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Art block and emotional state
4 years ago
I would like to do more art but I've been a bit down lately so I'm having a hard time with motivation. Last time I drew was for my best friend Pluto's birthday. I liked it but I feel like I have so much to learn anatomy wise and my bodies look so damn stiff and I feel like they don't look good so its making me feel insecure about my art. I'm having a hard time overall I guess.
Something happened between me and my mother a few days before my birthday that really messed me up. I won't go into it publicly but I'm trying to pull myself out of this funk. Gotta keep clawing to the surface. Ive been doing really well overall and its frustrating to be in this funk after working so hard to get better emotionally. The TMS worked wonders for me but this shit with my mother has me really fucked up. Ive been mostly keeping to myself and my closest friends lately. My friends in my server have been wonderful. I just need time to get over this. Ive been having bad PTSD nightmares recently. I dunno its shit. Its all shit. Dad has been supportive with my coming out as trans to him. My father is wonderful. I want to be happy for him, but with everything that happened with my mother I find it hard to really be positive about much.
Aghh sorry for the vent I guess I'm just trying to crawl to the surface and get out of this hole.
Shout out to
to my partners
- Brady you are always there for me with a snuggle and kiss. You are always so sweet. You support me so much and I love you so much. You do everything you can to support me emotionally. Our rps mean so much to me. I just want to kiss your cute face. I love you so much! You are my cute little draggy ;w; *paps your cheeks gently*
Sid- You always cheer me up with how much of an asshole you are sometimes. You are an asshole in a very charming and endearing way. You rp with me and give me kisses when I want them. And the ass pinches you give as you walk by are always welcome. <3 I love you so much my dear ferret!
And
for being the best, best friend ever. We sip the tea and spill it when necessary. I love you so much. Platonic Plutocratic Waifu. Let's watch internet tea videos and talk shit until the end of time. I enjoy our talks and I love Finn so much. Seeing his pictures always cheers me up.
Something happened between me and my mother a few days before my birthday that really messed me up. I won't go into it publicly but I'm trying to pull myself out of this funk. Gotta keep clawing to the surface. Ive been doing really well overall and its frustrating to be in this funk after working so hard to get better emotionally. The TMS worked wonders for me but this shit with my mother has me really fucked up. Ive been mostly keeping to myself and my closest friends lately. My friends in my server have been wonderful. I just need time to get over this. Ive been having bad PTSD nightmares recently. I dunno its shit. Its all shit. Dad has been supportive with my coming out as trans to him. My father is wonderful. I want to be happy for him, but with everything that happened with my mother I find it hard to really be positive about much.
Aghh sorry for the vent I guess I'm just trying to crawl to the surface and get out of this hole.
Shout out to
to my partners
- Brady you are always there for me with a snuggle and kiss. You are always so sweet. You support me so much and I love you so much. You do everything you can to support me emotionally. Our rps mean so much to me. I just want to kiss your cute face. I love you so much! You are my cute little draggy ;w; *paps your cheeks gently*Sid- You always cheer me up with how much of an asshole you are sometimes. You are an asshole in a very charming and endearing way. You rp with me and give me kisses when I want them. And the ass pinches you give as you walk by are always welcome. <3 I love you so much my dear ferret!
And
for being the best, best friend ever. We sip the tea and spill it when necessary. I love you so much. Platonic Plutocratic Waifu. Let's watch internet tea videos and talk shit until the end of time. I enjoy our talks and I love Finn so much. Seeing his pictures always cheers me up.
Rascalraccoon
~rascalraccoon
just practice in your spare time when you feel better maybe watch some tutorials as for the rest just take your time I know how something little can be huge and ruin your day or even week
LillieBun
~lilliebun
OP
My mother has become so abusive I cant take it. It's starting to cause all the effort I put into getting better to crumble. But I got some money from my tribe and hopefully I will be able to buy a car so my partners and I can do door dash or something like that to start building up savings to get out of here. I always say "today I'll practice" then I just dont. I leave my tablet upstairs and sit here and do nothing. But thank you so much for the comment. It means a lot.
Rascalraccoon
~rascalraccoon
I use to have my dad that was abusive verbally by calling me out on my weight or pretty much blaming me for everything that went wrong but he has gotten better and on meds but I do wish you the best and away for you to get away from the abuse
Plutocratics
~plutocratics
<3 OH YOUUU
LillieBun
~lilliebun
OP
I love you bae! *smorches*
