I'm always lying to everyone around me I'm lying even to myself, I don't know why am i doing it and i feel very guilty for lying to my friends and relatives, i think i lied about something in previous journals, but i am bot sure, I'm not a liar on purpose, but i feel that something bad will happen to me if i tell the truth. I'm not lying about some big things, i am always lying about some trivia, like that it wasn't me who have broken the mug for example, it broke by itself, someone dropped it, or something like it. I don't like lying but i can't stop, it very confusioning as I can't even believe myself sometimes, i never lied on purpose i maximum omitted facts.
I think i will say more lies in future journals, but i will do my best to not do it and tell only truth without faking facts.