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3 years ago
Hello all the dearest! <3
This Journal shouldn't be here, but things took a different angle of growth even though I kept pointing them in a different direction. I'm telling you exactly what it is.
When I was in the hospital, I had nothing to do and I wrote a lot about Treka (if I can still call her that), I thought a lot about her. Then, when things got even harder, when I felt like it, all I could think about was her. For a long time this was my main topic of thought, and it is so far. I came up with a few ideas, but the most important was the biography. I had a few conceptions, but I couldn't finish any of them until I figured out why. what's going on? It is possible that my character will undergo a rework, there is a very good chance of that. When I first thought of her here, I wanted her to represent me to a very large extent, to be just me but with fur. At first it looked wonderful and easy, but when I faced the first major challenge, it turned out that nothing is as it should be with her. My character is not just a fiction here, but a true friend in my head. a sociable spirit that always keeps me company. Exactly, a ghost.. When I decided to develop things with her further, I realized that I couldn't create another me. It's just not possible. I accepted the fact that she will not represent me in 100% and will only contain references to me, but she will be reworked in a nice, creative and extensive way in my opinion.
I didn't reveal it before, but in the beginning, Treka had a different purpose for me. By the time I came up with her name, she was already in another world, literally. a world in my head, a world that's happening simultaneously with ours. I tried to lead 2 lives this way, now I see it's inconvenient. Remember Treka's feature about changing the color shade of her red accent? it wasn't just my imagination, I mean... it was. She comes from a certain land. I don't want to give spoilers because I'm sure I'll upload it here someday. It is a land full of fantasy. combination of kingdoms, villages, magic, old times in general, or just not developed. Treka takes her place there as a magical creature, a rare fennec species that, along with other rare species, appeared with the magical energy of this land, has special skills, spells, at least that's the theory. The question is, isn't it all going too far into this fantasy world? that's right.. It makes me sad.
What about her? what about my second self? I would really like to answer that ;/ Her topic has gone so high that probably even her name will be changed, I already have a few in mind. By that, I mean I also keep an eye on her whole backstory, personality, pretty much everything. The rest will come when I develop it. But now, I have to combine 2 topics that I've tried to keep apart and unfortunately I think she's going to face changeable times. What does it mean? quite a lot. And that's sad stuff. Many of you have imagined Treka, and a handful of you have poured my thoughts into visualizations. This may all be out of date.. First Treka portrait, Treka rising from the ashes, most of the plans, schemes and thoughts for her. I don't know what will happen with her yet, I'll find out when I delve even deeper into the world she lives in, I'm already after writing the next page of this.
From this place, I would like to apologize to all of you. With my mind still damaged, I tried to get the last drops of motivation out of it to imagine her. I started this topic too quickly, glad that it went smoothly, not thinking that it might get harder over time. Now I felt it because I was immediately thrown between 2 paths and I don't know which one to go now ;/ But what I know now for sure is that Treka can't stay as she is now. If I want to surround her with a bigger, more meaningful and true biography, biography which is also my second world, I would really like it. If I don't offend any of you with this, I will try to do my best to keep Treka in some part the Treka you associate ;3 maybe her name, appearance will change, but the species and white-red fur will remain ;3 I don't know yet about these compromises, I just need to develop it even more but I'm afraid to go in there because of you dears.. What should I do? I would be very grateful for any kind of advices from any of you x.x
This Journal shouldn't be here, but things took a different angle of growth even though I kept pointing them in a different direction. I'm telling you exactly what it is.
When I was in the hospital, I had nothing to do and I wrote a lot about Treka (if I can still call her that), I thought a lot about her. Then, when things got even harder, when I felt like it, all I could think about was her. For a long time this was my main topic of thought, and it is so far. I came up with a few ideas, but the most important was the biography. I had a few conceptions, but I couldn't finish any of them until I figured out why. what's going on? It is possible that my character will undergo a rework, there is a very good chance of that. When I first thought of her here, I wanted her to represent me to a very large extent, to be just me but with fur. At first it looked wonderful and easy, but when I faced the first major challenge, it turned out that nothing is as it should be with her. My character is not just a fiction here, but a true friend in my head. a sociable spirit that always keeps me company. Exactly, a ghost.. When I decided to develop things with her further, I realized that I couldn't create another me. It's just not possible. I accepted the fact that she will not represent me in 100% and will only contain references to me, but she will be reworked in a nice, creative and extensive way in my opinion.
I didn't reveal it before, but in the beginning, Treka had a different purpose for me. By the time I came up with her name, she was already in another world, literally. a world in my head, a world that's happening simultaneously with ours. I tried to lead 2 lives this way, now I see it's inconvenient. Remember Treka's feature about changing the color shade of her red accent? it wasn't just my imagination, I mean... it was. She comes from a certain land. I don't want to give spoilers because I'm sure I'll upload it here someday. It is a land full of fantasy. combination of kingdoms, villages, magic, old times in general, or just not developed. Treka takes her place there as a magical creature, a rare fennec species that, along with other rare species, appeared with the magical energy of this land, has special skills, spells, at least that's the theory. The question is, isn't it all going too far into this fantasy world? that's right.. It makes me sad.
What about her? what about my second self? I would really like to answer that ;/ Her topic has gone so high that probably even her name will be changed, I already have a few in mind. By that, I mean I also keep an eye on her whole backstory, personality, pretty much everything. The rest will come when I develop it. But now, I have to combine 2 topics that I've tried to keep apart and unfortunately I think she's going to face changeable times. What does it mean? quite a lot. And that's sad stuff. Many of you have imagined Treka, and a handful of you have poured my thoughts into visualizations. This may all be out of date.. First Treka portrait, Treka rising from the ashes, most of the plans, schemes and thoughts for her. I don't know what will happen with her yet, I'll find out when I delve even deeper into the world she lives in, I'm already after writing the next page of this.
From this place, I would like to apologize to all of you. With my mind still damaged, I tried to get the last drops of motivation out of it to imagine her. I started this topic too quickly, glad that it went smoothly, not thinking that it might get harder over time. Now I felt it because I was immediately thrown between 2 paths and I don't know which one to go now ;/ But what I know now for sure is that Treka can't stay as she is now. If I want to surround her with a bigger, more meaningful and true biography, biography which is also my second world, I would really like it. If I don't offend any of you with this, I will try to do my best to keep Treka in some part the Treka you associate ;3 maybe her name, appearance will change, but the species and white-red fur will remain ;3 I don't know yet about these compromises, I just need to develop it even more but I'm afraid to go in there because of you dears.. What should I do? I would be very grateful for any kind of advices from any of you x.x
Please don’t worry about the work that’s already been put into her! They were gifts that made you happy and that’s all that matters. They are still stunning in their beauty even if they are no longer “canon”
What do you want to be, beautiful girl? What makes you happy? That’s all your friends care about!
I’m so, so excited to see your world come to life!! I will be anxiously awaiting any updates you have on “Treka”, or, whatever you decide her name will be :)
I would love to have a chance to donate a little for a ref sheet as a Christmas present if you’d ever be willing 🥰 I would love to see that beautiful fennec imagined in your vision!
A life must develop. It must emerge, grow, change, and emerge again from the beginning. Even if I shed a little tear now that Treka will no longer be the Treka I got to know, I'm still glad that you're taking a closer look at her. You examine her, you analyze her, you compare her whether she still fits or satisfies you. That's exactly what my little detective is. You question yourself, you develop, you become stronger, more experienced and look ahead. I think that if Treka changes, has to change, then it is only to your advantage, because you are even more connected to each other. Do not be afraid of it. I, too, have gone through various transformations before becoming the way you met me here on FA. Just as Feyra and Bubi. And this development is progressing steadily.
Don't worry about the change you are going through, don't be afraid of it and don't worry too much about whether we will resent it. Because we won't. We are happy about you. We are happy with you. We are happy about all the news you reveal to us about you and Treka. We even want to support you when you are in a dead end and can't go back and forth.
Be proud of yourself that you are now starting a new project here on FA which will establish you even more, immerse you even more in our world and make you happier.
If you want to share your thoughts you know how to find me. Whether it's because you need help or because you want to share your latest Treka achievement with someone before it goes public. I am here for you. Cheer up, my sweet. You've already started the change. Keep it up! 🌹🥰
In addition to sunlight, you also reach for the stars. Because Livia sits high above and waits for you until she can finally descend to you. I look forward to this day with all my heart. It will be a great and joyful day for all of us. Work towards this day calmly and thoughtfully. Until then, I am waiting for another sign of life from you, Lilly.
Have a good time too, darling. We are all with you 🥰