A while ago I said I was going to go on hiatus regarding posting things, largely on account of me having felt like I lost the picture of things. For a long time, I have a bad habit of going back and forth on whether I'm doing this for the attention (which I always felt like was a negative thing to do, in most contexts), or if I'm doing this to be part of a community, or if simply because I just want to post whatever I think is cool and/or interesting. A lot of times I feel like these three things get blurred into one another, and so I just don't really know what I want to do truly.

Procrastination, inconsistency, or just feeling like I'm repeating myself. I'm aware there's still people seeing what I've contributed to this site; it's just, at times, I feel like I'm trying too hard. Spend too much time making three to four paragraphs writing what could basically be amounted to a summarized wikipedia article (which, coming from hindsight, makes me look like a fraud intellectually to be honest). I don't really lurk around this site as often as I did a few years ago anyways, largely because of things in real life that have been more important (as it should be, of course).

I still have a boat of tank pics from April. Christmas is coming up. I'm most likely just going to ditch trying to put "lore" into these future tank pics UNLESS it's a tank I REALLY want to talk about. And that's part of the problem I've made for myself. I've started talking about ALL the tanks instead of just the weird ones or the ones I like to talk about. If I'm being real here, probably only a quarter of my uploads that aren't lego/non-museum posts are what I would consider happy with. I could maybe redo them, but doing so really won't fix anything, I feel. Maybe I'm just overthinking this, and I just happen to be in a mental slump. It's not the first time I've had that.

Although I have my doubts as to whether I'll get any feedback, I really would appreciate some advice or suggestions on what I should do first, or how I should go about this. The answers may be staring me in the face as I write this, but at the moment I'm blind to them. That said, I thank you for taking the time to read this, if you are reading this; Happy Thanksgiving and Merry Christmas. Look forward to 2026.