Hey you know I'm always here for you and I care about you deeply. Keep pursuing your goals and things will get better, just keep looking up and don't let life knock you down. I know you weren't delt a good hand and it's been a struggle, but if you've come this far you can keep going.

Honestly I really appreciate that, I will continue to push myself towards a more positive place and away from this rut, I need to also fight my vices a bit more so I don't go on these angry rants I feel like shit about when I read them more sober and less tired. (reasons I stay off of social media when I do decide to start drinking.)

the world is vanity of vanities. not always cheerful. just take care of yourself my friend. *hug*

I was depressed at age 7 and it was a regular trend till actually now in days, either I was targeted or god is a dick and made sure every turn I made was full of people want to hurt me mentally or physically for my childhood. And my teenage and young adult years, hard to care but I will try since from what has happened lately (I can't say anything here completely.) But yeah trying my best to better myself and taking care of myself when no one is willing to hire me for the amount I am allowed to work on SSI that I need due to my physical issues and mental issues I have.

I also had trouble in school. although there were people who understood or tolerated me. later, I partly believed in myself, and partly, I came across a better environment that began to perceive me for who I am. without showing childish aggression. I have earned respect for my good qualities. and the bad ones... well, no one is a saint. everyone needs to understand this. and work on yourself one way or another. I think that the whole life is not only to become rich and satisfy your needs, but also to become better yourself. though it's not the easiest thing to do. we are not victims! but everyone can show a weakness in something. and that's okay. we have strengths and weaknesses. and we must use this knowledge wisely by prioritizing or taking advantage of even weaknesses. In my case, I will add that I want to give up my negative dark, wrong, evil sides. (it is sometimes difficult to write with the help of a translator) and develop positive qualities.
I don't know if I succeeded in giving you confidence, but that was my goal. hold on brother. Look for the positive side in everything.