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Anthro Artist | Registered: May 2, 2011 12:22:32 AM

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reason for my absence...

2 years ago

DOCTOR DOCTOR GIVE ME THE CURE CAUSE CANT STOP LOVING YOU!!! OOOOH~

be a good guy or girl and make everyone happy you can always use a ray of sunshine in your life.

im president nixon ahhh ooohhhhhh

so for the past couple years my drive for doing art has dwindled to a halt. i have no drive at all for doing any art as of late due to the fact im a game addict. i have adhd and have not been medicated since highschool so my mind cannot focus on the task at hand when im trying to do any art so projects get half assed and not completed. ive been dealing with constant money issues cause of my addiction to games and buying food when i dont need to when i have food at home. 



the constant issues i put myself through i feel like i put myself into a depressing state that i feel like doing nothing but playing my games. no motivation for me means nothing gets fucking done and im tired of it. im currently trying to push myself into motivation so that i feel better about myself feel better mentally and physically. im currently trying to go back to school for welding to get a better job and have a career in life so that i feel stable mentally, financially, and physically. sadly with the current inflations of school going on right now im trying to find the cheapest welding school i can aford. the major issue im having right now is FOCUSING i constantly lose my train of thought cause i cant focus for shit and due to this i think im forgetting too much on when i need to do certain tasks at hand and its becoming an issue even to my mother. 



for right now im going to be trying to go back to School as of right now and when i can i will try my hardest to come back to doing art which i love doing. just as of right now anything i try to draw just doesnt feel right or feels like i botched the peice.