getting worse
4 years ago
My mother says that because I do not act like a man that I am not trans. That I am going through a phase. I just keep being pushed farther and farther under the water. Soon it will be too deep for me to be able to swim up and I will drown.

Rascalraccoon
~rascalraccoon
wow that woman there are no good words to be said about her but you listen her view of what a man is does not define you a man can have emotions and show how they feel they can have compassion and the fact she cant see that makes her a horrible person to define what a man is

LillieBun
~lilliebun
OP
I feel like I should be allowed to want to continue to be feminine. I have dysphoria really badly and I feel like that alone should be enough for my mother. I am a really feminine guy. Thats how I see myself and how I feel I am. I don't think theres just one way to be trans. I'm really trying to be a good person and stay out of trouble. But I feel like my BPD is constantly sending alarms throughout my head telling me to do shitty things. I dont do them but its making it harder to control. My rps are the only thing keeping me from just flipping out and spiralling.