deeply to himself for a while, still shook-up*

So yeah. Life's not good for me right now. I'm not in a good place.

If there are such things as miracles, I could sure fucking use one right about now. If there's a way to get back all my items, please tell me. I'll love you forever. Hell, I'll be your art slave forever.

If not... Thanks anyway.

At the very least... I need a hug. A lot of hugs.

I hate myself.

...I'm fucking depressed.

Out of nowhere, I get approached by a random Steam user - simply named theGameWizerd - who's part of the Steam Community Fraud Prevention. He claimed that someone put a ticket on me saying that I had duplicated items. And the items in question were pretty much all my Strange or Unusual items in TF2. I checked the guy who approached me, and he's legit, so I followed his orders to make sure everything can be verified. The only problem was that two other Strange items just got uncrated and couldn't be traded till after the 6th and 8th of August. He even said he'd be okay with that.

I followed every precaution, set my Inventory to Public status and even gave numerous links and such (i.e trade URLs, verification codes from the trades).

And then, without warning... All my Steam windows go grey. And I tried three times getting back in, being utterly careful with my password as always. It's gone. Fucking everything.

I've invested dollars into fucking Steam (majority being for TF2). I've played countless hours into my games. I've made numerous friends online.

And poof.

All gone.

Without warning.

I haven't even bothered getting in touch with Steam support; I'm already shook-up as it is. Though I doubt they would be able to help. I'm just... I'm just distraught. Emotionally shot. I look all right on the outside, but inside, I'm a fucking mess.

That... Wasn't fair at all.

I've been one of the fairest traders ever! I've followed procedures accordingly! And now this...

Y'know what the shittiest part is? I had all those friends, and if I had known shit like this was gonna go down, I would've looked up all my friends one last time. Now I can't even remember a lot of them except by real names or something. And they'll probably be looking for me, too. This just sucks on so many levels.

...

...

...

I've been bullied on there before. I've been scammed in a trade before. And now this. Without warning.

Why me?

You may or may not be wondering why I haven't uttered a peep virtually all month and a bit more. I mean I know I'm not as sociable as pretty much everyone else in the fandom, but jeez, I gotta get in the habit of updates often even if they're pointless or something, y'know? I can't even push myself into being on Twitter all the time.

Well, some good news to kick things off. After 14 years of being separated from Dad, Mom finally got her divorce from him. And she ended up winning her case in Family Court against him for avoiding paying for arrears and - long story short - lying his fucking ass off. My older brother is emotionally crushed by this as he puts Dad on a pedestal, but he and Dad are the same, and I don't bat an eye to either one of them. I may love Dad, but I'll never love the man he is now. Let's put it at that. But yes, Mom is absolutely thrilled from the outcome having over-prepared with countless documents and paper trails that would put even Phoenix Wright to shame. Granted, Mom wasn't able to get the raise in spousal support from Dad like she asked for, but she's thankful to still be getting it monthly from Dad, and he's pissed beyond belief that he has to pay it.

Basically, as Marcassin would say it, "justice has been done!"

Meanwhile, in terms of health... It's not looking so good for me. I mean my physical ended up turning out just about perfect (while my B12 was double than what it should be, lol). As for my blood pressure... It was read as a little too high that time. So the doc had me taking my blood pressure twice a day for ten days. Tried it for three days, and as calm as I tried to be, the numbers were right up there. Mom and I just dismissed them ultimately on account of our manual blood pressure monitor likely being too old. We brought it up with the doc on Monday, and discussed the idea of looking into my medical records from 2016 showcasing such a situation I had back then which could possibly help prove that I'm otherwise okay.

Shortly after the appointment, Mom and I started talking, and I brought up the idea that maybe it wasn't high blood pressure that was the big issue so much as what was likely causing it... anxiety. I mean when I think about it, my diet hasn't changed much - wasn't even a problem last year either - especially considering that no salt has been added on top of any natural salt if that makes sense. And high amounts of stress can really do damage to a lion like myself if something's bothering him mentally. And, well, something has been on my mind so to speak. Let's just say that a very close friend of mine - and they know they are - has been giving me some terrible news and bombshells since late last month that have been hitting them just as hard as they've been hitting me hard. Real hard. Same applies from learning of other saddening news here and there from other good friends of mine and knowing that I can't do jack-shit to make them smile or make their lives any better.

As such, I haven't exactly been happy for essentially nearly a month-and-a-half. My heart has been racing, my mind's been distracted, and my drive to draw has been quelled for a damn long time which is never good for an artist to have (even if this artist is mediocre at best compared to everyone else on FA, lol). And because of the latter, I haven't been able to carry out any artistic plans that I've wanted to do like make birthday drawings for some friends of mine well in advance or any fun, personal stuff for myself. So you can imagine how much that has thrown me off mentally and how shitty I feel about that. I hate having to do things belated once again, but if I have to be this lame, so be it. They'll get it when they get it, and I hope they'll understand the lateness.

And while we're on the subject on not feeling good, so many fucking fursuiting friends I know and cherish got to meet the one-and-only Ace earlier in the month! And I never fucking knew about it! Like a little invite would be nice even if I can't go! But either way, fucking dammit! I miss out on all the fun! I haven't even done anything Pride Day/Month-related in general for the fandom (i.e. artwork, photos) while everyone else goes out and has a fucking whale of a time!

Oh, and I can forget about friggin' Canada Day coming up soon! My older brother will be in Newmarket working, Mom will still be taking care of Grandma all day - oh, by the way, Grandma cannot walk on her legs anymore and requires transport in any situation (i.e. bathroom, car rides, hospital) - and I'm just one lonely dude who gets to have the thrill of basically every furry friend of mine living it up except me.

I just hate my luck and my life sometimes... I have what a good friend of mine describes to me as the Felling of Missing Out (FoMO), and it's not a good feeling at all. I guess mine must be a permanent case.

But I digress. Sorry to carry on like that.

As far as the anxiety theory is concerned, me and Mom are planning on writing something up for my doctor and dropping off at his office (either this week or the next) before we see him two days before my birthday in August. Heh, how fitting. If I get nothing but bad news there and have to be put on fucking pills for life or worse, I'll remember that as a terrible birthday. Yay.

Please do me a favor and keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I mean I would hope that everything will be okay - and I'm even taking some green tea and chamomile tea at night lately to help combat high blood pressure - but with the way things have been since earlier this month and having all the big changes from everyone else just hitting me hard, I fear it may lead me into news I don't wanna hear from my doctor.

But I just gotta remember to breathe. As my best friend always quotes from her favourite song, "it's always darkest before the dawn."

As of 10:51pm last night, I finally got my 500^th watcher on FA! I mean I've pointed milestones like this out to many other users here, but for once, I get to celebrate such a number! lol For me, I appreciate every watcher that I get; whatever I've done to deserve getting you to be a devoted follower - especially if you were one of the early one from five years ago - I'm happy to have brought a smile to your face and hope to continue doing so with what I try to accomplish on here now. And needless to say, I've made many wonderful and outstanding friends over the course of being on FA, all of whom have positively impacted me one way or another. You have my undying gratitude.

Now that being said, the very same 500^th watcher - - made me realise something: I should do something to commemorate the occasion! More than likely, something art-related!

I could likely do a raffle, but I'd have to plan out the rules carefully so that no one tries to abuse the system or whatever. Also I could likely do something right away anyway for those that have helped me reach every hundredth watcher milestone, too; I just thought of that actually. lol But ultimately, we'll see. So stay tuned!

Also keep in mind I'm sure as Hell not as fast as just about every artist on FA, and I'm still trying to learn and develop as one, but you wouldn't mind that, right?

So until further notice...

THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR WATCHING ME! YOU ARE AWESOME, AND YOU SHOULD FEEL AWESOME!

Still have loads more photos from FE2018 to come (hopefully I can get through all of them today), but allow me to squeeze in some time here to announce my five-year being-on-FA milestone!

That's right! Hard to believe with all the drama, DDoS attacks, shock image dumps, and other things that have happened to this random site that is FurAffinity, here I am five years later still faithful as ever. lol

First off, whether you're new to my page or have already been watching me, thank you very much to taking time to hang out with me and check out things like my slow but fun progression as a furry artist, depictions of my characters by other artists, long journal ramblings about anything and everything in my life, and more! Feel free to hit me up with a shout or a Note! If you're looking for Instant Messengers, you can find me on Telegram and Skype (y'know, the IM that's being raped by Telegram?). And though I still have a long way to go to be noticed like other artists/fursonalities pageviews-wise, numbers cannot compare to how wonderful you are to me chilling out with this ninja lion! I'm happy to brighten your day even if it's just with a simple hug!

And you can find me on Twitter, too! Speaking of which, I'm happy to announce that I've surpassed the 100-follower milestone (especially thanks to those FE2018 GIFs I've posted, lol)! Whatever it was I've done to get your attention on there, I thank you deeply for feeling that I'm cool enough to be followed! Hopefully I can try to keep up with posts as often as I can, but I can't make any promises!

It still sucks, sadly, that my happiness in the furry world doesn't exactly change how things are with us up in Innisfil. Grandma's condition's slowly getting worse, and Mom's being run ragged helping Grandma. It sucks for Mom being a full-time caregiver 15 hours a day with no pay; very stressful what she puts up with from Grandma alone. That's why I always stay behind and help Mom whenever and however I can, be it with errands or whatever else; I'm glad to be Mom's source of sanity. lol

But when I haven't been helping Mom, I've been constantly watching YouTube, playing online games, chatting with friends way late into the night, or - thanks to my wonderful and outstanding best friend - drawing more and more furry artwork! Still lots to learn and lots of room to grow, but I'm enjoying learning and improving even if it's tiny bits at a time (wish I could be faster, though, lol)! Were it not for that awesome Anurian I'm proud to call a best friend, I wouldn't have had the encouragement and guidance to keep going and never give up with my attempts! Hopefully I can keep on improving! Of course, since the whole convention-going and photo-uploading's been a real time-consumer, please keep a good thought for me whenever I (hopefully soon) get back into furry artwork again!

I've also been exercising as well especially last year, but long story short, I stopped around November, and I haven't had time to go back to the gym at all since. I really wanna try and bulk up, but now that I'll be off my gym membership - my older bro's been helping me this whole time with that each month, so I wanna thank him for that - I haven't had the finances nor time to get the proper exercise I need to gain healthy weight again. Here's hoping I'm able to get back into the whole exercising thing somehow; I have the definition, but I wanna get bigger!

Now at this time, I'd love to deeply thank all the spectacular and wicked-sick artists I've encountered and befriended - both on FA and at conventions - as they've drawn my characters. You don't know how awesome you really are and how exciting it is for me to see any of my characters through your eyes! I'm always appreciative of you taking the time to make those drawings for me, and I look forward as always to more of your super special awesome artwork, whether I'm featured in it or not. I hope we continue to keep in touch and chat. Plus if I've written backstories on artwork you've given me - and if you've read them - I hope you've enjoyed reading as much as I did writing them as the art styles and pictures somehow just bring out the creative writing side of me to life and make something out of it.

Of course, being on FA for yet another year has been a blast as always. And having said that, I continue to learn and pick up on some social situations and lessons along the way. Now that another year of being on FA is in the books, let me see what I've learned...

1) Being at a con in fursuit is far more epic than just being at a con as your regular self!

2) Don't just buy from someone because they're you're friend when it comes to looking for quality and comfort; always do your research and be patient a little while longer even if it kills you.

3) Sometimes, you just have to grow a pair and tell someone that something's bothering you, especially when it comes to something like bad business management regarding a commission you've been waiting on for nearly a year. Of course, it's hard to try and convey it professionally as a customer and not be an asshole about it, but as long as you take your time with your words, it should be doable. And if the artist still has a problem - whether the issue's resolved or not - fuck 'em.

4) Once again, I have a lot of images that still need backstories written and deserve to be written sooner! But writing short stories for any submission I post - be they photos or re-posts of requests/commissions - takes up a huge chunk of time. But almost all the time I do that, I feel I've done a good job with what I've written in those descriptions as evidenced by the wonderful comments and replies I receive. That said, I think that if something deserves a long backstory - but I have no time to write it at the moment - I should just write "BACKSTORY PENDING" or something and come back to it later. 'Course my only concern is if I end up forgetting it later, then what!? It's an idea I had last year, too, but I never really put that into practice.

5) As a certain sun-shiny canine shared with me before, as admirable as it is to put problems into perspective, I shouldn't automatically deem my problems at my end insignificant. They're my troubles, and they're important to me. Plus we all have problems to deal with, so it's understandable that we just need very good friends or any kind souls to lean on who'll be more than happy to lend an ear. Even if they can't make the problem going away, having someone there to hear you out can help you big time. :'3

Once again, you have my undying gratitude for sticking with me, and I'll do my best to continue growing as a furry artist as well as bring other things to the table that you might enjoy seeing from me or reading from me.

Feedback and notes are always welcome. I'd love to have a chat either on Skype (theincrediblekman) or Telegram (@leonekozuki)! And if you're ever in the mood for some gamin', ask me to a Sm4sh Bros. match or two on the WiiU (K-MANisAWESOME), or you can play TF2 or Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Links with me on Steam (Leo_The_Ninja_Lion). Go ahead and add me on my PS4, too (Leo_Nekozuki).

Hell, I wouldn't mind seeing any of my FA friends outside of FA; Innisfil can get pretty lonely, y'know!

Thanks for another fun-filled year on FA! Here's to a happy and healthy year - more importantly, a safe and successful year - on FA as well (hopefully more successful than last year)!

Stay awesome,

Leo Nekozuki
Furry Fandom's Aspiring Ninja Lion

*****

Aw, yeah, you've been waiting for these minor statistics, haven't ya?

PROFILE STATS

By my calculations, as of today at 4:00pm, I have 493 furries watching me (just about a 15% increase from last year's value of 429) while I'm watching 1850 of them (that's a 13% increase from last year's value of 1643). And of these furry watchers of mine, 's my first watcher, 's my 100^th watcher, 's my 200^th watcher, 's my 300^th watcher, and 's my 400^th watcher. I've had my profile page viewed over 16,000 times (roughly 3000 more since last year), and I have given nearly 6500 and received roughly over 7000 comments each (quite the conversationalist I am, eh? ).

SUBMISSION STATS

In terms of the submissions I've posted, the most-viewed file I have is still my last "up-to-date" character concept of my fursona that I drew back in 2011 with 1327 views. The submission with the most favorites is, yet again, 's digital colour sketch of my fursona from FE2013 which is still on 36 "Favorites" lists. And the most commented-on submission goes to my initial coloured character concept of my fursona that I made back in 2010 still with 34 comments (including my own comments).

Well, "fortunate and unheard of" in my case anyway.

But alas, 'tis true. Hard to believe that Furnal Equinox 2018 was just a couple weeks ago. But damn it all if I didn't have fun this year, just like every year.

And it was an especially fun year for me since I got to parade around in my very own fursuit! Fully completed as of last October by my awesome friend, Kiyani (a.k.a. ), my fursona was in fursuit form for a change, running around and hanging out and being all-around random! I'd talk all day about what I think of the incredible fursuit of mine, but I'd rather save that for a separate journal or discussion. But in a nutshell, though my form-fitting bodysuit is incredibly tight and hard to move in - for scenarios like getting back up (from lying down) and sitting down and holding a karate kick for more than a second - the problems were overshadowed by my active and outgoing behaviour, exaggerating my movements and running about with my amazing friends! Of course, one other hitch with my suit is it takes a while to put on; about 10-15 minutes, but that's only 'cause I always second-guess how to put on certain things in whatever order, not to mention trying to carefully put on the wardrobe on top of the bodysuit! Speaking of which, I got the muscle shirt and pants from Wal-Mart but painted on the designs myself! Also after 20 minutes into wearing the fursuit head, my own head starts sweating buckets! lmao But hey, I like the suit, and it feels very fulfilling giving fursuit hugs for a change (all of which were very fluffy and cuddly)!

"But Leo, you never posted photos of yet nor made any big debuts on FA with it? WTF?" Yeah... Life sucks, and things up here at Grandma's house take precedence. Still, I apologise for being totally lame. I'll try to make it up somehow and do a fairly decent "debut" on FA soon.

What really got me smiling and laughing were both compliments with how well I looked in it and shocking reactions when they found out who that ninja lion was!

That said, you never know if I'll look into getting a "Leo 2.0" someday (and why not? Just about every fursuiter has a "Version 2.0" of sorts! lmao).

But I'm rambling (which I will do a lot here, lol), so let's move on.

With the theme being "Livin' Large," I was once again at a loss for ideas. Just like last year's theme, this theme-guy felt rather limited in ideas. After all, neither my fursona nor myself are rich (as much as we want to be), and just about everyone would've gone with the whole "make it rain" idea, so I kinda gave this year's theme a shrug. More importantly, I kinda read between the lines a little bit, seeing a subtle financial status/class difference more prominent among others. It's like this con was indirectly labeling Attendees as poor, Sponsors as... well, you get the idea. Like I know it wasn't their intention by a long-shot, but people can get the wrong idea that way. lol

Might wanna get a snack or two before carrying on with this journal 'cause I'm gonna write a lot. lmao But if you're ready, here we go!

PRE-CON MOVE-IN

I checked into my fancier corner king room this year - Room 2639 - and holy shit, was it a fantastic view! You could see all of the pier and the lake! And when the sun glistened on it each day throughout the con, forget about it! It's like I was living in a postcard!

I made it to the Pre-Reg line roughly a half-hour before 6:00pm where I'd eventually get my sweet Supersponsor package. This time, it was around the downstairs escalators of the convention area (near the room where the Dead Dog Party was last year) which was very misleading. As expected, there was a fairly long line-up that would take its sweet time, but the wait wasn't too bad time-wise; just a shame that we had to be held up for ten extra minutes or so due to equipment setup. But incredibly, I happened to be behind two talented artistic figures in the fandom: and ! I just did some fun small talk with them - especially noticing that they were doing a livestream on their phone - and complimented how awesome their work is (especially with their latest project "Cuckshack" in the works), adding that I wished I could buy something from them someday, but I don't have PayPal due to concerns and security and such (that and I do in-person payments because of that). Now normally, artists I'd share that with would just leave it at that. But long story short, Kabier gave me some pretty useful, outstanding, and simple-as-fuck tips that can help with me setting up a PayPal account of my own. She even wrote down the instructions for me which I gotta give props to her for, being all super special awesome to do that for me. So who knows? When I get time to look into it, I may be able to pay for commissions sometime soon! Won't just jump into things yet though; life and stuff. lol But if you're reading this, Kabier, you're friggin' amazing to go out of your way to offer some guidance for me! Thank you very much!

I headed for the pool at 8:30pm after dinner. Now last year, the place was swamped with kids. This time? Not a soul! None! Like it was dead silent inside! Even the locker rooms looked clean and tidy! You'd think that the area would be jumpin' with kids or other FE guests by then! But hey, I wasn't complaining! lol I was pretty much all to myself swimmin' around and havin' a good time! I mean about ten minutes later, a couple of random girls came in, but they pretty much spent a majority of time in the hot tub anyway, so I wasn't bothered!

And naturally, after being in the pool, I went around with my SLR camera (which is sadly on its last legs since the date always keeps resetting to 1980 for some reason) and got some early shots before the actual con would start. But after a few minutes of doing that, I thought, "screw it, I'm breaking in my fursuit." I gave it an early test run going around and having a fun time getting photos with me in fursuit! It was a lot of fun! Granted, it gets pretty damn annoying to pull out my iPhone every single time I wanted someone to take a photo with it - especially when I have to take off my hand-paw first to get it out of the damn pocket - but throughout the con, I got used to it. Also that night, a lot of patrons from the bar were having a field day with us; lots of guys in business clothing and such were hanging around us and getting photos. I regret not using my iPhone to get this one photo of a guy making a group of us look like we were praising him - which was friggin' hilarious - but we all had a good laugh the very same. I even talked with a patron or two what the whole con was about, sharing how fun it is, and it really brought smiles to their faces!

DAY 1

DEALER'S DEN EARLY ACCESS

Once again, it's very misleading of FE to tease con-goers with the promise of "early Dealer's Den access" without adding a footnote that the early access would commence a long while after the Opening Ceremonies. I mean we had to wait about 20 minutes before the doors opened. And by the time it'd be 12:30pm, the Supersponsors only got 10 minutes to themselves before the whole Den got swamped. That said, the wait was worth it as always to get a commission from many talented artists I knew and love, including whom I was totally looking forward to a lot this year knowing her work! She even knew who I was having commented with hype on her journals and was happy to draw a commission for me at last (and in good time, too)! Also this year in the Den throughout the whole weekend, a first happened: I've commissioned an artist twice in the same con! That honor this year went to whom I knew would do my G-Shep femboy character Sebby a lot of justice with her quality! And she did! But one of the shocking things I learned this year as far as the Den... there was not one sign of anywhere! I was hoping to do a final chapter between Leo and Vivienne with her work, but she wasn't there!

Hmm... Maybe I should make something then...

After that, I went back into my room and suited up, walking around and getting photos with friends old and new! And again, it was so much fun! I was getting used to hastily taking off my hand-paw to reach in my pocket for my iPhone and get photos. lol Man, it was fun interacting with my friends and seeing their reactions when they knew who I was!

At one point, I went over to the YouTube Panel doors while it was part-way through, hoping that I'd find a certain fursonality there. Unfortunately not. Buuuut I'll get to that later. While hanging around, I met some familiar faces and got photos with them, including who was nice enough to not only take some photos with me but also spontaneously do an action GIF where I kick him into a pile of boxes! lmao I believe it was either his idea or his friend's idea, I'm not sure; but there happened to be a bunch of boxes that'd help make for one cool cinematic (y'know how in movies where guys get kicked into fake blocks or something? lol). Plus the infamous Kiyani was there, too, and after hugging her, she slipped something in my back pocket! It was a special invitation to her annual FE Sausage Party in her room for Day 2! So that was pretty cool! In addition, I met this adorably sweet new suiter by the name of Kaluha (a.k.a. ) who was a very nice and kind Pomchi (Pomeranian Chihuahua) girl. She and I not only did some photos with each other, but we had some fun chats together at the time for a while. I wish I could remember what we both shared off the top of my head, but so much happened at the con that I can't remember shit! lmao Needless to say, however, she seemed very sweet and funny and kind. Had a lot of fun hanging out with her along with the other few suiters outside those panel doors. Nearing the end of the panel, I figured that I'd never get to see the guy I was looking for in question, so I just went elsewhere for more fursuit photo ops.

FURRY IMPROV

For this year's session of insanity improv, I decided to give it a shot in fursuit! Incredibly, I lost for the first time ever in "Zip-Zap-Zoop" - a quick-fire intro game - thanks to a mental lapse in judgment somehow (and I'm not gonna explain it as it'd be too complicated). lmao That said, however, the next game right after was the classic Whose Line is it Anyway? game of "Questions Only." I fucking dominated that game, taking out eight opponents in a row (which I got a lot of commendation for afterward from the audience)! After that game, I took off my head and went to the side to get a drink from a water cooler. As I walked over, I passed a table where a sweet lioness I befriended earlier in the day - Lyra Lionheart (not on FA) - was sitting along with a blonde-haired girl that somehow made me think that she looked a little familiar. Turns out when I got my water and went to turn back that she went up behind me, and I was all "Wait... HOLY FUCK!" It was a friend of mine since grade school! Small flippin' world! Turns out that friend of mine was Lyra Lionheart's cousin and stayed with her at the con! Unbelievable! We were so happy to see each other again, and we all got photos together! So not only have I made a new friend, but I reconnected with an old one I haven't seen in God-knows-how-long! Welcome to Furnal Equinox, where anything is possible! lmao

DAY 2

FURSUIT GAMES

First time I practically had the damn suit on the whole day. But it was essentially worth it. I mean I started wearing it around 11:30pm, roughly when the Fursuit Games would start. Thing is I wanted to be part of the Games but didn't know if I had to sign up for them officially or just show up. Fortunately the night before, as I made my way to the elevators to get to my room, I came across Strypes (a.k.a. ) who's the referee for the Fursuit Games, and I asked him what the deal about it was. He explained to me - while saying not to quote him on anything, which I understand, lol - that they're kinda done during the con albeit earlier and to ask Gauge (a.k.a. ), the leader of the Fursuit Games, about sign-ups. So when Day 2 came, I found Gauge while in fursuit at 11:45am and inquired, to which he said that they were done in the Headless Lounge, but the sheet was already closed. However he did tell me to wait around in the lounge anyway for five minutes before the games started, and if certain furs on the list didn't show up in time, I'd get a slot. Sure enough, some didn't end up making it, and I was a last-minute addition! Talk about lucky! lol Of the three teams of suiters, I was placed on Team Orange... Which ended up being Team Green due to a naming error on Gauge's part. lmao But yeah, the Games were a lot of fun! We won the first event involving getting a hoop through all of us joining hand-paws, and then we almost won the ball-toss event. The last event was an obstacle course that ended with modelling clothing down a runway... or, rather, paper images of name-brand and no-name-brand clothing/items down a walkway. lol I had perfect concentration with balancing the ball for the obstacle course, and I flaunted perfectly with my swaggerin' walk down the walkway, swiftly turning my back to the audience for added effect and finished off with shakin' mah tail at 'em! We all had a lot of fun with that event. In the end, the team that got first place... was Team Orange. We got second place, and Blue Team - who literally scored nothing, lmao - got third place. Shame I didn't get gold for my first-ever Fursuit Games, but I don't care. I still had fun anyway! And got a sweet Silver tag out of it! Plus to be fair, we were accidentally called Team Orange originally... So if we wanted be anal about it, then technically, we won first place, too.

FURSUIT FIESTA

Interestingly enough, the new event - that replaced the Fursuit Parade - was organised so that it wouldn't be like popufurs only and such as I originally suspected. There was a schedule of what groups of fursuiters to showcase and get photos of in three separate areas in the large room. There were groups like black-and-white suiters, canines, felines (wild/domestic), etc. But the very first one was all suiters at the con! The big group photo! And I feel I got a very sweet spot in the center area close to the front (and I remember was in front of me [thanks for the group selfie btw])! The con has yet to post that photo, but we'll see how that turns out! Also in hindsight... I'm not sure if I should've given a non-suiter my phone as well when it came time for the feline photo-shoot, 'cause sadly - with exception to posting a photo of it - there's literally no high-quality photos of the feline photo-shoot. I'm so distraught and disappointed. Does nobody care about cats anymore?

Some time after the Fiesta ended, though, my buddy not only photo-bombed me in a solo photo but asked me simply, "hey, do you wanna join us for like a small parade around the hotel?" I laughed and explained to him that I had the same idea and even had a poster all made up for the occasion where I planned to walk around on my own as a solo parading fursuiter. I had a yellow bristol board and wrote in permanent black marker the following: #LoneliestFursuitParade. When I got the poster from my room and came back, he had a good laugh. We got in a small line - there were five or six of us - and we just started walking around the hotel and having a good time getting attention. Maybe not everyone's attention, but it didn't matter. We still made a few people and fursuiters laugh along the way and even got our photos taken. Reeeeally kicking myself, though, for not thinking of, like, briefly stopping the parade to get someone to take a photo of us with the sign (that way, I could've trended it on my furry Twitter). Alas, I didn't think of it. I know, I'm an idiot. But if you happened to see that same small parade of fursuiters with that yellow sign and got a photo of us, please send it to me! I beg of you! I will be so fucking happy; you will have made my day!

Shortly after our little episode of malarkey, I began my search once again for the fursuiter I was hoping to run into the day before. Let me explain. The guy in question was none other than himself, the loveable Australian dingo well-known for his gentle nature and overall positive attitude, sending positive vibes in tweets and random vids! Now, being on Twitter, I happened to notice a couple of days before the con that he made a certain tweet talking about how "fine" is translated when responding to the question of "how are you?" Intrigued, I replied asking if I could share my two cents about that, to which he didn't mind me sending him a Direct Message. I basically shared with him nutshells of what was going on at my end as far as family, but I made sure to put a positive spin on everything; after all, no matter how dark things get, I gotta press forward, right? lol The day I left for the hotel, he replied to my DM, thanking me for sharing what's up with me, offering some very refreshing and kind words of encouragement from him. This dude's just absolutely wonderful! I cannot stress enough how cool Sunny Dingo is. I also found out that he was boarding a plane for Toronto for FE! I friggin' lost my shit when I read that! I had no idea in the first place he'd be coming! And when I learned that he'd be at the YouTube Panel on Day 1, that's where I'd go. But I couldn't find him anywhere that day. Turns out that he was delayed and would be there by Day 2.

Long story short, after a long period of phone-tag/Twitter-tag between him and I, my eyes widened to the sight of Sunny Dingo! I called his name and ran up to him, giving him a big hug, and he was happy to see me at last! lmao I personally thanked him for reading my message and being very empathetic. He was very understanding, essentially telling me that we all have our own battles and just need someone to lean on and talk to. He was happy to help being a good listener. How awesome is he, eh? After we gave each other some big hugs, we got a photo together in fursuit, and my mission was accomplished!

HOJOZILLA'S SAUSAGE PARTY

Once again, no, it wasn't that kind of a Sausage Party. No, it was another evening of Kiyani - whom I have an absolute fursuit-crush for even still - serving any and all invited party-goers actual hot dogs and breakfast sausages. I already had dinner beforepaw, so I didn't have much there except for some "punch." We had a fun few hours there overall! Good music and good friends, and I got to hang with other cool peeps there, including and !

IF I FITS, I SITS - CRITTERS IN BOXES

When I first read that such a panel would be at the con, I had my doubts about how many would actually show up and whether it'd be fun. But oh, boy, was it ever silly. A few fursuiters and loads of boxes made for all sorts of random shit to happen, from box forts to box hats to even box robots, us fursuiters had all kinds of funny ideas! And lots of photo opportunities were had, too!

FURSUIT DANCE

After the craziness of that party, I went down to the Dance Party in the main convention area. I actually went mainly at the inquiry of the one new friend I made, Kaluha, who'd ask me if I'd be able to go to both on Day 1 and Day 2. I'd reply each time with "I hope I can, but we'll see!" But I ended up making it after all! Even if it wasn't for the whole evening, now I can say I was a part of it! And I gotta say that it was actually pretty fun; when I'm in fursuit and in a dark room, I get to lose myself to the music and move my arms around without any fear of looking stupid; I just danced however I liked to the music, and it felt invigorating! And after dancing to myself a bit, I met up with Kaluha and surprised her, saying "see? Told ya I'd show up!" She was very happy to see me again, and we danced together! It was a lot of fun! I totally wanna do more fursuit dancing again next year! Especially longer than this year if I can! lol And I don't know who would've been DJ-ing at the time after midnight, but whoever was there, great job!

DAY 3

For a majority of the day, I got to run around in fursuit some more as well as keep some stuff in my room for and her friends till Closing Ceremonies (I had a big room, so it was more than okay! lol). I got some more fursuit hugs and photo-ops, including some at the Fursuit Photo Booth at long last which was nice! Speaking of which, , I'm so sorry that we didn't get any fursuit photos together at all this year like we had hoped. We had bad timing! lmao Hopefully we'll be able to secure some photos together - especially at the Fursuit Photo Booth - next year!

And at one point early afternoon, I crossed paths with Sunny Dingo again, and I thanked him once again for being so awesome and complimenting him on how big an impact he's made in the furry fandom! That's when he surprised me with a very sweet gift: a small red pack of his own personal trading cards! I never knew he had something like that, and I guess they were limited, so that was such a huge honor to get that from him! The pack contains five cards showcasing notable fursuiters - including him of course, lol - and facts about them. Wicked! This is like the equivalent of being surprised with a personalised energy drink from Flux (a.k.a. )! lol Still, I really hope Sunny Dingo enjoyed himself at the con and that he'll come back next year; would love to have more photo-ops with him!

DEAD DOG DANCE

Okay, again, where the fuck did the term "dead dog" come from? Like was this sort of after-con event based on someone's dog dying long ago? Not even WikiFur knows the origin of such a term. Please help me understand this.

That being said... I was about an hour late 'cause I needed to eat dinner. In hindsight, I could've put it off till after it'd end at 10:00pm, but I'll do that next year. lol I ended up bringing down some candy and and cookies for anyone that wanted to eat 'em. I also brought down my fursuit sandals in the hopes that I'd show Kiyani - when she'd show up - what the damage was and if it could be fixed. See, the right sandal got broken off a bit around the strap area; don't know how it happened, but it happened for sure on the same day.

When she did arrive, I showed her the sandals, and she was sad to see the condition the one sandal was in, but she was more than happy to fix it. So she told me to leave them with her and have them fixed for me later on. But before we did that, we decided then and there to take care of some photo-ops and video-making, so I temporarily put my sandals on a table in the Dead Dog Dance/Party. Plus I gotta say it felt weird but fun walking around in bare feet-paws.

After I quickly put the sandals on the table with the candy and cookies, we took care of some photo-shoots together as well as two short videos that'd end up being GIFs. Then we spontaneously decided to quickly go up to her room where she'd show me how to make GIFs. Went up to her room and watched as the vids were clipped to shorter times and converted to GIFs - the process was fairly interesting - and she was able to send them to me via Telegram GIFs for me to post! Yay~!

Then I casually checked my phone, and I guess we had more fun with the GIF-making than I thought 'cause I lost track of time; it was almost a half-hour after the party had ended at 10:00pm. And I laughed realising that I had to get my sandals. lol So I went down to the convention floor. But halfway there, somebody saw me running and went, "did you leave your shoes or something down there on a table?" I paused for a second before I realised what he meant and said "yes." He then told me that Kaldar (a.k.a. ) "ended up taking it to Lost and Found." I was all "what?" And then I was all double-time to the room where FE staff was packing up the tables. They told me to look to the Front Desk for help. So I did. Also yes, I'm aware I'm an idiot for making such a mistake with the sandals. lol Anyway, I was at the Front Desk for a good 10 minutes, and they couldn't find nor do anything about it except to place a little order to look for any missing foam costume slippers. By this point, I was silently panicking and stressing out. I was even Telegramming Kiyani about it as I made my way back to the party room to check again to be sure, and she felt bad. Incredibly, however, when I asked if any FE staff member there saw such fursuit footwear - I even described it to them - one guy (I can't friggin' remember his name now, but I appreciate him so much) told me that they had wrapped up their gear onto a truck in the storage area! A friggin' truck!? No matter. I walked out into the cold garage area with him, and sure enough, wrapped in plastic wrapping on a cart were my sandals! HOORAY! I thanked the staff member - and the rest of the con staff there - profusely for helping me out! Granted, it would've been better if I were also able to have recovered the candy and cookies I brought down to the party as well, but to be fair, I planned to bring them down there for the party anyway, so fuck it. Whoever took 'em, more power to 'em. The sandals were more important. lmao

And I'm glad I got those sandals back 'cause Kiyani was able to patch them up for me the very next day! Turns out she forgot that she brought the hot glue gun with her to the con! Pretty convenient though!

OTHER HIGHLIGHTS/LOWLIGHTS AND FINAL THOUGHTS

- Yet again, as I've explained before, I've scored quite a huge load of commissions this year from such already-outstanding furry artists in the Dealer's Den! Here's my round-up...

INITIAL BUDGET: $655

> anyare (Digital Sketch - $70)
> anyare (Sticker Raffle [7 Entries] - $10)
> nicnak044 (Pencil Sketch, 2 Characters - $75)
> shinigamigirl (Graphite Sketch - $60)
> nayel-ie (Pencil Sketch - $40)
> bushycat (2 Ink Sketches - $60 x 2 = $120)
> kutekittykat (Shaded Magazine Cover - $75)
> cinamoncune (Tiny Print - $25)
> nyomi (Small Sketch [with matthiasrat] - $15 [of $30 combined pay-in]) TO BE MAILED
> gnaw (Sketch [with shujintribble] - $50)
> Happily Ever Esther (Donation - $5)
> Con Swag (Blue Furnal Equinox Scarf - $10 [from $10 off $20 original price thanks to the two Supersponsor ticket stubs])

MONEY SPENT: $555
MONEY LEFT: $100

Not surprising that I've shelled out a crap-ton of money again this year. Plus some of the artists' prices have gone up a lot! But knowing their quality, I felt that everything was well worth the purchases! Plus it's kinda apropos given the theme. lol

- One other lowlight involved something not during the con but after it... Long story short, a creep I know from college goes to the con, and they kept asking why I had blocked them and was avoiding them. I tried to give a simple pleasant answer to start, but when they kept pressing, I was blatantly honest. Their reply? They call me a liar and tell me that they have a "based memory," adding that they don't like liars. If I wasn't so bloody exhausted from the con or was in a rush with everything else (while waiting for my bro to bring the car to the lobby doors at the time) - or was surrounded by con-goers/friends I know of - I would've had more than half a mind to drop-kick their ass. :angry: This was a person that never respected my privacy even when I told them straight-up that I was busy and to leave me alone. That person wouldn't know respect if it bit them in the ass. If they did, they'd already un-watch me from FA and every fucking account they have me on. Of course, that's just for that one blocked user. I haven't blocked you, though, so don't worry. You're okay.

- I ended up encountering the infamous herself! Like holy shit! That was a totally epic surprise! Her and , too! I just feel ashamed that the pictures didn't turn out as smooth/clear as I had hoped (whoever I had hold onto my iPhone camera doesn't know how to stay still for shit). Still, I hope those two had a spectacular time at the con, and I hope to see them again next year! And if that wasn't epic enough, I found out via Twitter some time after the con that SpazzFox actually fucking proposed to Syber at the con! And she said "yes!" OMG! AND I MISSED THAT, TOO! I always miss all the big moments like that! Still, mega-congrats to the both of you if you're reading this! May you two have a spectacular and life-long relationship together!

- And as long as we're discussing matters of love, I got the privelege of meeting 's new mate, ! That's right! Some time before FE2018, I found out via Twitter that one of my best (and first) friends from the con felt a deep connection with the genderfluid fur, and they've never been happier! All the best to ya both!

- Also a rather interesting thing I learned at the con: 's child TinyTribble recently came out as transgender! Never saw that coming at all to be honest! So now the daughter has become a son! At the same time, though, I'm very proud of TinyTribble for being true to himself and respect his choices. Like I said to him, "no matter what gender you are, you stay true to you. And you're always an awesome Tribble to me no matter what."

In conclusion, the con was a smash hit as always in terms of getting to be a fursuiter for a change as well as hanging out with old and new friends I've met! Even now as I write this, I hurt so much missing them as they're far away, and I'm in the middle of nowhere with no social pipeline save for Telegram, Skype, FA, and Twitter (though the latter I'm still trying to get used to). Plus as tight as my form-fitting fursuit is and how difficult it is to move in, I'm happy with the adventures I have had with it and look forward to more fun with it next year! Also the Supersponsor goodies, perks, and surprises were pretty fancy~!

Extra special thanks to all my incredibly amazing friends I hung out with one way or another at the con, both old and new (and in no particular order): kalamari, hojozilla, novasuga, omet.chimrand, ~angelicwolf~, sinistervibe, dojodingo, ellie-fennec, calciferthefruitbat, lusela, felixthefox, sleepyroo, flowkitty, shujintribble (and his son, TinyTribble), panzier, menei, buzzybeak, oliver-cross, and many, many, many more that I can't even think of off the top of my head! lmao But you are awesome all the same and should always feel awesome! Thanks for wanting to either get some photo-ops with me, hanging out with me, hugging me, dancing with me, or whatever else with me!

Oh, yeah... And a good time was had by all (as Shujin always says, lol)!

If you managed to make it this far without passing out or going way in the head with reading everything in this journal, you're friggin' amazing.

So... Thank you very much for taking the time to read my exceptionally-long and informal-yet-formal "con report." Be on the lookout for my slew of con photos coming in the super-near future on my photo account: !

Here's to a safe and successful FE2019! Whatever you've majored in within the furry fandom, this is your chance to be recognised for it and get the sheepskins you deserve! Even if you're a sheep already, you should get one, too! Heck, it's like you're a walking diploma already!

Now if you'll excuse me, I need to brush up on my history lessons.

To think that would beat me to such a thing. But I was already second-guessing whether or not I'd be too early anyway, so I shouldn't complain. lol

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March 17^th - 19^th, 2017
Toronto, Ontario
http://www.furnalequinox.com

Q: Where are you staying?
A: The Westin Harbour Castle

Q: When are you arriving?
A: I'll be arriving Thursday afternoon!

Q: When are you leaving?
A: I'll be leaving Monday morning! Between those times, there's enough time for running amok, partying, and cuddles to go around!

Q: How are you traveling?
A: My bro will be dropping me off in his new car (2018 Hyundai Elantra [lucky bastard, lol]).

Q: Who will you be rooming with?
A: [REDACTED]

Q: How can I find you?
A: If I'm not in-suit or walking around as Sir Deadpool, I'll be sporting my trademark black Trilby and friendly smile. Anyone can find me one way or another. If anything, I need help finding you, dammit! lol Of course, you could always text me or hit me up on Telegram to get in touch with me. But ask me first; I may not necessarily give it away to those I'm meeting for the first time except to good friends. And of course if I'm in-suit, then... I'm not sure what to expect to be doing! Maybe running around being all ninja-y! So just try your best I guess! lmao

Q: Are there any panels you'll be attending?
A: Yes, but I also wanna try and manage my time throughout the con not only for meals but to run around in fursuit. And being a first-time suiter at a con, I feel that this endeavor's gonna be pretty scary and overwhelming, especially since I don't have any close/good friends for handlers (I'd have my brother, but he has a tendency to steal friends, and he has a short temper, lol). How ballsy/retarded am I, eh? lol But I sure hope I can handle it. Say a prayer for me just in case. As far as any specific panels, I'm curious as to how 's Fursuit Life Drawing Session would work except I don't know if I should come in as a fursuiter or as an artist or not even bother altogether. Fursuit Photobooth is an absolute must - especially since hopefully there are those that remember me and would want to get a photo with me now that I have a fursuit - and in my experience at FE, nothing's ever beaten Furry Improv!

Q: What do you look like?
A: Out-of-suit, I look like this. In-suit, I look like this (keep in mind I have no fullsuit pics available yet [not to mention that the lines on the head were done wrong at the time before they got fixed], but this is to show you what my head looks like at least, lol).

Q: Will you be suiting?
A: If it hasn't been implied already, yes! I'm going to be debuting my brand-new fullsuit of Leo Nekozuki that I got "officially" back in October. Dropped major Canadian billage just to get one, and I sure hope it's worth it. After all, it ended up being a form-fitting suit; it's pretty damn tight to move in. Hopefully I'll look presentable enough to so much as get in at least one photo (the all-suiter shot doesn't count as that's kinda mandatory for FE to organise anyway, lol)!

Q: Do you do free art?
A: Yes, but only to very - again, very - good friends of mine. So please understand if I reject any offers to draw your character(s). It's a personal preference.

Q: Do you do trades?
A: Again, only with really good friends, but yes! Ever since my first-ever trade with (which can be seen here), I've been kinda more keen to the idea! Just keep in mind of my current quality, and be patient with me, and I'm sure we can totally work something out!

Q: What is your gender?
A: Male

Q: How tall are you?
A: 5'11" (but hey, let's round that off to an even 6'0", mkay?)

Q: Can I talk to you?
A: Well sure! Especially if you're new, if I already know you, or if you're an especially good friend of mine, absolutely! If I feel deep down that you're a creep - whether I know you or not - be prepared to get told off.

Q: Can I touch you?
A: Oh, ho, ho, ho...

Q: Can I visit your room?
A: Sure! Though I'm more trusting of especially close friends for that privilege, but feel free to ask anyway. lol

Q: Can I buy you drinks?
A: You could buy a drink if you like, but only if I'm up for trying something new like drinking. I don't mind trying new things, but just let me go at my own pace.

Q: Can I give you stuff?
A: ALL OF THE STUFF!!! But if it's not free, forget it.

Q: Can I hug or snuggle with you?
A: ALL OF THE HUGS AND SNUGGLES!!! *glomps*

Q: Are you nice?
A: Only if you're nice to me first! Treat me with kindness and respect, and I'm sure we'll get along just fine!

Q: Will you be going to parties?
A: If I'm invited to any, Hellz yeah! Especially if it's a sexy party~!

Q: How can I get your attention?
A: Just approach me by saying "hi!" It works! I can be referred to by either Leo (my fursona name) or K-MAN (my irl nickname). Surprise hugs are okay, too. Of course, if I'm in my fursuit, you may wanna just wave your arms in front of me. Taking your top off wouldn't hurt either, I'm just sayin'...

Q: Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
A: Hard to say, really, especially now that I have a fursuit to run around in. So I might try chasing after familiar friends or hope for some good photo-ops. Otherwise, in general, I will more than likely be mindlessly wandering around the con space and Dealer's Den; if I'm not taking photos/video, I might be enjoying the various panels and events the con has to offer.

Q: Can I come with you for food/fun/etc.?
A: The thing is I'll likely just eat in my room as I'm rarely ever invited to eat anywhere. And even then, I don't mind places like Swiss Chalet or Boston Pizza. Just as long as we share the bill evenly, all is well. lol But yeah, I personally will have my own stuff saved in my room. Otherwise, hopefully, I wouldn't mind tagging along with you wherever there's good eatin' if that's all right with you. I promise to pay for my own food. I just want some company, y'knoooow?

Q: Can I take your picture?
A: Can you? Hell, I'm begging you to take my photo! In fact, never mind just taking my picture; get in the picture with me!

Q: What is your goal(s) for the con this year?
A: I have multiple goals like always... For starters, I hope to become more noticed in the fandom now that I have a fursuit, especially at the Furry Fiesta (I really don't wanna be just stuck in a corner compared to everyone whose fursuits are far more gorgeous than meeee~ ;w;). In fact, I'd really love it if people actually friggin' dragged me into some wicked-sick con photo opportunities where we could be, like, posing for front-page stuff on the con's website! Or maybe someone could get me more involved in their Masquerade performances! That'd be a real treasure, getting to show off my acting like the theatrical ninja lion that I am! ^w^ Also because of things falling apart already on my suit - my broken sandals from OFE26, a claw at Flynn's Halloween Party, and a hole in the upper part of my suit already (although, fortunately, the latter's been patched up recently) - I hope to be still in one piece rather than having to pay a fuck-ton just to repair only one thing (again, I really want this suit to be worth it! >.<)! Speaking of which, here's hoping I don't trip and kill myself. I like to run after all. lol And of course, I also hope to have a cameo in 's live podcast, be in lots of photos to post on my page (with permission from anyone who takes 'em), be in more than just one con video, participate in a Cards Against Humanity session, buy some incredibly awesome work from various furry artists (or buy one big fancy commission from a really awesome furry artist), hang out with numerous friends, and enjoy every second of my time at the con however I can!

Better-known as , my awesome friend/student/son needs money coming his way right away as he's planning on tackling independent commissions as an industrious freelancer!

And believe me, you totally want a commission from ! He's amazing!

Do you like furry art with baras? 'Course you do!

Do you like furry art with Kamen Rider? 'Course you do!

Do you like furry art with adorableness mixed in? 'Course you do!

And guess what? The one-and-only is the lion to draw it all for ya!

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Check out his commission info right now for more details: https://grampa-lion.tumblr.com/post.....ooo-what-to-do

And tell him Leo sent you!

Whew! 2018 already? My goodness! Well good riddance to last year, eh? lol

Although among the highlights as far as last year, I have been getting back into the swing of furry artwork all over again since the beginning of last January! And from the looks of things, I've really improved! I mean I'm drawing muzzles now for cryin' out loud! That's huge! lmao I still have far much more to learn, but man, has it been fun trying to draw furry art!

And hey, I have my very own fursuit which is pretty cool! I mean I've had it "officially" since about October, buuuut I haven't really gotten around to doing any big debut photos aside from the partial pics on my photo account from OFE26. And then there are a couple of fullsuit pics from 's Fursuit-Friendly Halloween Party within her Twitter feed since October. I know, I know, you're dying to see some premiere/indtroductory photos, yet I have no real photos to kick things off with. "Why," you ask? Well honestly, I've been involved in other matters in general - both offline and offline - and just never really got around to doing anything.

That kinda leads into what I've essentially been doing otherwise since my last update journal. I've been helping Mom as far as groceries and taking care of Grandma and other financial matters. I've been having fun learning bit by bit as a furry artist and drawing tons of gifts for my amazing friends. I've been doing online gaming on occasion (focusing more on the arts last year of course). I've cut my inner lip from accidentally biting into it twice at the beginning of last month. I've been sick for about a week-and-a-half last month. All of this is enough to kinda leave my suit off to the side, not really having any spark to do anything with it for the time being. I know, I know. That's a retarded way to start off fursuiting. Well I mean I've already broken in the bodysuit well enough so that it has some decent creases on it long ago, but otherwise, there's literally nothing around the middle of nowhere (a.k.a. Innisfil) to do in fursuit. Grandma's house is pretty friggin' cramped-up, too, and the whole house is too damn cold; even outside, there's been loads of snow and a ton of cold snaps. I mean I'm tempted to go out in the snow in fursuit, but I don't know how well foam sandals hold against weather conditions. You see where I'm going with this. I wanna do something but just haven't had the time nor inclination what with life and other things either taking my time and energy or messing me up internally to even focus on that for the time being. Of course I'll definitely be bringin' it for FE2018, so look forward to that. lmao But I doubt I'll get noticed thanks to the Most Interesting Wolf in the Fandom. Maybe he can shed a fraction of a spotlight on moi, too?

For that matter, there's still the matter of clothing for the outside of my fullsuit! I'm trying to get it to match Leo's wardrobe - as per his current refsheet - yet I can't find anything as far as black pants that I can put a red ribbon down either side of each leg or a pair of black pants with a red line on either side of each leg already on there. I've heard of Tripp pants and getting them from Hot Topic, yet there was none near my area; they told me that it was all online when we got there. Of course. -_- So F that S. lol If you can help me and give me any comfortable clothing-over-fullsuit expertise and guidance, now would be a real good time to help me! Pretty please? ;^w^

Now let me also share what's been going on with the family. Grandma's health is unfortunately getting worse and worse, losing more of her memory and hiding things from us like what she's been feeling. Naturally, it's a lot of stress on Mom still trying to take care of her; let's just say laundry for Grandma alone has tripled nearly every other day. :T But Mom's hanging in there as strong as she can; I'm kinda thankful I'm jobless in that sense as I can be a source of sanity for Mom (especially when Friends isn't on TV) and be a huge help to her whether by hand-washing the dishes (since Grandma doesn't have a functioning dishwasher) or accompanying her on her grocery runs and errands (and paying for 'em, lol).

As for my bro, since he's the only one working, he's been doing his part to help provide for all of us and having all those long holiday work hours that took a toll on his sleeping habits. But at the end of the day, we're happy he's still on his feet... especially after what happened to him back in November. Long story short, around the end of that month, my brother hit a deer while driving back to the house after watching the Grey Cup with his co-workers at work, and his old car had to be writen off as there was no use repairing the front end. He fortunately wasn't injured in the slightest, but it sucked how we had to live with one car for a while. But recently in the last couple of days or so, he ended up getting approved for a loan and got himself a brand-new 2018 Hyundai Elantra! Like holy shit, I'm jealous of my bro (then again, who wouldn't? New stuff is automatically cool! lol), but I'm so happy for him! ^w^ Heck, maybe I should get my driver's license soon and see if I can be approved for a new car! lol

As far as Christmas, it was small but humble with just the three of us as always (plus Grandma, lol). I really blew my brother out of the water with some nostalgic Power Rangers toys that he just loved! >w< As for me, among my gift highlights, I got a wicked-cool Razer Ornata Chroma keyboard! It's soooo colourful~! And I got a couple more Amazon gift cards which I used to help buy me a new UG-2150 screen tablet and a physical copy of Clip Studio Paint Pro! Look at me, I'm evolving! XD lmao I still have yet to really break them in even though I've tried them out once or twice (I would practice right now even, but I'm in the midst of writing a long backstory for some new freebies I've received this new year that I'll be posting soon)! That said, here's hoping I really improve even a little bit with this new wicked tech! Please keep a good thought for me that I'll grow to love it! X3

And of course, there was the matter of bringing in a new desk for the downstairs area where I could rest my laptop and screen tablet on which looks amazing~! It certainly looks more adult than child-like now! XD lol And believe it or not, the price we got it at - from Habitat for Humanity btw - was $27! It was a friggin' steal! lmao In fact, it's pretty much big enough for a desktop if I really wanted to get one. And truth be told... I kinda did get myself a brand-new HP desktop around Best Buy's Black Friday sale, but I did it out of haste and not knowing anything. I didn't do any proper research as far as understanding processors and necessary graphics cards and whether or not I needed a gaming desktop or a regular desktop or even a custom setup. So I sat down and compared numbers and specs of the desktop I had at the time with the screen tablet that I'd be getting soon. In the end, I ultimately returned the desktop mainly because I knew it wouldn't work having just one HDMI port unless I get some additional HDMI-to-whatever cables separately, but who the Hell has time for that? And I only play Team Fortress 2 (and recently the Steam version of Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Links), so I didn't need to go crazy (not even for a CYBERPOWER PC). Yes, my current laptop is five years old and only has 18GB of 178GB total disk space left (I can't even use my video software since raw footage nowadays are, like, 100GB just for 5 seconds of footage), but it's better than nothing, and I gotta be appreciative. Besides, it's still taking me a while to get used to the concept of Windows 10 whilst my laptop has Windows 7. lol

Ooh! And you might've noticed a certain new canine character added to my roster! And you'd be right! You might've also seen a homosexual drawing featuring him that I received as well! You'd be right again! lol That'd be Sebastian "Sebby" Inunikko, my femboy German Shepherd character! Whose also a water ninja! ^w^ Honestly, I wanted to have a gay character for a while now to help sate my bi-curiousness in the fandom. See, I find quite a huge variety of guy-on-guy art opportunities on this site, but I don't entirely see myself willing to experiment such various avenues and/or kinks through Leo alone unless it were in the company of wholesomely trusting friends that are really close to me. This way, thanks to having Sebby in my roster, I now have a character that can serve certain avenues I'd like to give a whirl (within reason, lol) as well as have him more submissive and fairly promiscuous... not that Leo himself isn't promiscuous to begin with! XD lmao But along with gay art of this guy, I still wanna show off that he's a decent and defensive ninja that can hold his own, still being able to kick some tail despite his appearance. And now I have the best of both worlds: Leo for the ladies (or just gentle dominance in general) and Sebby for the guys. More importantly, I've had the design ideas in the back burner for a while. Luckily, my best friend helped resolved the issue and, and I'm really happy with the refsheet she made for him!

Speaking of artwork, though, I still have some more glorious artwork from some fantastic artists to post, but I'm in the midst of writing a fun spooky story for one of them~! X3 That said, I have a question regarding submitting stories. What I wanna do is post the full-size image I'm basing a story off of, but I also wanna submit the actual story via its original Word document file. So do I, like, post the full-size as a thumbnail with the main story in the submission area? Or is that even possible? I hope I'm making sense. ;^w^

At this point in time, I'd like to give big, big, big shout-outs to some very notable friends of mine throughout this year!

Thank you, , for teaching me all your amazing techniques and tricks! I hope to keep on learning more and more from you be it through your livestreams or by asking for clarification on things or what-have-you. Plus I enjoy all the wonderful furry artwork you make, and I continue to look forward to more of your fun drawings with great anticipation! And thank you for talking things out with me regarding personal life issues and concerns. I don't know where I'd be without you to help me remain calm. I'm only sorry that last year kept giving you shitstorms with every month, nothing but bad luck left and right. I can't make things any better nor make those problems go away, but I'm always hoping and praying for things to get better for you! Even now, I'm thrilled that you finally got the go-ahead to be Texas-bound soon! But regardless of everything that's gone on, if nothing else, I love chatting and hanging out with you each and every day, sharing fun and random discussions as well as learning new fun things from you all the time! Hell, I even enjoy drawing your fursona and characters a lot! >///w///< I'm honored from the bottom of my heart to have you as my best friend! :'3

Thank you, , for being an amazing lion that allows me to appreciate things at my own pace and getting me to enjoy and be fascinated by the lores of card games you follow - namely Magic: The Gathering - even if I don't play almost all of them. X3 lol Thanks for also trusting me enough to share some personal matters in your life just as I have with you; I hope things get much better with your current situation and hope more donations keep going your way soon, too! And of course, thanks for letting me be my silly, random self! lol You're an amazing lion, Matty-kun, and I'm proud to play the RP-ing role of a father figure for ya! ^w^

Thank you, , for bringing my fursona to life through your style! First fursuit I've ever owned! May have dropped some major coinage - then again, who hasn't when it comes to fursuits? lmao - but I hope to leave a lasting positive impression in the fursuiting scene with it! Heck, I just hope I can function well in a skin-tight one! lmao And thanks for having time whenever you can to hang out and chat with someone like me. I just hope we can find time to chat some more together this year. ;^w^

And of course, if your name isn't on this list here, not to worry. You know I still hold you deeply in my heart as a good friend, too! ;3

And, uh, one last important thing I need to address. I request your aid as far as helping me with this annoying cough. I've been stuck with it since the middle of last month (around the time my cold disppeared). It doesn't hurt, but it's still there, strong as ever. No amount of cough medicine - strong nor weak in strength - has gotten rid of it. Taking medicine and not taking medicine hasn't worked. I'm getting really concerned. Mom argues that it's because I stay in the lower part of the house in front of my laptop all day, and it's the coldest area compared to the rest of the house. Then again, we're in a frail house in Innisfil, and all this snow and cold weather really doesn't help matters much as the entire house is more or less cold. lmao But I digress. I wanna get rid of this cough fast! Got any remedies that can help cure me of my coughing that's been lasting roughly 4-5 weeks now? Please pray that it's nothing serious and that it can be easily fixed and gotten rid of. :c

And that's that I do believe.

So! How's your Christmas been? How's 2018 working out for you so far? Got any plans for this month?

Let's have a safe, happy, and healthy time in 2018!

A little bit after Furnal Equinox this year, one of my best friends, Kiyani (a.k.a. ), told me all about Ontario Furries Expo (formerly the Islington Furmeet) once again and how it runs three times a year. She encouraged me and invited me to give it a try. So by the time June rolled in, I decided to give it a go. I booked a hotel room and waited patiently for the mini-con to begin.

In the meantime, Kiyani had been showing me many WIP images of the progress on my fursuit being put together. I was really excited for each update and was overjoyed at the quality and how each part was turning out, from the tail to the head! Though there's still the matter of the bodysuit, I just know that will be worth the wait, too.

That said, a couple of weeks before the furmeet, Kiyani surprised me with the great news that my partial would be potentially completed by the time OFE would take place. Naturally, I was hype.

Last Saturday arrived, and I was driven down to the Delta Hotel where I checked-in and awaited Kiyani's arrival. Soon after, there she was coming in with a huge bag in her hand and giving me a big hug! And sure enough, there was my fursuit head poking out! Kiyani was giggling excitedly, saying "Look who it is! It's you, Leo!"

My reaction?

YAY!!! IT'S HERE!!!

I held the fursuit head in my hands and was just left speechless at how wicked it looked! I've already gone and given her all the positive and supportive comments all throughout the WIP photos, but still! I'm amazed at how Kiyani pulled off the look! The hairdo and bangs looked very impressive with the foam base! Of course, long story short, I left the head back with her for some minor fixes, but otherwise, I'm so excited I have Leo in fursuit form at long last! Of course, getting the bodysuit soon will really be something else, too! Until then, I ended up getting in the fursuit photoshoot just in time with my partial, though I had to say I certainly looked so out-of-place wearing my partial while wearing a T-shirt and shorts, thereby exposing my arms and legs while in suit (something I've seldom complained about. lmao

Regardless, after that, I took part in the Fursuit Games with Kiyani as the Master of Ceremonies (technically was the emcee till Kiyani arrived after getting her fursuit on). Three games were done: three-ball bowling, two-person belly-ball obstacle course, coloured-ball pick-up, and musical chairs. The bowling - contrary to popular belief - wasn't as easy as it looked in the eyes of a fursuiter! lmao For the obstacle course, I had no idea at first that we were supposed to move fast. lol And how was I to know that I only supposed to choose one colour of balls to pick up!? lmao But the musical chairs was a lot of fun! Sadly, I ended up losing part-way through after a tough shoving match on one of the chairs; my ass wasn't big enough I guess. But in all fairness, that contender - the Alpacorn (a.k.a. ) - deserved it; he'd go on to win the musical chairs event a couple of furries later. Congrats to him. Still, that was a Hell of a lot of fun for my first-ever try at it! Plus, hey, I hoped I wouldn't end in last place, and it looks like that was the case!

Some time after that, I ran into while waiting for Kiyani and Cole (a.k.a. ) to go with them for dinner at milestone's. Showed Clumzy the photos of my suit, and he really enjoyed them! And when Kiyani did show up meeting all of us together, she said excitedly that now Clumzy and I are "Lion Buddies!" Gotta say that's got a wicked ring to it! Does this mean that I can get free seats to any of Xephyr's performances?

Soon after, went with Kiyani and Cole to milestones to try and eat dinner there, but the wait took forever, and we were starving despite the awesomely fun chat we all had together! lol So we opted to just pick up Swiss Chalet (with Cole opting for Subway). Once I finished my meal, I went back down to the Fursuit Dance at around 9:00pm-ish waiting for Kiyani who would be there 15 minutes past each hour till 11:00pm (would've been 12:00am, but it got cancelled due to lack of attendance by that point), but she wasn't there yet, so I just danced my tail off for a while. I gotta say, though I may not do it often, I'm appreciating the concept of dancing at a rave a little more; just being in my fursuit head with the darkness and glow-in-the-dark colours and lights around me felt really good as I did whatever dance I wanted, like I was in my own world.

Eventually, I try to find Kiyani, and surprisingly, she was at the hotel's Lot 41 bar drinking and chatting with ! I just couldn't pass up the opportunity to scare her, so I snuck up and spooked her from behind which got a shriek out of her! Nice to know I can be sneaky like a ninja! I sat down with the two friends at the bar, and Kiyani invited me to have a drink with them. Now I was kinda indifferent at first, saying "eh, my wallet/id's upstairs..." But soon after, I remember my ex-brother-in-law telling me that I "can only do it once." And it's not like I was being pressured at all. Plus I was in the company of awesomely trusting friends. So why not? I went and got my ID and ordered my drink. I was recommended a Stella Artois as my starting drink. "Go big or go home" the female bartender said to me, who btw chided me for having an Ontario ID and not a driver's license at 26; "dude, if I were you, I'd be coming in here shit-faced every night." lmao Well roasting aside, she meant well, and I had a good laugh. Plus the beer wasn't too bad. Very spicy upon tasting which immediately goes watery soon after. lol And I'll admit that while it didn't affect me at all - was sentient the whole way through drinking it all btw, lol - I somehow felt... mellow. Like, not light-headed or anything, but just like... I didn't give a frig, y'know? Somewhat relaxing. lol

Before I'd leave the bar with Kiyani, I ended up getting my photo taken in fursuit by one or two people at the bar, and I randomly had a wonderful chat with this gentleman in his 40's (I think?) named Mark who inquired about who we are and what we're all about which ended up leading to Team America: World Police somehow, and then I just I had fun explaining all the fun our fandom had and showing him my fursuit. It's nice to have such fun reactions and inquiries, and I'm glad I filled the role of explaining things all on my own! We had such an enjoyable discussion which lasted for about 20-30 minutes before I realised that Kiyani had already left! lmao

Fortunately, I soon caught up with her and her brother Nkiru (who was totally was Frost Kage btw; Nkiru just wanted me to make that clear, lmao), and we all made our way to Cole's room - which was literally right next door to me, lmao - for his room party which was pretty fun! And for my first one, I didn't have to walk far! lol We had a DJ setup, a bubble machine, and everything! We were a pretty loud bunch till around 2:00am when hotel management knocked on the door and told us that that was enough or we'd get evicted. Eep! Fortunately, we all complied and gradually made our way out of Cole's room, but not before doing some more conversing and saying out good-byes.

So to count up all my firsts at OFE this month...

- First OFE
- First real fursuit (not my hand-me-down anymore, lol)
- First time wearing fursuit
- First fursuit photoshoot
- First Fursuit Games
- First furry rave/dance
- First room party

I couldn't have asked for a more wonderful time last week, and I wish to thank all the staff at OFE for such a fun Saturday. I've already gone ahead and posted my feedback about it the other day via Twitter. Also another big thanks to the hotel staff at the Delta for putting up with such random fuzzy creatures during that weekend (and for especially being good sports by letting Cole and everyone else at his party off with a warning, lol).

And Kiyani, I especially wanna thank you a whole bunch for convincing me to go, for making my fursuit (still eagerly looking forward to the bodysuit real soon!), and for just being an overall outstanding best friend of mine! You are awesome, and you should feel awesome!

I doubt I'll be at OFE27 in October or even OFE28 in February, but I'll definitely be making a grand appearance in my completed fursuit at FE2018! And who knows? Maybe next August, I'll be back for OFE29!

Until next time, stay awesome!

My best friend, , has just had herself a little car accident earlier - front right end's totaled - and she needs some money her way now more than ever.

BUT! She's not asking for donations; she needs commissioners and lots of 'em!

That's where you come in. Yes, you.

Please do a solid and purchase all of the things from her right this second!

Buy a commission! Buy a slot in her Nightly Stomp YCH! Buy a slot in her Shelter from the Rain YCH!

BUY ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING FROM HER TODAY!

Believe me when I say that is a wonderful artist and an amazing friend. Go support her right now!

And tell her that Leo sent you!

So yeah, it was my birthday today! lol

I apologise for not mentioning about it sooner. ;^w^ But there's wasn't too much to write home about this year. In terms of gifts, I didn't exactly everything I wanted, but that's okay; not only am I still appreciative of what my Mom and brother did get me, but this just means that I gotta start saving on the side for what I do want (or at the very least wait until Christmas, lol).

What do I want, you ask? Well to be fair, though they're only two things, they're both pretty dang expensive. See, I was hoping to upgrade from my current art tablet to a screen one. Specifically, a Ugee UG-2150. And even if I didn't have that, I would've enjoyed a new desktop as my current laptop is from April 2012; since my memory on my laptop's pretty full-up, and since laptops don't last too long in general, I figured I'd have that looked into at least. ;^w^ lol I know, I know. I sound pretty spoiled or childish with what I was aiming for, but Mom and my bro always pester me with birthday wish lists, so never let it be said I never made one. XD lmao

In the meantime, though, it's not like I'm unappreciative of what I did get...

- Bag of M&M's (planning on saving this for the Ontario Furries Expo, lol)
- Kaspersky Total Security for my laptop
- Whiteboard Eraser & face magnets
- Navy blue pajama pants
- $25 iTunes gift Card
- Gift card for one-year membership to PlayStation Plus for the PS4
- Random softball bat my bro found at his company softball tourney that no one else claimed, lol
- $10 in quarters
- Scratch ticket (not a winner unfortunately)
- Ankle socks
- Fitness book (so that I don't have to borrow my brother's copy anymore, lol)
- Red bed sheets

Plus at around 1:00pm-ish, I was taken to mini-putt, and we had a pretty fun time, enjoying the in-and-out sunny weather and the ducks and chipmunks running about. X3 Plus we took advantage of a combo offer they had where - for an additional $2.00 - after a whole game of mini-putt, my bro and I would have a complimentary hot-dog with fries and a soft drink.

For dinner, I was taken to my favourite go-to for occasions like birthdays: Boston Pizza. Took advantage of the birthday dessert offer I got in my e-mail, and the brownie and ice cream was soooooooo worth it! >w<

All in all, not the best of birthdays, but not the worst either. I had a nice day.

Plus at least two furry artists today have given me drawings and didn't even know that it was my birthday today. They inadvertently had really good timing! lol And I'm very thankful for their work!

Here's to another safe and hopefully successful year of my life. Kanpai!

Just when you thought that that last YCH auction by :neulicion: wasn't exciting enough, now she's made not one but two more YCH auctions for you to try!

This time, it's all about the macro feet-paws!

Grab a hold of Neu's feet-paws as the gigantic get gentle drafox takes a...

NIGHTLY STOMP!!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24432970
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24432970
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24432970

Don't feel like getting stomped on? That's all right! She'll gladly use her sweet, soft feet-paws to help give you some...

SHELTER FROM THE RAIN!!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24433489
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24433489
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24433489

Bidding starts at just $10 for both YCH auctions! That's right! Both YCH auctions are starting at just $10! And neither auction has any auto-buys! So... ANYTHING GOES!

But don't delay with these fantastic and comfy paw-pad-laden opportunities by 'cause...

BOTH AUCTIONS END THREE (3) DAYS AFTER THE HIGHEST BIDDERS!!!

Don't just stand there! Hurry and get in on some of that glorious feet-paw action by today!!!

And tell that Leo sent you!!!

Here's some (literally) big news you'll love: 's fursona's got a brand-new look!

And to celebrate, she wants you in her belly! Even if you're flippin' the bird inside her stomach, you'll be sittin' there lookin' all adorable while she happily marches forward!

That's right! It's a cute soft vore YCH Auction!!!

HURRY ON OVER TO THE LINK RIGHT NOW!!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24421542
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24421542
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24421542

Bidding starts at just $10! And there are no auto-buys! You're not dreaming! No auto-buys! And you know what that means! ANYTHING GOES!

But don't delay with this golden opportunity by 'cause...

THE AUCTION ENDS THREE (3) DAYS AFTER THE HIGHEST BIDDER!!!

So what are you waiting for!? Quickly get in Neuli's tummy today!!!

And tell that Leo sent you!!!